"Afraid I'd left you?" He grinned and let his gaze linger on the swell of her breasts beneath the worn patchwork squares. "After chasing you over half the Rockies?"

Her cheeks flushed pink in the firelight, and she stared at the floor. "I thought maybe the Cheyenne war party…" She shivered and pulled the blanket tighter around her. "I've never felt such hate before."

"They have reason."

"How can you say that? You killed-"

"I killed them. Yes." He nodded. "I cut a man's throat and shot another to keep them from murdering us. But I've seen more savagery out of whites than Indians. At Sand Creek, the Colorado militiamen crushed children under their horses' hooves. They shot them like rabbits, and-"

"Stop." She raised the blanket to cover her ears. "It's too horrible. I don't want to hear it."

" 'Vermin,' John Chivington called them. The good colonel led seven hundred men with howitzers down on Black Kettle's sleeping village. 'Kill and scalp them all,' John said. 'Little and big. Nits make lice.' Can you imagine how grapeshot cuts through a buffalo hide tepee?"

Tamsin's pale face grew white, but Ash continued, as much for himself as for her.

"The militia destroyed every living thing, dogs, ponies, and infants. The warriors fought all day, soaking the earth with their blood, selling their lives dearly to protect their women and children. And when the last Cheyenne brave fell, Chivington's troops slaughtered the wounded and mutilated the dead."

"No more," she pleaded. "For God's sake, no more."

"I don't imagine the Lord had anything to do with it. Chivington was a Methodist minister, a hero at Glorieta Pass, during the war. I didn't like John much, but I respected him… then. No more. I've always wondered what could make a decent man forget religion when it comes to someone with a different skin color."

"Come back to bed," she urged.

"Yes, ma'am." He went to the door and dropped the heavy wooden bar. "A little damp outside for travelin', but that should discourage unwanted guests."

She lifted the covers for him and slid over so that he could settle into the warm hollow in the mattress. He stretched out his legs and put his arm around her, pulling her against him. She came willingly and laid her face against his chest.

"I guess I sound foolish," she murmured. "When I woke up and you were gone, I thought…"

"It's all right, Tamsin. I'm here, and I'm not going to leave you." Not unless I have a chance to go after Cannon, he thought.

Why the hell was this so difficult? How was it that being near her, hearing her voice, touching her soft skin, drove him to distraction? She was tough as rawhide. He'd seen her courage in situations that would have had gritty cowboys soiling their chaps. But right now, she seemed as fragile as the pink-and-white-flowered porcelain Aunt Jane used to set the Sunday supper table.

He'd always been afraid to handle those fancy dishes. He hadn't wanted to break one. That's the way he felt about Tamsin at this minute. He wanted to wrap her in goose down and keep her safe…

… from him as well as from what waited for her in Sweetwater.

She inhaled deeply. "This is such a magnificent country, but it's so hard. The violence…"

"There was bloodshed aplenty back in your Tennessee during the war, wasn't there?" He stroked her hair and massaged the back of her neck and her shoulders until he felt her tension ease. "Even in your little town, you must have heard of neighbors-even family-turning against one another."

"Yes, of course." She shivered and crept closer to him, laying a hand on his chest. "I wanted to get away from all that. I wanted to start over in California. It's a new place, new and clean."

"So is Colorado Territory. You've seen a lot of the bad, but there's good as well. There's nothing so pretty as the sun coming up over the mountains or the smell of the air after a rain."

She caught his hand and brought it to her lips. Tenderly, she kissed each knuckle in turn. "There are golden sunrises in California, I hear. The sun goes down over the ocean. It's never cold there. There are giant trees and valleys knee-deep in grass. My horses-"

"You set a passel of store on those animals."

"I have to. They're all I have left of what was good in my childhood. My home… Granddad. Dancer and Fancy are all I have to build a future." Her eyes glistened with emotion. "I raised them from foals, both of them, halter broke them, trained them to saddle."

"You should have taken ship for California or joined a wagon train. Those horses might have cost you your life."

She raised her head and looked into his face. "There are some things worth risking everything for."

Her warm body took the chill from his bones, and he molded his hand to the hollow of her back. Outside the cabin, the rain showed no sign of letting up, and the steady cadence against the shake roof was strangely erotic.

"You're right. There are things worth dying for," he murmured just before he bent and kissed her. Then he asked her the question that weighed heaviest on his mind. "Tell me about Jack Cannon."

She stiffened. "There's nothing to tell."

"Leave that for me to decide. I want to hear it, all of it. No lies, Tamsin. I want the truth, if you can tell it."

"I told you, it was nothing. I was working my way west, staying in this little town in Nebraska, Wheaton. I was a clerk in a general store, very little pay, but there was a clean room in the back of the building where I could sleep. And Mr. Harvey let us eat at noon and six. We could take cheese, crackers, dried fruit, even bread and pies that hadn't sold and were starting to go stale. He didn't charge me, so long as I ate in my quarters and didn't tell his wife."

"What does this have to do with Cannon?"

"He came into the store, and I sold him ammunition and a pair of expensive boots that Mr. Harvey had been trying to get rid of for a year. Jack told me that he was a rancher in town to purchase livestock. He seemed pleasant enough, but I'm no fool. He asked me to have dinner with him, and I refused."

"You refused?"

"Yes. I was a woman alone without friends or connections in the town. I felt that I had to guard my reputation."

"So you didn't let him take you to eat?"

"Not then, not until he'd asked every day for nearly a week. Then he asked me if I was a churchgoing lady. I said that I was, and he suggested we attend services together."

Ash felt a wave of disbelief sweep over him. "You're telling me that Texas Jack Cannon, train robber, thief, and murderer, took you to church?"

"No, he didn't. He stopped at the store on Saturday evening and told me that he couldn't make church. Would I accept his apology and have Sunday night supper with him? We did. He was charming and funny, even a little old-fashioned. He bought my dinner a few more times, and then we went to a church social, and we rode together. My animals needed exercise."

"After-church suppers and apple pie. This sounds better and better."

"You wanted the truth," Tamsin said. "I'm telling you."

"Goon."

"While we were riding, we stopped to water the horses, and he became… ungentlemanly. He implied that I had given him reason to expect more than friendship. We argued, and he tore my blouse. I slapped his face. He frightened me, and I drew Granddad's pistol and told him I'd shoot him if he didn't back oft He did, I mounted Dancer, and rode back to town. The next day, when he came to the store to tell me that he was sorry, I wouldn't accept his apology."

"Don't imagine that went down well with Cannon."

"It didn't. He got very quiet, but I knew he was angry. He said that he wasn't used to being refused, and that I'd regret it. That night, I delivered an order to a lady on the far side of town. We talked, and I didn't get back to the store until after dark. Someone had forced their way into my room. Nothing was disturbed, but the latch was broken, and a meadowlark lay on my bed. Its neck was broken."