“She was okay the last time I checked,” she said. “I don’t speak to her very often.”
“Because...”
She wanted to blame Skip. He’d been so nasty whenever she planned to visit the hospital. “I don’t see the point!” he’d growl, and he’d usually refuse to go with her. But she knew the real reason she avoided contact ran much deeper.
“She doesn’t know me anymore,” she said. She wasn’t sure why she’d told him about her mother. That wasn’t something she normally talked about. It had just...popped out, as if she couldn’t keep something so painful inside anymore. But she regretted it the second the words left her lips and she saw the sympathy on his face. She didn’t want him to think she was trying to make excuses for herself or manipulate his emotions. So she hurried to get behind closed doors where she couldn’t say anything else. And where she’d no longer be tempted to tell him how much she’d always loved him.
Cheyenne and Dylan were at coffee the next morning. So were Riley, Callie, Levi, Kyle and Eve. Once again, Ted had thought about skipping the weekly ritual. He was falling so far behind on his book. He figured that provided the perfect excuse to avoid the ribbing he was going to get for helping Sophia after being so opinionated about her. But then Eve called to see if he’d pick her up, and he knew that with Sophia living in his guesthouse, he needed to do all he could to be available to Eve and help his girlfriend feel secure.
When they walked into Black Gold together, they weren’t holding hands or doing anything else to announce that they were a couple—and yet Cheyenne’s smile stretched so wide Ted could tell she knew. That meant Dylan did, too—and the others would inevitably find out. He wasn’t ready for the added pressure. He and Eve would be the first official couple inside the group after all the years they’d been friends and that would generate more attention than he felt comfortable with. Especially now, when he had so much going on inside his head. But he couldn’t expect to keep the relationship a secret for very long. They were both too close to their friends.
At least it would put any suspicions that he had plans to get back with Sophia to rest.
Noah was the first to start in. “Hey, Ted. I hear that Sophia got a job.”
Everyone sitting at the table laughed and glanced at each other.
“I heard that, too.” Kyle joined the fun. “Apparently she wasn’t quite so mean in high school that you couldn’t forgive her. So...tell me, what was all that talk about?”
“Shut up,” Ted grumbled. “It’s not as if any of you were stepping up to help.”
“You were the one with the job,” Noah said. “We’re heading into the winter, which is my slowest time. I would’ve had to let someone go in order to hire her, and that didn’t seem fair.”
Ted spread his hands. “I felt sorry for her, okay? No big deal.”
“What was it he said last week?” Riley asked. “‘Actions have consequences’?”
Thank God no one seemed to know he’d let her move in with him, too....
Eve slipped her arm through his. “Come on, guys. Go easy. No matter what he says, Ted has a heart the size of Texas. That shouldn’t come as any surprise.”
Ted didn’t want Eve sticking up for him. It made the change in their relationship too obvious—obvious enough that Kyle suddenly took note of the possessive way she was touching him. “What do you know about his heart?” he asked.
Eve let go of him and tried to shrug it off. “We’ve been friends for years.”
“Are you still friends?” Riley asked, searching their faces.
Ted couldn’t deny the truth. That would imply that he was embarrassed about their involvement. So when Eve seemed uncertain about how to respond, he came out with it. “We’re seeing each other.”
Adelaide’s mouth dropped open. “Seeing each other as in...dating?”
“Isn’t that what seeing each other is?” he asked.
“I wasn’t sure, since you’ve been friends for so long and see each other all the time.” Addy hadn’t been part of the original group, hadn’t even been around after high school. Noah had included her when she returned a year ago.
“Since when?” Callie asked.
“Halloween,” Cheyenne chipped in with a knowing laugh.
“Whoa, apparently some people had more fun in the hot tub than others,” Riley teased.
Eve blushed. “Do you have to make it so embarrassing? It’s enough of a transition already.”
Noah rubbed his chin. “You hired Sophia but you’re dating Eve. Interesting reversal.”
Ted sent him a look that told him to stuff it. “We’ll skip the editorials, if you don’t mind.” Eager to get away from the group until the shock wore off, he turned to Eve. “Can I get you something? You want a yogurt?”
“Oh, my gosh!” Cheyenne cried. “How weird that Ted’s going to be buying Eve’s yogurt from now on!”
Kyle was the only one who didn’t seem to think this development was funny. He hadn’t said a word since the “big reveal”—and he got up and followed Ted to the line of people waiting to order at the register. “Hey, man, are you sure you know what you’re doing?” He kept a smile on his face, for the sake of the others, but his eyes were serious.
Ted couldn’t admit the truth, couldn’t show any uncertainty. That wouldn’t be fair to Eve. “Of course.”
Putting his back to the group’s table, Kyle tried again. “You remember how it went when Callie and I—”
“I remember,” he broke in to save him from having to spell it out.
“You have to think long and hard before getting that intimate with one of these girls.”
“I have thought about it.”
Kyle gave him a skeptical look as they moved forward in line.
“What?” Ted snapped, irritated by the fact that Kyle was forcing him to examine his motives and decisions.
“It’s just...so fast. One day you’re friends, like always. And now you’re lovers?”
“These things happen. You should know.”
“Exactly. So...where’s the heat between you two?”
“Maybe it’s not that kind of relationship.”
When the person ahead of them in line seemed to be listening, Kyle lowered his voice. “But it’s supposed to be now, isn’t it?”
“Eve and I don’t base everything on sexual attraction. Not everything,” he repeated when he realized that made it sound as if he didn’t want to make love to her.
“Listen...”
The guy ahead of them ordered, giving them more space but less time than they probably needed to finish this conversation.
“I lost the one girl I was dying to have,” Kyle went on.
Ted was surprised to hear him confess that, for him, there’d been no one who could compare to Olivia.
“It hasn’t been the same with anyone since,” he continued. “My marriage failed for a lot of reasons, but first and foremost it was because I didn’t love Noelle to begin with. We should never have gotten together. The year I spent with her, and the year I spent recovering from the divorce, which is when I slept with Callie, were the two worst years of my life. Some days it’s still hard dealing with the aftermath. Besides all the emotional bullshit, I have to pay Noelle a hefty amount of spousal maintenance each month. That means there’s no way to cut her out of my life entirely.”
Not only that, but he had to watch his stepbrother with the woman he really wanted—although Brandon and Olivia hadn’t shown up today.
“Anyway,” Kyle went on, “I don’t want you or Eve to go through anything like I did.”
The earnest emotion in his plea scared Ted. He’d been so decisive, so sure he could remain committed to Eve. But when he made love with her—like last night before they got into the Jacuzzi—it just wasn’t as satisfying as he wanted it to be. He’d actually felt a little...hollow afterward.
Was he letting her down by trying to force this? Were they better off taking a step back and admitting that they felt pretty much the same way they’d always felt toward each other? Or were his emotions the only ones that weren’t changing?