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De Lhandes slid down from his chair and made his way to the fireside, stopping for breath twice, where he occupied a low chair that nevertheless left his feet straight out before him.

“All chairs are chaises longues for me, my friend.” He laughed. “All right, what can I do for you?”

“I need help.”

“Of course. Good comrades though we are, you would not come by boat in the dead of night for the sole purpose of disgracing a supper by picking at it. You know that I have been out of the information business for several years, but I have orts and bits left from the old days, and I shall help you if I can.”

“I should tell you that they have got my money. I won’t be able to pay you immediately.”

De Lhandes waved a dismissing hand. “I’ll send you a bill from hell. You’ll recognize it by the singed edges. Is it a person, or a government?”

“Government. I have to get into England. They’ll be waiting for me. The affair is very heavy, so my leverage will have to be strong.”

De Lhandes sighed. “Ah, my. If only it were America. I have something on America that would make the Statue of Liberty lie back and spread her knees. But England? No one thing. Fragments and scraps. Some nasty enough, to be sure, but no one big thing.”

“What sort of things have you?”

“Oh, the usual. Homosexuality in the foreign office…”

“That’s not news.”

“At this level, it’s interesting. And I have photographs. There are few things so ludicrous as the postures a man assumes while making love. Particularly if he is no longer young. And what else have I? Ah… a bit of rambunctiousness in the royal family? The usual political peccadillos and payoffs? A blocked inquiry into that flying accident that cost the life of… you remember.” De Lhandes looked to the ceiling to recall what was in his files. “Oh, there’s evidence that the embrace between the Arab oil interests and the City is more intimate than is generally known. And there’s a lot of individual stuff on government people—fiscal and sexual irregularities mostly. You’re absolutely sure you don’t want something on the United States? I have a real bell ringer there. It’s an unsalable item. Too big for almost any use. It would be like opening an egg with a sledge hammer.”

“No, it has to be English. I haven’t time to set up indirect pressure from Washington to London.”

“Hm-m-m. Tell you what. Why don’t you take the whole lot? Arrange to have it published, one shot right after the other. Scandal after scandal eroding the edifice of confidence—you know the sort of thing. No single arrow strong enough alone, but in fascine… who knows? It’s the best I can offer.”

“Then it will have to do. Set it up the usual way? I bring photocopies with me? We arrange a ‘button-down’ trigger system with the German magazines as primary receivers?”

“It’s not failed yet. You’re sure you don’t want the Statue of Liberty’s brazen hymen?”

“Can’t think of what I’d do with it.”

“Ah well, painful image at best. Well… can you spend the night with us?”

“If I may. I fly out of Biarritz tomorrow at noon, and I have to lie low. The locals have a bounty on me.”

“Pity. They ought to protect you as the last surviving member of your species. You know, I’ve been thinking about you lately, Nicholai Alexandrovitch. Not often, to be sure, but with some intensity. Not often, because when you get to the bang or whimper moment of life, you don’t spend much time contemplating the minor characters of your personal farce. And one of the difficult things for egocentric Man to face is that he is a minor character in every biography but his own. I am a bit player in your life; you in mine. We have known one another for more than twenty years but, discounting business (and one must always discount business), we have shared perhaps a total of twelve hours of intimate conversation, of honest inquiry into one another’s minds and emotions. I have known you, Nicholai, for half a day. Actually, that’s not bad. Most good friends and married couples (those are seldom the same thing) could not boast twelve hours of honest interest after a lifetime of shared space and irritations, of territorial assertions and squabbles. So… I’ve known you for half a day, my friend, and I have come to love you. I think very highly of myself for having accomplished that, as you are not an easy man to love. Admire? Yes, of course. Respect? If fear is a part of respect, then of course. But love? Ah, that’s a different business. Because there is in love an urge to forgive, and you’re a hard man to forgive. Half saintly ascetic, half Vandal marauder, you don’t make yourself available for forgiveness. In one persona, you are above forgiveness; in another, beneath it. And always resentful of it. One has the feeling that you would never forgive a man for forgiving you. (That probably doesn’t mean much, but it rolls well off the tongue, and a song must have music as well as words.) And after my twelve hours of knowing you, I would capsulize you—reduce you to a definition—by calling you a medieval antihero.”

Hel smiled. “Medieval antihero? What on earth does that mean?”

“Who has the floor now, you or I? Let’s have a little silent respect for the dying. It’s part of your being Japanese—culturally Japanese, that is. Only in Japan was the classical moment simultaneous with the medieval. In the West, philosophy, art, political and social ideal, all are identified with periods before or after the medieval moment, the single exception being that glorious stone bridge to God, the cathedral. Only in Japan was the feudal moment also the philosophic moment. We of the West are comfortable with the image of the warrior priest, or the warrior scientist, even the warrior industrialist. But the warrior philosopher? No, that concept irritates our sense of propriety. We speak of ‘death and violence’ as though they were two manifestations of the same impulse. In fact, death is the very opposite of violence, which is always concerned with the struggle for life. Our philosophy is focused on managing life; yours on managing death. We seek comprehension; you seek dignity. We learn how to grasp; you learn how to let go. Even the label ‘philosopher’ is misleading, as our philosophers have always been animated by the urge to share (indeed, inflict) their insights; while your lot are content (perhaps selfishly) to make your separate and private peace. To the Westerner, there is something disturbingly feminine (in the sense of yang-ish, if that coinage doesn’t offend your ear) in your view of manhood. Fresh from the battlefield, you don soft robes and stroll through your gardens with admiring compassion for the falling cherry petal; and you view both the gentleness and the courage as manifestations of manhood. To us, that seems capricious at least, if not two-faced. By the way, how does your garden grow?”

“It’s becoming.”

“Meaning?”

“Each year it is simpler.”

“There! You see? That goddamned Japanese penchant for paradoxes that turn out to be syllogisms! Look at yourself. A warrior gardener! You are indeed a medieval Japanese, as I said. And you are also an antihero—not in the sense in which critics and scholars lusting for letters to dangle after their names use (misuse) the term. What they call antiheroes are really unlikely heroes, or attractive villains—the fat cop or Richard III. The true antihero is a version of the hero—not a clown with a principal role, not an audience member permitted to work out his violent fantasies. Like the classic hero, the antihero leads the mass toward salvation. There was a time in the comedy of human development when salvation seemed to lie in the direction of order and organization, and all the great Western heroes organized and directed their followers against the enemy: chaos. Now we are learning that the final enemy is not chaos, but organization; not divergence, but similarity; not primativism, but progress. And the new hero—the antihero—is one who makes a virtue of attacking the organization, of destroying the systems. We realize now that salvation of the race lies in that nihilist direction, but we still don’t know how far.” De Lhandes paused to catch his breath, then seemed to be ready to continue. But his glance suddenly crossed Hel’s, and he laughed. “Oh, well. Let that be enough. I wasn’t really speaking to you anyway.”