It doesn’t matter if at the time I tried to convince myself I was Lucia and acting like I wanted him. I didn’t. Not once. How could I when my heart sang loud and clear to me every single time that I was betraying the best thing that ever happened to me. The most precious gift I have been given. I’ve been given Camden.

The hurt in his eyes was unforgettable when I first stumbled upon those regretful words. I was forced to have sex with Colin. The gut wrenching tears, so uncontrollable pouring down my face shows how much I hate myself. It is the tears leaking from his stunning orbs that tells me how much he loves me. Not once did this amazing man blame me. Not once did he leave me and not once did he complain when it took me four months to be able to make love to him. To me this is only the beginning of what love is all about. We have so much more to learn about the meaning of love, but we are in this together, him and me facing our deepest demons together, forever.

 

THE END