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He kept staring at me. Finally, he tore his gaze away. He stared at the painting next to us.

He was wearing a black suit with a gray tie. It fit his chest perfectly, and the pants made his legs look slim. His shirt was cuffed at the wrists and he wore a Rolex. He looked like a million bucks. His blue eyes glowed in the dim lighting of the gallery, and his chin was free of hair. He must have just shaved. His hair was short and styled, making him look like an executive or stockbroker. “You look handsome.” I said it without thinking twice about it.

He turned back to me, his eyes a little softer than before. “Thank you.”

Silence stretched for a minute. He stared at me and I stared back at him.

What the hell was going on?

The tension was killing me. “Did your patient like your gift?”

It took him a moment to process what I said. “She didn’t know what it was at first, but once I explained it to her, she was very excited. And she’s also excited about all the games.”

I smiled. “Sounds like you made her day.”

“I think I made it a little better. It’s the least I can do.”

“What did she do for you?” I asked.

He rubbed his chin then returned his hand to his pocket. “She made me a better doctor. She taught me to be more compassionate. And she taught me not to be scared of getting close to other people. Loss is a part of life. And it’s better to get close enough to the fire to burned than to never feel the warmth at all.”

This was the side of him that I loved. When he was real and open, he was interesting and true. His soul was beautiful and he was a joy to be around. His words echoed in my mind long after he said them. “You’re a beautiful person.” I wasn’t thinking before I spoke. He was being vulnerable with me so I decided to do it back. “I like this side of you. I want to see him more often.”

Ash continued to stare at me, but his reaction was hidden. I felt my heartbeat in my chest, and it quickened the longer he looked at me. His eyes were no longer guarded and I could see whom he was underneath, but just a sliver. There was more to his depths than shallow water.

I waited for him to respond but he never did. He stared at me and I stared back at him, getting lost in his eyes. Everyone moved around us, but I felt isolated from the room. Classes clanked together and people spoke in quiet conversation, but I felt like Ash and I were having a conversation of our own. I just couldn’t understand it.

“There you are.” Payton touched my arm. “I’ve been looking everywhere for you.”

It took me a moment to break the trance. “Hey.” I looked at her purple dress. “You look nice.”

She looked me up and down. “And you look hot.”

I chuckled. My sister was always so blunt. “Thanks.”

She turned to Ash. “Ooh…who’s this?”

“My…” Should I say neighbor? Friend?

“Friend,” Ash finished for me. He shook my sister’s hand. “Ash. It’s nice to meet you.”

“Payton.” She batted her eyelashes at him. Then she turned back to me. “Let’s head to the stage. They are about to have the bidding.”

“I’ll be there in a second.”

She drifted away.

Ash was staring at me again.

I fidgeted in place. “I think you and I got off on the wrong foot…”

“No, we didn’t.” His voice was quiet. “I was a jerk to you. Your initial impression of me was dead on. All I wanted was to sleep with you.”

His honesty caught me off guard. “Is that what you still want?”

“No…I’d like a friendship as well.”

As well?

“I’d be lying if I said I didn’t think you were the most beautiful, most desirable woman I’d ever seen. The moment I saw you, I wanted you. I’d like to say I’m a perfect gentleman with only pure thoughts, but I’m not. However, I do respect you and I would never do anything to make you uncomfortable. If all I’ll ever get from you is friendship, I’ll settle for that.”

I was the most desirable woman he’d ever seen? No one had ever said anything like that to me before. I was lucky if I could get Jace to look at me the way he gawked at our waitress. He sat on the other side of the couch from me, acting like I wasn’t even there. He never held my hand anymore. He never stared at me the way Ash did. I didn’t feel beautiful with him, and I certainly didn’t feel like the most beautiful woman in the world.

“I’m sorry if my words made you uncomfortable. But you asked me a question and I answered it. I may be a jerk, but I’m an honest one. I’ll tell you exactly what I’m thinking and I won’t shy away from the truth. Some people find it refreshing. Others despise me for it. I’m not sure which one you are…”

“I’m not sure either…”

He stared at me for a few seconds. “Either way, I’d like it if we could be friends. While arguing with you is fun, I’d prefer a normal conversation once in a while.” The humor was in his eyes.

“I’d like that too.”

He extended his hand to shake mine. “Friends?”

I smiled then shook it. “Friends.”

He dropped his hand then walked with me to the stage where the auction was being held. He stood beside his sister while I joined mine.

“He’s cute,” she whispered in my ear.

“He’s my neighbor,” I whispered back.

“Seriously? I’m officially your new roommate.”

I rolled my eyes.

Rydell quieted the crowd. “We did something a little different this time. Two of my most accomplished artists teamed up together and created a different form of art. One represents reality, while another represents wishful thinking. Each photograph and painting will be auctioned off separately.” He cleared his throat then began with the first painting. “The Purple Meadow. The auction is now open.”

Hands shot in the air, and people immediately made their bids.

“Five-hundred.”

“A thousand.”

“Two thousand.”

Holy shit.

I eyed Livia, seeing the shock on her face. Scotty was staring at her, a smirk on his lips. Her mother gripped her shoulder, clenching her hands in excitement. Pride was on her father’s face. Ash grabbed her hand and held it within his own.

“Going once…going twice…sold to the lady in red.”

Applause broke out.

Livia’s mother kissed her on the cheek. “You’re blessed with such talent, dear.”

My heart hurt just from watching them. They were such a close family. They surrounded her, showering her with love and adoration. They were a unit, a team. She was loved by everyone, showered with affection.

I didn’t have parents because neither one of them wanted me.

“Our next piece is The Never Ending Sky. The auction is officially open.”

Just like last time, people bid like crazy.

“Fifteen-hundred.”

“Twenty-five hundred.”

“Three-thousand.”

“Going once….going twice…sold.”

Livia was practically smothered by her family. Scotty gave her a kiss on the neck, something intimate but subtle. Then he stared at her, the pride beaming in his eyes.

My boyfriend didn’t even show up. I sat beside him on the couch, completely ignored.

“Now the photographs.” Rydell revealed them. “Let the auction begin.”

“Eight-hundred.”

“A thousand.”

“Fifteen hundred.”

I wasn’t listening. I suddenly felt alone. I was grateful my sister was here, but she was all I had. My grandmother was sick, I had no idea where my father was because he took off when I was just a year old, my mom was an alcoholic, and my boyfriend was…not really there.

“I can’t believe how much people are bidding on your photo.” Payton clapped her hands in excitement.

Huh? I wasn’t even paying attention.

“Sold to the lady in the back. Now for the next piece, The Purple Meadow.”

The bidding started again.

This should have been a meaningful moment in my life, something to mark the time and effort I put into getting here. I should be happy, but I wasn’t. I was depressed. I was alone. I was…hollow. I tried not to be jealous of Livia but how could I not be? She actually had a family.