old. You know his parents barely talk to him. We’re the only family
he has.”
“I don’t give a shit about Caleb!” I shout and my lungs nearly
combust. But it feels good. Really, really good. I press my hand to
my chest, calmly let go of the countertop, and straighten my
shoulders. “I’m going to go out to breakfast with Seth.”
Her eyes are amplified and her lips start to part in protest,
but the look on my face quiets her. She cinches her mouth shut as
the lid slips off the bottle. “Fine, have fun.” The pills rattle as she pours a couple into the palm of her hand.
I put the cereal back in the cupboard, set the bowl in the
sink, and hurry out the back door. I run across the driveway and
jog up the steps of the two-story garage. When I open the door,
I’m surprised to find Seth sitting on the edge of the bed, awake
and dressed in a red T-shirt and a pair of dark denim jeans.
“You’re up,” I say as I shut the door.
He tousles his hair into place with his fingers. “I woke when
you ran out of here like there was a fire. What was up with that?”
I shuck my jacket off, ball it up, and toss it onto the bed. “I
saw my mother heading out here and I didn’t want you to have to
deal with her.”
He hooks his watch onto his wrist as he wanders over to his
shoes that are at the foot of the bed. “Callie, no matter how many
jokes we make, I can handle your mom.” He slips his foot into his
boot. “Trust me, if I can handle my own mom, then I can definitely
handle yours.”
I frown as I sink down onto the edge of the bed. “But you
haven’t talked to your mom since you told her about Greyson.”
He shrugs as he laces up his shoe and fastens a knot. “She’ll
get over it. It’ll just take some time, just like it did when I told her I was gay.”
I flop back onto the bed and drape my arm over my
forehead. “How do you decide what’s worth telling your parents
and what’s not?”
He’s silent for a while and then I hear his footsteps as he
walks around to my side of the bed. He lifts my arm off my head
and looks down at me. “If you’re asking me if I think you should
tell your parents about what happened with Caleb, then the
answer is yes. I think you should.”
He releases my arm and I lean up on my elbows. “How can
you be so sure?” My mouth sinks to a frown. “She could get mad
at me. Or she could hate herself as much as I hate… hated myself.”
Seth brushes my bangs out of my eyes with his fingers.
“Callie, if she hates herself for a while, then she hates herself for a while. You’ve been carrying around the burden for the last six
years and it’s about time someone else took a little bit of the
weight off of you.”
“I’m not sure I can,” I whisper, clutching at the dull ache
inside my chest. “There’s just so much… so much acceptance in
telling her the truth.”
“Like you might have to accept that it’s finally real?”
I nod as I gaze at the clear sky outside. The sunlight is
beaming down on the houses across the street. Sunlight is a rare
occurrence in Afton, but maybe it’s a sign that not everything is
caped in darkness. That light does exist even in the darkest of
corners.
He moves back as I sit up and head for my bag on a fold-up
chair near the door. “I was thinking we could go out to breakfast
this morning. There’s this café in town that has the best pancakes
in the world.” I take a purple shirt out of the bag and a pair of
jeans.
“I was thinking we could go see Kayden first,” Seth says as he
texts something on his phone.
“But he’s not allowed visitors.” I hold my clothes to my chest
and head for the bathroom to change.
“Yeah, he is.” Seth sets his phone down on his knee and
takes a deep breath. “I just got a text from Luke saying that not
only is Kayden allowed to have visitors but he’s leaving the facility today.”
I stop in the middle of the room as reality finally catches up
with me. Although I’d never admitted it aloud, I’d wondered if I’d
ever see Kayden again. That maybe he didn’t even exist and that
everything that had happened between us was just my
imagination attempting to force my mind to thrive again. “Should
we wait for him to get out and then go see him?” I stare at the
open bathroom door.
The mattress squeaks as Seth gets up from the bed and
steps into my line of vision. “I think we should go pick him up.
Luke said that his mother’s supposed to and then she’s going to
take him home, but he thinks we should go pick him up and take
him somewhere.”
I raise my chin up and meet his eyes. “Like kidnap him?”
Seth laughs at me and his face turns red and his eyes water
over. “He’s nineteen years old, Callie. We can’t kidnap him if he
wants to go.”
“But isn’t he supposed to be being watched?”
“What? At his parents’ house? With his dad?”
I free an unsteady breath from my lungs. “But I worry that we
might be doing more harm than good… running away.”
Seth steps closer to me, places his hands on my shoulders,
and fixes his eyes on me. “You want to know what I think? I think
that you’re afraid.”
I hug my clothes tighter against my chest because I need to
hold onto something. “Of what?”
“About hearing the whole story about that night. I think
you’re afraid of the truth.”
“But what is the truth exactly?” I ask.
Seth gives a lopsided smile and gently shakes my shoulders.
“That’s for you to find out because he needs you.”
He’s right. I’m afraid of everything that night holds and that
I’ll have to admit that it’s my fault. I’m afraid I’ll learn that Kayden was really trying to kill himself, trying to leave me alone in the
world. That he’ll leave me again, and I need him like I need air.
“Where will we take him, though?” I wonder. “My mom’s
made it really clear that she doesn’t want him here.”
A devilish grin spreads across his face. “You leave that to me.
All you need to do is bring your bag and tell your mom you’re
going to be gone for a couple of days.”
My eyebrows dip together. “You’re not going to tell me
where we’re going?”
His grin widens and his hands leave my shoulders and
reunite with his sides. “It’s called a surprise road trip, Callie.”
I drag my hand across my face. “You think that’s a wise idea,