The school year had begun winding down, and as I started planning how I would pack up my classroom, I considered the pros and cons to beginning a “cyber affair,” of sorts. After stewing over it for days, I decided to send “MC” a message. As I sat down to write, the nerve endings on my hands and arms felt like they’d migrated to the outside of my body. Everything tingled and I was more anxious than if I were going on a first date.

MC,

I am interested in expanding my journey into submissiveness. My situation is that I am married, but my husband and I are estranged and planning to get a divorce. I am definitely not the swinging type, so I prefer one-on-one interactions.

I would like to know what your cybertraining involves. Do you make money this way? Or do you just like doing this?

I read one of your posts about working with a woman where you used a webcam. Is a camera a necessity?

~Sophie

As soon as I signed my name I questioned if telling him my real name was such a good idea, but then I decided that if he didn’t know my last name, and if I didn’t talk with him on a webcam, my identity would be safe. I had set up another new email account, separate from even the email I had just set up for the dating sites, because I didn’t want to risk any personal information being available. It made me feel kinda dirty, but that was part of the thrill.

I waited on pins and needles for a reply, and the next evening I got one.

Sophie,

I’m pleased to hear you’re interested in cyber-training, but how serious are you?

I put a lot of time and effort into training and only wish to play with those who have a deep craving to uncover their submissiveness.

I absolutely do not get paid. I do this because I believe strongly in the lifestyle and have the experience and imagination to make the journey both erotic and sweet.

There are many ways to go about training via the internet. I can send you games or tasks via email. Once you agree to the task you will be expected to carry it out and send me back a detailed response. There are games that can be played over chat where you will be instructed and will respond in real time. There can be phone sessions and also cam sessions, so a webcam would be necessary for those play times.

All training would proceed at your own speed and comfort level, although I would push your limits and test boundaries. The training is highly sexual to help you discover your deep, dark secrets, and to help you find the very core of your sexual being.

Understand the training centers around you, to help uncover your true needs. Training takes time, and as we move forward I will begin to understand your needs and the best path for fulfilling those needs.

If you are ready to start playing I could send you some very simple tasks to start with, and we could go from there.

Be a good girl.

MC

As I read, the butterflies came back. The idea of a stranger leading me down a path of erotic self-discovery was both enticing and frightening. I liked being able to do it from home. I wouldn’t need to worry about a stranger abducting or hurting me. There wouldn’t be any need to worry about sexually transmitted diseases or pregnancy either.

An unfamiliar stirring started between my legs when I thought of agreeing to be a cyber-sub. I would be submissive to a man who lived somewhere else. The distance made it safer, and while I had a few doubts about what he might ask me to do, I couldn’t help but feel excited. I replied.

MC,

I am very serious about this journey. I had to ask those questions because online, let’s face it, you never know who you’re dealing with. You won’t know unless you ask.

One thing that concerns me is that I don’t how I will respond to pain. I have never ventured into that arena before. I can’t imagine any man I’d ever been with wanting to hurt me. But I did like the idea of trying to withstand the pain of something like candle wax (I saw that online).

I’d be happy to start with some simple tasks and see where we could go.

~Sophie

Within an hour, I found an email in my inbox from the mysterious MC. My hopes fell as I read it.

Sophie,

You’ve got me thinking about your husband and admittedly, I know very little about you, nothing about your husband and nothing about the dynamic of your marriage.

Is the lifestyle you’re exploring something you really want? Is this something that you could discuss with your husband? Have the two of you lived a vanilla life so far? Does he know you’re in communication with a Dom?

MC

MC,

My husband and I do not communicate with each other well or often. He has affairs with other women. He spends several nights a week “working late.” I have turned a blind eye because I believed staying married was my only option.

Recently, he texted me that he wanted a divorce and we have both seen divorce lawyers. We have no children, and I expect our divorce to be forthcoming. I guess I should have been more clear about it, but I’m only beginning to come to terms with the idea of being single again.

So that’s the story. What are your thoughts?

~Sophie

Sophie,

Thank you for sharing that. It helps tremendously with my thought process in charting a path. Trust is the basis of the Dominant/submissive relationship. Your divorce sounds like it may present some problems for you as it may complicate matters. However, it is not my place to judge or determine that, only to assist you on your journey. If at any time you feel your D/s training is at odds with your marriage or your divorce and you would like to stop, all you have to do is tell me. Please understand I have no desire to interfere in your marriage, and if you would like to proceed with training without his participation then I will agree to that. I will train you so that the next man in your life will find you a good little plaything with an unquenchable lust to be used.

For a Dom/sub relationship to work, both partners must go at the speed and tolerance of the sub, although the Dom must be able to push those limits and also know where to draw the line. There are safety words and devices in place, so both parties know if it goes too far. If pain is delivered properly, in the right doses and at the correct tolerance levels, eventually you will not recognize when the pain ends and the pleasure begins. You will long for more, and during a session you will have no problem telling your Dom how much more you need as he moves to break you. The breaking of the sub is the ultimate pleasure package, bringing you a total sense of freedom, and once completed you will turn to him to bring you back around by giving you the love and security you need.

I’m sure you have some doubts as well but as we move into your core deeper you will become a believer.

I will send you a small taste in a separate message and hopefully you see where your training can go.

MC

“An unquenchable lust to be used.” That phrase caught me off guard and made me press my legs together. Already, he seemed to know what buttons to push to turn me on. I restlessly awaited his next email with my first task, my pussy twitching as I tried to imagine the possibilities.

In about ten minutes it came through.

Sophie,

You sound very open-minded, which is a positive thing. I have many pain games to share with you that are safe and will build your tolerance.

Verbal abuse is part of the control. Crass language pushes you forward and releases your inhibitions, and provides intensity, which can sometimes be a challenge in cyber.