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She watches her mother’s familiar transformation as Janaki inquires aggressively about everyone’s health and whereabouts. Thangajothi has seen this every summer of her life but only recently begun to understand it: here, Janaki sheds the deferential diplomacy of the daughter-in-law and gets bossy. She’s the second-eldest sister now, and a child of this house.

Thangajothi, feeling shy, makes similar but politer inquiries, as she has been trained to do. Kamalam arrived, some days earlier, with her three children. Visalam’s first daughter is pregnant and has come here for her delivery, though she will be attended by a nurse, and no one will complain or even look askance. Saradha will come from Thiruchi any day, bringing Raghavan, who is living with her as he finishes college at St. Joseph ’s. Krishnan is teaching at a small college in Salem and lives there with Radhai and her family. They are also expected. And Laddu never left Cholapatti; he had finally married in 1953, and Vairum helped him to buy the house next door when Murthy died, leaving no heirs. His wife and children spend nearly as much time in Sivakami’s house as in their own, and Muchami plays with those children as he did with Thangam’s, though he is too old now to take them all the way back to his own village every afternoon.

Within days, Thangajothi knows, the house will hum and throb. She is more excited than usual: Shyama will come, at some point, for a week or so-her favourite cousin. He had left Pandiyoor at the start of the last school year, sponsored by Baskaran to study in Thiruchi. Infuriated that a boy so obviously bright was doing so poorly at his studies, Baskaran had sent him to stay with Janaki’s sister Saradha, to attend the same high school as her sons for tenth standard-a crucial year, if one were to go further. Shyama, as though he had had something to prove, had excelled in his new school, and Baskaran had rewarded him with a summer holiday in Cholapatti. He will stay with Gayatri, his relative. Thangajothi had missed him terribly, despite his brief visits home. She had been hoping he might already be here.

But Sivakami is excited for another reason. “Vairum is bringing the children,” she tells Janaki, whose expression changes, as Thangajothi watches, from happiness to circumspection. “The boys will receive their poonals here. Did you hear, Janaki? He is bringing Vani and the children, to spend time with you all!”

Even as Sivakami leans toward Janaki, her lined face lit with excitement, her voice quavering a little, Janaki catches sight of Muchami, listening from the garden door, his expression suggestive of pessimism and pain. When he notices Janaki watching him, he smiles at her and ducks away. Janaki might have been able to believe that Vairum had finally decided to stop punishing his children and his mother unfairly by keeping them apart, had she not seen Muchami. Though she has never articulated it, she is accustomed to seeing Muchami share her grandmother’s feelings. Today, she sees her own feelings mirrored in her old friend’s face: doubts about Vairum’s motivations and anger over her grandmother’s long years of suffering.

Now, in charge of preparations for the poonal ceremony until Saradha arrives, she finds she can’t fully enjoy herself. Vairum was apparently too caught up in city life to have yet granted his sons the holy thread. She wonders how he will justify putting his sons through this most Brahmin of transformations, given his political stances. Will he say he is doing it because he can, back on the Brahmin quarter where he was humiliated and uncasted by his brother-in-law? Will he say he believes in education of any kind, and that his sons need to know their identity even if they must critique it?

Regardless, Janaki sees it as an opportunity for a real celebration of Brahmin values-just what the community needs about now-and tries to throw herself into the work with renewed enthusiasm.

On a morning two days after their arrival, Thangajothi pokes her head into the vestibule and calls out, “Gayatri Mami! It’s Thangajothi.” She holds a P. G. Wodehouse novel, which she had borrowed the previous afternoon from Minister’s library. She enters the dim cool of the main hall, in the middle of which Minister lies on a four-poster bed. Gayatri lumbers from the rear of the house, and hands a stainless steel saucer with some snacks to Thangajothi.

“Yes, child, here. Sit.” She looks a little nervously at her husband, who is so thin as to look like a long wrinkle in the woven bedsheets.

Minister says nothing as Thangajothi obediently squats against one of the pillars.

“Shyama came last night,” Gayatri shares conversationally.

Thangajothi stands again. “He’s here? Upstairs?”

“Of course. All you kids-can’t stay away from the books, huh?” Gayatri sounds disgruntled.

Thangajothi thinks she must be lonely: none of their sons live here any more. One by one, they had all got jobs elsewhere. Yesterday, Thangajothi had overheard Gayatri telling Janaki how her sons in Madras had been asking their parents to join them there, and how Minister refused.

Thangajothi feels bad-she likes Gayatri, but the main reason she comes to their house is for the books. Now she’s feeling worse, because all she wants to do is bound up the stairs to see Shyama.

“The time!” Minister cries from among the bedclothes, and Thangajothi, Gayatri and the nurse, who is squatting in a corner, all jump. “What is the time, ma?”

“Eleven o’clock,” Gayatri responds, looking at the floor. “Go and come,” she says to Thangajothi, waving her away. “Take your tiffin here, with Shyama, this afternoon.”

That morning, a day after all of Thangam’s children have assembled in Cholapatti, Vairum and Vani arrive. It has seemed, to Sivakami, an interminable wait. She is so proud as she comes to the door to meet them. She makes no effort to conceal her happiness, or herself. This is the new way, she thinks, a little giddy as she watches them get out of their shiny black automobile, and then backs into the house to admit them. I, too, can be modern, she thinks, though she’s still too shy to meet the neighbours’ eyes.

In the dim hall, which smells of cool brick, camphor and holy ash from the many who have performed morning prayers that day, Vani’s sons clutch at her sari as she falls to do namaskaram for Sivakami. Vairum gestures toward Sivakami’s feet and his head, and says to his sons, “This is my mother.”

Sivakami advances a few steps, reaching toward the children as Vani plucks the boys off of her hips. Muchami, standing at the garden door, turns away from what he sees, what Sivakami can’t and doesn’t want to see: Vairum is not smiling and still has not said a word to her.

The boys receive kisses from Sivakami, stiff with terror as though she is a wraith. The aunts and cousins flood forward to engulf them in a warm tide, and Sivakami smiles, brittle and joyous.

Holding her paavaadai up with the hand clutching the book, bracing herself with her other hand against the wall of the stairwell, Thangajothi climbs to the second level. She crosses a room full of recliners and coffee tables whose random placement confirms their long disuse. She has often lingered in this room, searching out Minister’s face in the many framed photos: large groups of sombre men, faces dark between white caps and kurtas, apart from the occasional white man in a suit, or Indian man in a uniform or princely regalia. The photos are annotated with occasions and purposes, sometimes with the names of all the men present, written in English.

This time, though, she goes purposefully to the original library. Shyama’s not in there, so she goes through to the walkway. As she traverses it, she hears through the skylight, which gives onto the main hall, Minister’s voice. “The time, ma! Tell me the time.”

At the end of the corridor, she pushes open the door to another small room. It is, like the library, filled with books-lining the walls, in piles on the floor-mixed in with a jumble of other curiosities: an Eastman Kodak camera like a jack-in-the-box, a non-functioning radio, an empty binoculars case, all home to dust mites, scuttling spiders and an occasional scorpion; a stuffed mongoose with the tail peeling back to show wires and straw; posters of foreign movie stars; a hinge-lidded tin with printing on the side: “500 Scissors Cigarettes,” and another dented tin bearing the puzzling “Peek Freans.” Nothing has moved, from one summer to the next, in the years since Thangajothi first came upon them. Last year, she picked up a flyer for something called the “Self-Respect Ramayana,” because it was exactly like another she had found in the attic room at Sivakami’s house and used as a bookmark, until she lost it. This time, she stuck the flyer under some books on the bookcase, and it was still there when she returned.