He read five languages other than English and had thought nothing of the dearth of English books in Douglas’s library. But to someone who had not been educated in continental languages, visiting that library must have been as tormenting as dying of thirst in the middle of an ocean.
Underneath every detail of her life was a history of oppression. And yet she’d emerged not only with her spirit intact, but with a capacity for joy that he had only begun to understand. That he would now never truly know.
The thought was a stab in his heart.
“The book in your drawer was a guide to Southern Italy. It had something on Capri, I imagine?”
“Not very much. There was a better book, but I lost it when my uncle purged the library.”
Memories of the night came unbidden: her arms holding him, her lovely voice speaking of her faraway island. He realized he’d never given any thoughts as to what his milk-and-honey companion would do when faced with his nightmares. He had simply assumed they wouldn’t exist anymore when he had his gentle, pure paragon.
She’d been looking out the window, but now her face turned toward him. “Why did you make me listen to you sing? You are a horrendous singer.”
“There was a safecracker working in your aunt’s room. Had to keep you away.”
“You could have told me. I would have held the light for him.”
“I couldn’t tell you. You looked very pleased to be living in your uncle’s house.”
“More fool you. You could have saved yourself the ordeal of this marriage.”
He tapped his pen against the desk. Suddenly all he could remember were the moments of surprising joy. Their nap together on the train; her outrageously erroneous soliloquy on jam making that had made him smile half the next day as he walked and walked; last night.
“I wouldn’t quite classify this marriage as an ordeal. It’s been more of a burden.”
She threw a small potted plant clear across the breadth of the room. The glazed terra-cotta container shattered against the mantel. The soil and the orchid growing from it fell to the floor with a resounding wump.
“You have all my sympathies,” she said. “And my sincere condolences.”
His ideal companion did not know what anger was. Her voice would never drip with sarcasm. And, of course, since she was not real, it was easy for her not to have strong emotions, to be only smiles and cuddles and wholesale perfection.
He gazed at the very real woman on his windowsill, battered but unbroken. All her emotions were strong: her anger, her disillusion, her despair—and her love.
He picked up the plate of sandwiches on the desk and approached her. “Don’t starve yourself. It won’t help you and it certainly won’t help your aunt.”
She grimaced as if the plate were full of live scorpions. But just when he thought she’d knock it to the floor, she accepted it. “Thank you.”
“I’ll ring for a new pot of tea.”
“You don’t need to be so nice to me. I won’t appreciate it.”
Of this he knew better than she. “Wrong: I’ve never met a woman more grateful for a little kindness.”
She glowered and turned her shoulders more firmly toward the window.
The afternoon post brought a letter from Aunt Rachel.
Dear Elissande,
On my way to London, I met an old school friend of mine on the train. Imagine my delight! We have decided to stop at Exeter and take in the sights. Mrs. Halliday desires to meet you. She suggests that you take the 7:00 from Paignton tonight and detrain at the Queen Street station. Call for us at the Rougemont.
Your loving aunt
P.S. Come alone, as she is not fond of strangers.
P.P.S. Wear your best jewels.
Elissande handed the letter to Lord Vere. “I have no jewels.”
It was the ultimate irony, as her uncle had made his fortune in diamonds. Jewels were an easily portable, highly liquid form of wealth; of course her uncle would not want her to have any.
“I have some of my mother’s pieces. They should do.”
She rubbed her temple. She hadn’t even realized it, but her head had been throbbing for quite a while. “So I present myself at the Rougemont and meekly hand over your mother’s jewels?”
“Not you, we. I’ll be there.”
“You saw what the note said. I’m to go alone.”
“You will seem alone to him, but I’ll be there. I’ll watch out for you.”
“But if we travel together—”
“You will take the seven-o’clock, as he instructed. I’m going to take an earlier train to Exeter and see what arrangements I can make.”
She hadn’t expected him to go before her. She did not want to be alone now. She wanted—she needed—never mind what she wanted. If there was anything he could do in Exeter to help her retrieve Aunt Rachel safe and whole, then he must go to Exeter.
“Right.”
He touched her lightly on her sleeve. “If anyone can handle him, you can.”
“Right,” she repeated, pushing away the memories of what had happened the last time she was alone with her uncle.
He looked at her a moment. “I have a few minutes before I must go. Let me help you prepare.”
Chapter Nineteen
Elissande exited Queen Street station at two minutes past eight o’clock. Exeter was probably a nice, ordinary place. Tonight, however, its unfamiliar darkness harbored an all too familiar evil. And she wished nothing more than that she could run back inside the station and take the next train home.
She looked about, hoping to see her husband, her ally. But among the steady stream of people going into and coming out of the station, there was no one who had his height and size.
Then her heart seized. There, by the second lamppost from her, her uncle stood squinting at a rail schedule in the orange light. His brown lounge suit had been sized for someone two inches shorter and twenty pounds heavier. His hair had been dyed entirely gray, making him look ten years older. And he had a mustache when he had always been clean shaven before.
But she knew him by the way her blood congealed.
If anyone can handle him, you can.
She couldn’t, but she must. She had no choice.
She looked around once more for Lord Vere—no sign of him. She uttered a silent prayer and walked toward her uncle.
“Pardon me, sir. You wouldn’t happen to know where I can find the Rougemont?”
The man she’d known her entire life as Edmund Douglas stuffed the rail schedule into his pocket. “Good evening to you too, my dear Elissande. Did you truly come alone?”
“I would have liked to think I had a few more friends in the world. But you have seen to it that I have no one besides my aunt, sir.”
“And what about your much adored husband?”
“Does it amuse you to see me married to an idiot?”
Her uncle laughed softly. “I can’t deny there is, shall we say, a certain je ne sais quoi to the situation—he is no doubt the biggest cretin since Claudius himself, and you shall have a passel of moronic children. But other than that, I am delighted to see you so happily and profitably settled.”
“You certainly do look pleased. The fugitive life seems to agree with you.”
He looked faintly surprised by her biting tone. Then his expression hardened. “To the contrary, it irks me a great deal. I’m too old to be constantly on the move, and your aunt likewise—we should be settled down in peace and comfort. And this is where you will play your dutiful role, my dear niece, and supply us with that dignity that at our age we cannot do without.”
“That would depend.” Her unyielding tenor astonished even herself. If anything, she’d thought she would fall back on her falsely smiling ways. “Is my aunt well?”
“Of course. And overjoyed to see me.”
“I very much doubt that. Shall we go see her then?”