I oblige in the dessert that Ryland shamefully divulged he bought instead of preparing. As if that would blemish our date in some way. We sit on his couch with a roaring fire in the gas fireplace, talking about his childhood. How different of a person he’s become than his parents. With no pictures adorning the walls or propped on the mantle, I have no one to picture, except for my imagination of how he describes them.

Two hours later, my cheeks are sore from laughing at Ryland’s funny stories. It’s been a nice reprieve from the weeks of Dex overriding my thoughts. His sleek white car turns into the driveway and stops at the sidewalk that paves the way to the front door. A relieved breath leaves my lungs when Dex’s truck is parked behind Brady’s Camaro. He didn’t wrap it around a pole in an uncontrolled anger rage.

My lungs constrict again, desperately wishing it wouldn’t have released that amount of air. Dex stands in the garage, leaning over my car with his head facing the driveway. Rob glances over, the unfamiliar car’s headlights grabbing his attention, causing the tightness in my chest to deepen. When Ryland exits his side, I watch the two guys stand to attention and walk to the edge of the opening and my stomach weighs down like a ten-pound weight just landed on it. From the passenger seat, I silently beg to whoever is listening that the awkwardness that’s unfolding will end soon. Ryland raises his hand in the air in the form of a greeting with no response except a nod from Rob because Dex’s eyes are glued to mine, unnerving me with guilt.

Ryland opens my door, holding his hand out for me to take. My hand grips his as he helps me climb out of his car. I divert all of my attention away from the two in the garage as Ryland links his fingers around mine. Now comes the weird part, kiss or no kiss? Is Dex going to be peeking around the corner, or Sadie in the window? Maybe Ryland doesn’t even want to end our date with any intimacy.

At the welcome mat, we turn to face one another. “I had a really nice time, thank you.” I speak first.

“I did, too. I’m glad you accepted.” He releases my hand, but cradles my cheek in his palm. A small flutter begins, but the thought of Dex just around the corner squashes them immediately. Why are feelings of betrayal washing over me when I did nothing of the sort? “Can I take you out again?” He steps forward, our chests brushing along one another.

“Yes,” I answer.

“Next Saturday. Dress required.” He smiles, enticing my own to come out.

“Okay,” I accept.

He begins leaning close and my heart picks up pace a little, but he detours just as I’m about to close my eyes and wait for his moist lips to grace mine. “I’d kiss you, but I feel like we’re being watched. This will have to do until next week.” His lips press against my cheek and he backs up. “See you Monday.” He winks and then descends the steps to walk down the sidewalk to his car.

After I wave to Ryland, I turn the knob and step inside, shutting the door behind me. Releasing a tense breath that Dex didn’t barrel down the driveway, hauling off and hitting Ryland, I double-time it up the stairs to the solitude of my room. Tossing my body on the bed, it bounces up, and I throw my arm over my eyes, trying to compartmentalize Dex and Ryland in my brain. Ryland is so great and I wish I could demand my heart to veer to him, but hard as I might try, Dex’s hurt face standing in the garage is all my mind envisions.

WHEN I’D EXITED the house, the white car was foreign, but we’ve had wedding people in and out of the house since Brady asked Sadie to marry him, so I didn’t over think it. Why I didn’t figure out leaving a very made-up Chrissy upstairs and then a new car in the driveway meant a date, I have no fucking clue. A date … she’s accepted an invitation to be in the presence of another man. It shouldn’t pain me the way it did when I glanced over after pulling out.

There in the middle of the street, my eyes saw her smiling over as they left the house. The happiness I want for her, evident on her face at that moment, tormented me like a knife slowly piercing the skin. I felt every millimeter of the sharp device breaching my skin. Doing what I do best when it comes to Chrissy, I sped off. Left her instead of the obvious alternative of jumping out of my truck and claiming her as mine.

Toying with going to my dad’s and drowning it all in numbers to win some money, I couldn’t do it. Something felt so wrong with gambling away my jealousy of Chrissy moving on. As if that would confirm my deepest fear that I’m not the best guy for her. Strange, because I’ve been on a roll lately. Spending most of my time there in order to forget her; however, it’s done the opposite. Maybe because she’s too close to it, and her disapproval in my involvement has always spoken volumes.

So, I do the next best thing besides gambling. I jump onto the highway and accelerate, weaving in and out of cars. My truck’s engine practically smoking by the time I pull off and park on the side of the road. I slam my fist into the steering wheel and sit there, dissecting Chrissy and me, our friendship, and when did my heart begin wanting her for more? When did my imagination become overrun with visions of her below me? My lips brushing along hers, tasting her.

When I couldn’t think any more about ‘what if’s’ and maybe ‘could be’s’, I resorted to my friends and went home. I find Rob hunched over in the garage, socket wrench in his hand, his forearm flexing and releasing with every twist. He sees me immediately, a smirk indicating he had.

“You want me to break something else?” Rob asks me when I stagger up to the garage.

Pushing my palm over my head, I release a breath. “Why would you do that?” I ask him.

“I’m just doing an oil change for her. I could accidentally break a part. A really tough part that is hard to get,” he remarks, and it’s the first time I thought about that. If it continues to be awkward, she’ll leave. My gut constricts with the mere thought of not seeing her face or hearing her laughter with Sadie late at night. I’ve grown used to her shampoo in the shower, her toothbrush next to her sink. The flowery scent that lingers in the bathroom long after she’s finished getting ready.

“She can leave whenever,” I say offhand. I’m not like the other guys with their whole let’s talk about our feelings shit.

Rob eyes me from the cooler, pursing his lips together. “All right, man,” he says, not believing a word that I’m uttering. Since we’re so similar, he’s happy to play my game.

Not sure why I torture myself by staying in the garage, waiting for that white car to return. She wouldn’t sleep with him, right? What if he makes a move on her? Worse, what if she accepts? The nightmare of the white car never coming back tonight has murderous scenes flashing in my mind.

After hours of me checking my phone for the time, Rob’s snide remarks, and a case of beer between us, the car pulls up. The quiet purr of his engine turning into the driveway and stopping by the walkway, where he turns off the car. Crap, he’s actually going to walk her to the door.

“Who’s this?” Rob walks to the edge of the garage, his arms stretched above, gripping the frame.

I keep the answer to myself, because the sentence can’t escape my lips without a stutter. Ryland Davis exits the confines of his car with a wave to us. My eyes fixate on Chrissy’s troubled hazel gaze staring right back at me through the window of the passenger side. Crossing my arms over my body, I watch another man open her door, offer her his hand, and her accept. All the while, my heart aches with the impact of the weight piling onto it, and I fight every impulse to run and capture her.