After he left, I didn’t fall asleep as quickly as I thought I would. It had been a recurring question from Kade over the years: Was I happy? It seemed Kade still had trouble sometimes believing all this—the house, the kids, our marriage. He’d told me once that he was so happy and content that it terrified him—it could so quickly be gone.
There wasn’t anything I could say to alleviate his fears, so when he got that way, I’d just hold him, tell him I loved him, then kiss him until he made love to me. He’d made all my dreams come true and I cherished each day because it was true—you never knew what the future held, but neither could you let the fear of it hold you captive.
Something woke me and I glanced around, figuring a nurse had come in, but it was a man’s silhouette that stood at the window.
I must’ve made a noise of alarm, because he turned and a shaft of light fell across his face. I breathed a relieved sigh.
“Blane,” I said, “you scared me to death.”
He walked to the bed and took my hand. “Sorry about that. And I’m sorry I couldn’t get here earlier.”
“It’s fine,” I said. “You’re here now. What time is it?”
“About three thirty,” he said.
“When did you get here?” I rubbed my eyes, glad the room was dark, because it wasn’t like I looked my best.
“About an hour ago.”
I pushed the button on my bed to move me to an upright position. “You didn’t have to come tonight,” I gently chided him. “You could’ve come in the morning.”
“Wanted to make sure you were all right,” he said, sitting down on the bed beside me. “And the baby.”
“Did Kade send you pictures?” I asked.
“He did.”
“Isn’t she beautiful,” I said with a smile. I leaned my head back on the pillow. The pain medicine was making me sleepy.
“She most certainly is,” Blane agreed, his lips turning up at the corners. His hold tightened on my hand. “I’m glad everyone’s healthy.”
“You’re an uncle again,” I said. “But I don’t think this one’s going to be as into fishing as the boys are.”
“Then I’ll have to find something else she’ll like just as much,” Blane said, reaching to tuck a lock of hair behind my ear.
My eyelids drooped. “I don’t know what we’d do without you,” I murmured.
Blane didn’t answer. The bed creaked and I felt his lips press against my forehead.
“Do you need anything?” he asked quietly. “Can I get you something?”
I pried open my eyes and shook my head. “No, I’m fine.” I smothered a yawn behind my hand.
“You should get some sleep,” Blane said, smoothing a few stray hairs back from my forehead.
I was pretty tired. “Okay. Will you be back in the morning?”
“I’ll stay,” Blane said. “I know how much you hate the hospital.”
I smiled. “That’s sweet of you,” I mumbled, my eyes slipping shut again. It was just way too hard to keep them open.
Blane tucked the blanket closer around me and lowered the bed again. I forced my mouth to move.
“I’m glad you’re here,” I murmured.
“Me too,” he said, the words so low I barely heard them, then I was out.
“Mommy!”
I looked toward the door as my youngest boy came hurtling toward me, only to get swept off his feet by Blane hoisting him in the air.
“Easy, buddy,” Blane said. “Your mommy’s a little fragile and so’s your new sister.” Blane gently sat him next to me on the bed.
“How’s Mommy’s Teddy Bear?” I asked him, leaning down and puckering up for a wet kiss.
“Good,” he piped up. Theodore was his full name, after my dad, but we called him Teddy. His hair was golden blond, his angelic looks a contradiction to his mischievous ways. “Dad got us doughnuts.”
“He did?” I said, glancing up at Kade, who’d followed Teddy through the door. “Did he bring me any?”
“Here you go,” my oldest said, handing me a paper bag. My hands were full, so Blane took it and set it aside.
“Kane, you want to meet your new sister?” I asked as he moved closer, eyeing the pink bundle in my arms a little skeptically. Kane was the spitting image of his father, right down to the unruly lock of hair that always fell in his eyes. Though he was only six, he’d been born with an old soul, it seemed, always the one to observe and take measure of things before committing himself.
“Boys, meet the newest member of the family,” I said, pulling the blanket aside a little so they could see her face. “Lana.” They both peered down at her.
“That’s kind of a weird name,” Kane said.
“It was your grandmother’s name,” I said, glancing at Kade. “She died a long time ago, but I think she would’ve liked your sister.”
Lana opened her eyes, blinking at the two little faces staring down at her. Then she stuck her tiny fist in her mouth.
“She’s kinda red,” Teddy said.
I laughed. “You were, too, when you were this small.”
“Glad you could make it,” Kade said to Blane, holding out his hand. They shook, which I always thought was a strange way to greet each other rather than with a hug, but I knew the reasons behind Kade’s preference, so I stayed silent.
“Wouldn’t have missed it,” Blane replied.
“I’ll trade you,” Kade said to me, brandishing a Starbucks coffee.
“You read my mind,” I said, handing him Lana and taking the coffee. I curved an arm around Teddy, who cuddled at my side, thumb in his mouth. Kade had been trying to get him to stop, but he was only three, so I just shushed Kade.
“Uncle Blane, when are we going to the farm?” Kane asked, walking over to him. It was what they called Blane’s house on Nantucket.
“Soon,” Blane said, ruffling the boy’s hair. “Summer’s almost here.”
“Oh my! Let me see her!”
We all turned as Mona entered the room with a flurry, followed by a grinning Gerard. Kade had no choice but to hand Lana over.
“It’s about time we had a little girl in the family!” Mona crooned. “Kathleen, I saw the cutest little pink shoes in the store the other day—I just had to get them. Then she needed a new outfit to wear them with, of course, so I added two new dresses to her wardrobe. Wait until you see them, you’ll just die, they’re so sweet.”
I grinned.
“Why do I think Lana’s going to be the most spoiled member of this family?” Kade mused, though his mouth was tipped up in a half smile.
Blane laughed. “I don’t think you’d be able to stop her,” he said to Kade.
“Oh, you boys hush,” Mona admonished. “Like you’re ones to talk. I spoiled you both rotten and I intend to do the same to this one.”
Everyone stayed for a while, passing Lana around, and I think Gerard was already making plans to build a barn to house a pony by the time they left. After a final round of kisses and hugs and promises to be good, Teddy and Kane went with them.
“I’d better bug out, too,” Blane said.
“Are you heading back to DC?” I asked.
He nodded. “I’ll fly out this evening, but I’ll be back in a few weeks, once the session ends.”
Bending over me, he kissed Lana’s forehead, then my cheek. “Bye, Kat.” He crossed to Kade and gave him a one-armed hug, slapping him on the back. “Congratulations. She’s amazing. You’re a lucky man.”
“Don’t I know it,” Kade said, and I was glad to see him give Blane a squeeze back before pulling away. “We’ll see you soon.”
Blane left and it was just me, Kade, and Lana.
“Chance and Lucy came by earlier,” I said. “They brought those.” I motioned with my head to another floral arrangement that stood next to Blane’s.
“Sorry I missed them,” Kade said evenly.
I rolled my eyes. Chance and Kade would never be best buddies, but they’d come to an unspoken truce over the years.
Alisha and Lewis came by shortly after that, then Clarice and Jack, and by the time the day was over, my room looked like a flower shop.
I was tired when we handed Lana over to the nurses and I thought Kade was going to leave, but he ended up sliding into bed beside me.