I shimmy away from the wall because I look like an assault victim and attempt to stroll casually to my desk. I collapse into a chair and stare at him glassy eyed.

“What the hell?” I say.

 Aside from a different haircut and a few more eye crinkles, he looks exactly the same.

“I looked for you.”

“Did you now?”

“For a year after you left…”

“You must not have looked hard enough,” I quip, though I know it isn’t true. A year after I left Florida, Bernie called to tell me that a gentleman was calling the office inquiring about my current whereabouts. She said he had a British accent.

“I married her Olivia.”

“Who?”

“Leah.”

“I thought you were Johanna Smith’s husband?” My head is spinning.

“Leah’s her middle name, she’s always gone by Leah and she kept her last name. Johanna Leah Smith.”

The word “married” rings in my head repeatedly and I rub my temples at the ugliness of it. Caleb was married. Wedded. Bedded. A family man.

“Caleb,” I choke on his name. “Why are you here? Actually, don’t answer that—just get the fuck out.”  I raise my voice and stand up.

“I wanted to see you, to speak to you before you saw me for the first time in front of everyone.”

I sit down again.

“You were the one looking for me? You were trying to find me to take Leah’s case?”  He nods.

“No,” I say. “No way—ever. Never. No.”

 Maybe she never told him about what I did. He just thinks I picked up and left. He still hasn’t got his memory back!

“Yes,” he says standing. “You’ll do it. She’s guilty and you’re the best liar I know.” Okay, maybe she did tell him.

I snort and look away.

“I have no motivation to win this case for you,” I smirk leaning back in my chair.

“You owe me,” he smiles. “I know you don’t have much of a conscience, but I think after what you put me through, twice, you might want to consider taking the case.”

“I would have told you the truth eventually,” I mumble. That’s if Ariel the pharmaceutical fraud hadn’t blackmailed me, but anyways….

“Would you have Olivia? Or, were you waiting for me to find out for myself when my memory came back?”

I look up at the ceiling and frown.

“Look, I’m not here to discuss the fact that you are lying, manipulative, and heartless.”

Ouch…

  “I’m asking for a personal favor. I know how you feel about her. I know what she did but I need you to make sure she doesn’t go to prison.”

“I want her to go to prison.”

Caleb looks at me strangely, his eyes roam over my face then my hands.

“I don’t. She’s my wife. And, I’m asking that you take my feelings into consideration for once.”

It hurts so much to hear him say ‘wife.’ I know it shouldn’t, but it does.

“You can’t guilt me into defending that viper! Besides, Leah would never agree to it,” I shoot back at him, “there is a mutual hate between the two of us, in case you haven’t noticed.”

“Leah will do what I tell her to do. I need your assurance that you will do everything in your power to help her.”

I feel a rush of adrenaline. I could take the case and loose on purpose! Yes! But, I know I would never. My days of toying with people’s lives are over. O.V.E.R.

“I can’t,” I am digging my fingernails into my thighs to keep from screaming.

“Yes, you can,” he says, placing both hands on my desk and leaning towards me. “You’re obsessed with your own success—always have been. Take it. Win the case, Olivia. You’ll be rich, famous…and I might even consider forgiving you.”

Forgiveness? I picture myself having dinner at their house; just me, Leah, Caleb and their kids…

I almost laugh out loud.

I glare at him. He’s still the most handsome man I’ve ever seen. Red-head marrying, amnesia getting, bastard!

“I’ll see you in the boardroom at nine o’clock to let you know my decision,” I say, ending the conversation. He gives me a look I can’t decipher and he straightens up to leave.

“Make the right decision, Duchess,” he says before walking out the door.

“Duchess,” I snicker and I throw a stack of sticky notes in his wake.

I take exactly one hour and forty-five minutes to compose myself. The indescribable shock of seeing him after so many years has left me slumped in my chair like a discarded rag doll. I keep seeing the part where he turns around and I splatter coffee out of my nose.

I do breathing exercises. I tranquilize myself with thoughts of happy rainbows and ice cream, but the colors keep turning black and the ice cream melts into a dismal mess. When I have grasped onto some semblance of calm by stabbing a letter opener repeatedly into Leah’s case file, I head over to the boardroom.

“He is hot!” the secretary whispers to me as I pass her desk.  I feel my eye twitch.

“Oh, shut up.”

When I walk into the room, I see Leah first. How could I not? She is still surrounded by a halo of red hair. It seems brighter than four years ago, more vibrant. I wish I had listened to Dobson the rapist, that day in the rain and gone home, than none of this would be happening.

Caleb stands when I enter. Charming. Leah looks away. Bitter.

“Olivia,” Bernie says beaming at me. “I’d like you to meet Leah Smith and her husband Caleb Drake.”  We all shake hands and I take my seat across from them. Caleb who has his arm slung over the back of Leah’s chair, smiles at me like we’re old buds and then winks.

  So unfair.

Leah looks at me through her lashes and doesn’t even attempt to smile.

 “I’ve reviewed your case, Mrs. Drake—”

“Smith,” she corrects me.

“Right.  I pride myself on being honest, so I’m going to tell you upfront that the prosecution has an air tight case. ”

Caleb grunts a little at my mention of honesty. Leah looks green. I continue, despite the dirty looks Bernie is giving me. She thinks I’m going to scare them off and ruin the firm’s chance with the case. “They have witnesses that are willing to take the stand and testify that you had everything to do with doctoring the results of the drug, Prenavene.”

  I clasp my hands beneath my chin and watch Caleb squirm next to his filthy, disgusting wife.

“The current DA has the highest prosecution rate in the state of Florida. They are going to come after you for this with their guns pointed, do you understand that? Everything that you are, who your father was—it’s all going to come out in court. When they are done, there won’t be a lie left to expose.”

Leah stares at me blankly. I know I have scared her far worse than I should have. There are tears swimming in her eyes. I go in for the kill.

“You don’t always win,” I say, looking at her pointedly. She looks up at me, recognition fresh in her eyes. The room is quiet. Everyone is either aware that there is something going on or they are asleep. I don’t move my eyes from Leah.

“Can you help me?” she says, finally and I hear the desperate strain in her voice. I sit back in my chair.

This is something—my nemesis asking me for help. I knew karma would come for both of us but geez, it’s really kicking her ass. I have control of her life. I look at Caleb. I have control of his life too. I take my time answering her. Standing up, I walk with my hands clasped behind my back.

“I can.”

She seems to visually sag in relief. “What are you willing to do to be found innocent in this case?”  She was silent for a moment as she studied my face, the same way I was studying hers. Then, she leans forward in her seat, resting her bright red fingernails on the conference table like she is touching piano keys.

“Anything. I’ll do anything.” And as I sit there bound in a moment so frigidly tense I get goose bumps. I believe her. We are the same. Both of us are willing to barter with our souls to ensure our happiness. We’ve loved the same man. We’ve engaged in a dirty, tug-of-war to possess him, and we both have something to atone for.