Fuck, she could ruin me.

I watched the minutes tick by, dreading the moment my alarm signaled the end. Her eyes flew open as the alarm began to screech.

“Good morning, handsome.”

“Morning, Sophia.” I said.

“Have you been up long?”

“Nah, just woke up a few minutes ago.” I lied.

“I’m sad the weekend is over, I didn’t want to sleep last night.” she said.

“Me too, Sophia. Fuck, I’ll come see you as soon as I can.”

“I know you will. Maybe we can Skype, so I can at least see your face each day.”

“Hell yes. Maybe you’ll see more than my face, remind you of what you’re missing.” I moved my eyebrows up and down for effect.

I couldn’t take the sadness; I needed my lips to be entangled with hers during our last moments in bed together. I conveyed all the passion and longing I felt towards her in that kiss. My cock grew hard and ached to be inside her again, but I knew she sore. She would feel me for days as it is. I ended the kiss slowly with a bite of her lip.

“I have to jump in the shower, baby doll.”

“Okay, I’ll pack my bags,” she said while stretching, giving me a full view of her naked body. Did she know what she was doing to me?

I showered quickly, not wanting to miss a moment. My balls were aching to be inside her again… this distance bullshit was going to be torture. By the time I finished getting dressed, she was packed and ready. I helped her carry out her bags with a heavy heart.

I grabbed and kissed her, cradling her face in my hands. I could feel wetness touching my fingers as she wrapped her arms around my body. Neither of us wanted the weekend to end, but the real world awaited our return.

Sophia drove away. Mother fucker. I never thought it would be so hard to say goodbye to anyone ever again; I had made sure of that until she came into my life. I had so many regrets in my life. How would my life have been different if I would have met her years ago?

Never Say Never

The chirping of my phone woke me from a dream.

Kayden: I dreamt of you last night… Shit, did I wake you?

Me: Yeah, but I don’t mind, you’re worth the lack of sleep. Tell me about your dream.

I rubbed my eyes and tried to focus on the screen. My eyes were so blurry without my contacts and the screen was blinding.

Kayden: It was fucking fantastic. It was such a tease though; I wish I didn’t wake up.

You were face down ass up and I was pounding you, balls deep.

My mouth suddenly went dry. His words elicited visuals that caused all moisture in my body to pool elsewhere.

Me: Like doggie style?

Kayden: Not really. Your face and chest are on the bed with your ass sticking up in the air, back bent. I would be standing, holding your waist, with my knees bent. It’s an entirely different angle compared to doggie style.

I was so fucking clueless when it came to sexual positions. I’d always been the queen of missionary. I switched to my browser looking it up, but nothing really explained it to my satisfaction.

Me: Um, I may have to look that one up.

Kayden: It’s so fucking sexy and makes for a great view for me. I love that about you, so innocent and inexperienced.

I’m sure it was a novelty to him, but my inexperience could become boring to him over time. I chewed on my lip thinking it could happen one day.

Me: Ugh, maybe a little too inexperienced for you.

Kayden: Never. I can mold you into anything I want. It’s perfect.

Me: If you say so.

Kayden: The dream will give me something to think about all day. Gives me chills just thinking of doing that with you. Next time I see you… your face will be buried in the sheets.

Oh hell, I had so little experience when it came to sex. My lovers had been so bland in their lovemaking. I always wanted more… hair pulling, ass smacking, rough sex filled with passion. I had always fallen for the safe, boring lover that preferred missionary position in a bed instead of fucking in a car. Kayden filled a void that I had yearned for.

We messaged all day, naughty tidbits that we wanted to do to each other... I ached for him. I couldn’t wait for him to finish so we could Skype. I wanted to see him and maybe give him a peep show. Since he had a dream about me, I’d give him the images to match. I wanted to drive the man insane with lust for me. He might’ve thought I was innocent, but I felt particularly naughty when it came to Kayden.

Suzy, my roommate and co-worker, and I spent the day together. We cleaned while we danced around the house—anything to help the time pass. I told her all about Kayden and about our time together in New Orleans. She and I were very different, but our friendship worked somehow. She was younger and always filled with questions about love, relationships, and sex. We shared a love of reading; although her tastes were a bit tamer than mine.

She wanted to know everything about our relationship. She was so blunt with her questions, but I never minded someone who spoke from the heart with pure curiosity.

“Did he use a condom?” she asked.

“No, we’ve been tested and I’m on the pill,” I said, chomping on a cookie.

“I don’t know if I could do it, I’d be too scared.”

“I’ve never been pregnant, even when I was trying, I don’t think I have to worry about it. I take the pill out of precaution, not out of necessity.”

“Did you really have sex in the car?” she asked, noodles hanging from her mouth.

“Yes, I kind of got lost in the moment. I’ve never had sex in public before, thank God it was dark.”

“I can’t wait to meet him, Sophia. He’s the first man I’ve heard you gush about in a long time.”

My phone chirped and I looked at the screen hoping it was Kayden.

Kayden: I’m home and logged on, ready?

I excused myself for a bit and headed to my room. I grabbed my iPad off the nightstand and plopped on the bed. I tapped on his picture to connect, and he accepted on one ring.

“Hey baby,” he said, lying on his bed shirtless.

“You’re so sexy.” I moved my face closer to get a better look.

“Checking me out?”

“No, I just don’t have my contacts in,” I said, laughing and squinting at the screen.

“Liar,” he said.

“I have something to show you.”

Suzy tapped on the door. “May I come in?” Suzy asked timidly.

“Sure, Suzy,” I replied quickly and with a snicker.

She opened the door and walked to the foot of my bed. My iPad faced away from her, pointed directly at me. She didn’t know we were video chatting. She started talking about a guy she met through an online dating service. He wanted her to come to his apartment, but told her he had no furniture except an air mattress. She wanted my opinion on whether she should meet him or not.

“Absolutely not, Suzy. Don’t even think about going there. You don’t know him, and I don’t like the idea that he doesn’t even have furniture. He could kill you and be gone, without a trace, in sixty seconds,” I told her. What kind of creep would tell a girl he met online to meet him at his apartment … without any furniture?

“She’s right, Suzy. Don’t,” Kayden stated firmly.

Suzy looked around the room clearly wondering how she heard a man’s voice. I looked down at the iPad and smiled at him. She started laughing.

“Kayden?” she asked.

“I certainly hope it wouldn’t be any one else,” he said with a hint of seriousness in his voice, but a smile dancing across his features.

She moved around the bed and flopped down next to me. They began talking about the stranger online. She pointed out to us that we were strangers that met online. In a way, she had a point, but we had a commonality. I had placed calls about Kayden and felt safe after my brother said I had his blessing. We both told her that she needed to be careful about whom she met and to always make sure it was in public. She was such a trusting and naïve person with a kind heart, always thinking the best of people. She wouldn’t know a bad person or an unsafe situation until it would be too late. I had to look out for her and guide her.