“Come on, Lex. It isn’t like that. You know you aren’t like anyone else,” he pleaded.

“What do you even mean by that? Did you think you could just che…” she caught herself before finishing the words, not wanting to instigate another round of we’re-not-even-together conversation, “sleep with someone else, and I would be okay with it? Is that how you thought I was different?”

“Well…” he ran his hands back through his long shaggy hair, his blue eyes lighting up with the energy in the conversation. “I didn’t know you’d freak out like this. After what happened with us, I don’t know…” he said trailing off.

“See, I knew what we were. I knew that we had cheated on other people with each other, but I guess I never thought I’d be on the other end of this…this hurt. I ignorantly thought now that we’re something, that wouldn’t come between us. We’re meant for each other, Jack, and you just went and ugh,” she shrieked angrier than before at his apparent ignorance of the gravity of the situation.

“I’m sorry, Lex, but I don’t see why you’d freak out about this after everything.”

“And there in lies the problem,” she mumbled slumping down to the floor. “I thought you only cheated on other people, because it was me. After all, I never cheated with anyone else other than you. But it wasn’t me all along, was it, Jack? There were probably others, and the connection I thought I was feeling was all a lie.”

“What?” he asked shocked. “No, that’s not the case at all. I didn’t lie to you.”

“So you didn’t sleep with anyone else while you were with Danielle or Kate?” she accused.

“You mean besides Danielle and Kate?” he asked pointedly.

Lexi choked on those words. “You slept with Kate?”

He looked down sheepishly. “Uh…yeah. Did I not mention that?”

Lexi shook her head trying to wrap her mind around that. The virgin had given up her virginity to the man who had cheated on her on numerous occasions. And for what reason? To be left behind. Lexi couldn’t process the information. She just couldn’t deal with it right now…not with everything else. “Yes, besides them.”

“No, it was only you, Lex. I meant everything I said to you. I just,” he sighed heavily, “fucked up. I fucked up, Lex. How many times do you want me to say it?”

“How can I even believe you?” she asked, her brown eyes were cold when they looked upon his face. She couldn’t express emotion properly right then. All she could imagine was him sleeping with someone else the night before. He had done it without any emotion or any forethought for how she would react or take the news. He had somehow in his conscious, even if he had been drunk, thought that she would be okay with this. Their relationship, or whatever you could call it, was completely off-base if that was what he thought.

“I haven’t lied to you. For Christ’s sake, I came to you and told you that I slept with Stella,” he confessed.

“Stella?” she asked her eyes hardening. She stood back up. “You didn’t tell me you fucked your roommate.”

“I…uh…are you sure?” he asked his face shifting away from his confident air.

“No, you didn’t,” she replied biting her lip to keep from lashing out at him with all the expletives she wanted to send his way. After taking a deep breath she spoke again. “How many times have you been together?”

“What? Last night was the first time.”

“Right.” It was her turn to be disbelieving.

“What are you trying to say?” he asked regaining his earlier composure.

“I find it hard to believe that you’ve only slept with that girl once,” she cried. “You worked together. She lets you move in with her. I mean, I’m not stupid. This can’t be the first time.”

Jack walked across the room bridging the distance between them. “I have never slept with her before,” he said emphasizing each word perfectly. “She was a mistake. It wasn’t supposed to happen. She just happened to be there.”

Lexi looked up into his beautiful blue eyes unable to believe some of things that were coming out of his mouth. Did he think that he was somehow improving his case?

Her breath hitched as he took one last step entering her personal space. She could feel the heat radiating off of his body. His hair fell into his eyes as he tilted his head to look into her face. She wanted to scream, yell, and run in the opposite direction, but her feet seemed to be shuffling the wrong way. His hand came up and cupped her chin tilting her head further so he could bend down and press his lips gently to hers.

Wrenching free from his touch, she stumbled across the room. She couldn’t believe how easily he overpowered her senses. Her heart was racing, but surprisingly not from the feel of his lips. She had never felt such anger over a kiss from Jack. He knew what he was doing and how she completely lacked composure around him. Except this time Lexi wasn’t going to let him win. She needed to talk to him and she needed answers.

“Who is going to happen to be there next time?” she spat at him, her eyes narrowing. “Stella happened to be there when you needed someone, but you could have easily called me and I would have come to you. I would have been there, but you didn’t want me there. You wanted to fuck something meaningless because you are too fucking afraid to let me in.”

“Lexi,” he interjected hoping to reason with her. He took another step forward nearly cornering her.

“Goddamnit, Jack! Don’t you take one more step towards me,” she yelled, her arms extending to push him away from her if necessary. “I need to have this conversation with you, not get lost in your stupid blue eyes.”

He smirked despite her seriousness. “Stupid blue eyes? I thought you liked them.”

Lexi glared. “Cut it out.”

“Fine. Sorry,” he mumbled.

They both stared at the floor not sure what the next course of action should be. Lexi felt numb from everything she had heard. Her body, which had already been aching from her run, hurt all over. She just wanted to cry, but at the same time, she felt as if she had no more tears left. Maybe if he had broken up with her, she could have cried. But not over this. She just hurt from this.

“Where do we go from here?” she asked him afraid of the answer.

“I was going to ask you the same thing.”

Lexi raised her head and stared at the man she had loved for close to four years. Could she give up everything over a one night stand? Was she really a hypocrite for being angry at him for sleeping with someone else? It’s not like they had set any boundaries, any rules. She had assumed that was a given. But then again, she had been on the other end of this scenario with his last two girlfriends. It only made sense for him not to know what the rules were, especially if he still had it in his mind that they weren’t officially together.

But that did not excuse how he was treating her.

“I think you should leave,” she finally said.

“I told you it was up to you whether or not we kept this going,” he mumbled crossing the room to the doorway.

“I didn’t say that I’d made a decision,” she said stopping him with his hand on the knob.

He turned around and looked at her wistfully. “You mean...”

“I mean you should get the fuck out, because I don’t want to see you for the next month or so, I’m so angry at you.” He hung his head. “But I doubt I’d ever make it a month after what we’ve been through.” His blue eyes looked up at her, hope apparent throughout the irises. “But I can’t look at you right now. I feel sick to my stomach at the sight of you. You don’t care about me, Jack. Or at least not enough to ignore a girl when she spreads her legs for you. I don’t know if that is enough for me. Don’t come back until you have something better to tell me.”

When Jack left her dorm, Lexi felt as if all the air had been sucked out of the room. She collapsed back against the couch and stared at the door he exited until her eyes stung from not blinking enough. What had she done? What had he made her do? How could he force her hand in such a way? So many questions ran through her mind. She didn’t know which to focus on first.