“Come on.” Andy grabs my arm and pulls me back
through the door.
“Crap.” kick the snow gloomily as we walk back to
the car. “Utter crap. Fat lot of use that was.”
“Well,
don’t know what you expected, to be
honest, Rose. They’re hardly going to say, ‘Oh yes,
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remember that mother, here’s her name, address and
telephone number,’ are they?”
“She might have.” round on him. “She might have, because she’s the one who told Sarah about me!”
He stops walking.
“She was there Andy—she met Holly. She might
remember her, might be able to tell me—”
turn back but he grabs my arm.
“She’s not going to tell you anything, Rosie—there
are laws, you know?”
“I know,” admit sulkily. “But—”
“And Sarah broke the law, Rose,” Andy continues,
his voice
whisper. “She’ll get into
lot of trouble if
anyone finds out—you have to be really careful about
this.”
“I am being careful.” hug the clipboard tightly. “But
Andy, how else am going to find my real mother?”
He sighs. “Maybe she doesn’t want to be found.”
look at him.
“Think about it, Rosie. She was seventeen.
Seventeen and pregnant and alone. She was going to give
you up for adoption, she ran away, she probably even gave
fake name—there were no seventeen-year-old Holly
Woodses, remember?”
sigh heavily, digging my toe into the loose gravel.
Andy’s right, the trail’s gone cold. It’s nearly eighteen
years cold. All have is name, and if that’s fake
then
have nothing. My mother walked out of that hospital and
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just disappeared into thin air, leaving me behind—the
only proof she ever existed.
She doesn’t even have birth record.
dig my foot deeper into the stones, losing my toes
in the dirt and grit.
No sign of her, even five years either side.
rewind my conversation with Sarah miserably in
my head. She was seventeen she was here— the girl’s name was Holly Woods …
Suddenly my heart begins to race.
The girl …
march back to the car. “We need to check the
records again.”
“What? Rosie, wait—”
“The birth records,” tell him, sprinting now. “We
got the wrong year!”
“Rosie, we checked,” Andy argues. “Five years either
side—there was no Holly Woods born at the right time to
be your mother!”
“No.” grin, my cheeks warm in the icy air. “Not my
mother …”
My fingers trip over themselves as type into the
database. hold my breath, tapping my foot nervously as
the computer scans the birth records.
page of details pings up before me.
“Bingo,” whisper, clicking the mouse.
Holly Marie Woods it reads.
Mother’s Maiden Name: Sinclare
Registration District: Maybridge
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Date of Birth …
The fifth of January, the year was born.
stare at the record, hardly able to believe it. There
she is in black and white. Holly Woods—the baby’s name, not the mother’s. Sarah must’ve misunderstood when
asked her—or did. But here she is. The other baby. Holly
Woods
“This is morbid,” Andy mutters beside me. “This is
so morbid, Rose. This girl died—Trudie’s baby died …”
look at the screen, goose bumps prickling my
arms. Mum’s baby If she’d lived, she’d have had my
mum—she’d have my life. But she died.
blink hard,
imagining her tiny body, tiny coffin. Sarah swapped us,
and she died—and Mum never even knew. She died
and
lived in her place.
stare at the record, guilt wrapping heavily around
my shoulders.
The day was born. My town. could be looking at
my own birth record, it’s so similar.
Suddenly, an icy shiver trickles down my spine.
This is my birth record
stare at the page again, my eyes wide, the facts
screaming out at me, clear as day. This isn’t some other
girl, some stranger, even Trudie’s daughter
These are my details: my name, my mother
scroll down quickly, scanning, searching.
Mother’s Maiden Name: Sinclare
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“That’s weird,” Andy says, reading over my
shoulder. “Why would you give your child
different
surname? Why Woods, not Sinclare?”
shrug. “Maybe it was my father’s name?”
“I thought she was alone?”
“She could still have named me after him.”
“Or maybe she wanted to distance herself …,” Andy
suggests carefully.
“From my real dad?” frown.
“Yes …” Andy hesitates. “Or
from you.”
stare at him.
“Rosie …” He sighs. “All I’m saying is
she was
going to put you up for adoption. Perhaps it was just
easier to call you something else. Maybe she wanted to be
harder to find.”
“That’s ridiculous,”
say, my cheeks hot. “There
could be million reasons why she called me that—maybe
she’s movie buff?
Maybe she just liked the name! The
point is, we don’t know Andy. We can’t ever know, unless we find her.”
“How?” Andy asks. “We don’t even know her first
name—it’s impossible!”
stare miserably at the screen. All we’ve got is
surname.
And town
Quickly, click on new search. type Sinclare into
the database, and, instantly, short list appears in front of
me.
smile spreads over my face as scan the screen.
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There’re only few entries for thirty-five years ago
and
only one in Maybridge!
“Bingo!”
Katharine Sinclare
My mother!
My heart pounding crazily, grab the phone book
again and flick through it clumsily.
gasp. There’s only one Sinclare
In Maybridge.
stare at the page. I’ve found her. I’ve really found
her
Andy looks at me, his eyes serious.
“Now what?”
Now what?
stare at myself in the mirror.
pull off my baggy T-shirt and turn sideways,
running my hand over my belly.
You can’t even tell, not really.
look normal—a
couple of pounds heavier, maybe, but no one would know
to look at me. They’d never guess
bite my lip.
can’t have
baby—how can I? It would ruin
everything! I’ve got
life,
dream.
dream that doesn’t
include becoming single teenage mother
watch as hot tear slides down my cheek.
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can’t do this. Not on my own. I’m too young—
there are thousand reasons
just can’t.
take deep breath.
It’s time to make decision, choose my future.
pull my top back on, shivering suddenly.
And no one would ever know.
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Chapter Seven
The first lampposts are flickering on as we pull up
few doors down from the pebble-dashed semidetached
house.
stare up at it, spellbound, Christmas lights
twinkling around the windows,
flashing reindeer
guarding the gravel drive.
can’t believe how close she was all this time. I’ve
driven past this house million times—it’s on my way to
school, for heaven’s sake!
“Rosie …” Andy hesitates. “I don’t think this is such
good idea.”
turn. “What?”
“You can’t just waltz up to some stranger’s house