"Miss Tight Ass? Don't get me started."

"You don't like her?"

"In spades."

"What don't you like about her?"

There was a pause. "She tries to keep everybody from having fun. If I didn't take over once in a while, our lives would be boring. Boring. She doesn't like to go to parties or travel or do any fun things."

"But you do?"

"You bet I do. That's what life's all about, isn't it, luv?"

"You were born in London, weren't you, Toni? Do you want to tell me about it?"

"I'll tell you one thing. I wish I were there now."

Silence.

"Toni...? Toni...?"

She was gone.

Gilbert Keller said to Ashley, "I'd like to speak to Alette." He watched the expression on Ashley's face change. He leaned forward and said softly, "Alette."

"Si."

"Did you hear my conversation with Toni?"

"Yes."

"Do you and Toni know each other?"

"Yes." 0f course we do, stupid.

"But Ashley doesn't know either of you?"

"No."

"Do you like Ashley?"

"She's all right." Why are you asking me all these foolish questions?

"Why don't you talk to her?"

"Toni does not want me to."

"Does Toni always tell you what to do?"

"Toni is my friend." It's none of your business.

"I want to be your friend, Alette. Tell me about yourself. Where were you born?"

"I was born in Rome."

"Did you like Rome?"

Gilbert Keller watched the expression on Ashley's face change, and she began to weep.

Why? Dr. Keller leaned forward and said soothingly, "It's all right. You're going to awaken now. Ashley...."

She opened her eyes.

"I talked to Toni and Alette. They're friends. I want you all to be friends."

While Ashley was at lunch, a male nurse walked into her room and saw a painting of a landscape on the floor. He studied it a moment, then took it to Dr. Keller's office.

There was a meeting in Dr. Lewison's office.

"How's it going, Gilbert?"

Dr. Keller said thoughtfully, "I've talked to the two alters. The dominant one is Toni. She has an English background and won't talk about it. The other one, Alette, was born in Rome, and she doesn't want to talk about it, either. So that's where I'm going to concentrate. That's where the traumas occurred. Toni is the more aggressive one. Alette is sensitive and withdrawn. She's interested in painting, but she's afraid to pursue it. I have to find out why."

"So you think Toni dominates Ashley?"

"Yes. Toni takes over. Ashley wasn't aware that she exists, or for that matter, that Alette existed. But Toni and Alette know each other. It's interesting. Toni has a lovely singing voice, and Alette is a talented painter." He held up the painting that the male nurse had brought him. "I think their talents may be the key to getting through to them."

Ashley received a letter from her father once a week. After she read them, she would sit in her room quietly, not wanting to talk to anyone.

"They're her only link to home," Dr. Keller said to Otto Lewison. "I think it increases her desire to get out of here and start leading a normal life. Every little bit helps...."

Ashley was becoming used to her surroundings. The patients seemed to walk about, although there were attendants at every door and in the corridors. The gates to the grounds were always locked. There was a recreation room where they could gather and watch television, a gymnasium where inmates could work out and a common dining room. There were many kinds of people there: Japanese, Chinese, French, Americans.... Every effort had been made to make the hospital as ordinary- looking as possible, but when Ashley went to her room, the doors were always locked behind her.

"This isn't a hospital," Toni complained to Alette. "It's a bloody prison."

"But Dr. Keller thinks he can cure Ashley. Then we can get out of here."

"Don't be stupid, Alette. Don't you see? The only way he can cure Ashley is to get rid of us, make us disappear. In other words, to cure her, we have to die. Well, I'm not going to let that happen."

"What are you going to do?"

"I'm going to find a way for us to escape."

CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR

The following morning a male nurse was escorting Ashley back to her room. He said, "You seem different today."

"Do I, Bill?"

"Yeah. Almost like another person." Toni said softly, "That's because of you."

"What do you mean?"

"You make me feel different." She touched his arm and looked into his eyes. "You make me feel wonderful."

"Come on."

"I mean it. You're very sexy. Do you know that?"

"No."

"Well, you are. Are you married. Bill?"

"I was, once."

"Your wife was mad to ever let you go. How long have you worked here, Bill?"

"Five years."

"That's a long time. Do you ever feel you want to get out of here?"

"Sometimes, sure."

Toni lowered her voice. "You know there's nothing really wrong with me. I admit I had a little problem when I came in, but I'm cured now. I'd like to get out of here, too. I'll bet you could help me. The two of us could leave here together. We'd have a wonderful time."

He studied her a moment. "I don't know what to say."

"Yes, you do. Look how simple it would be. All you have to do is let me out of here one night when everyone's asleep, and we'll be on our way." She looked over at him and said softly, "I'll make it worth your while."

He nodded. "Let me think about it."

"You do that," Toni said confidently.

When Toni returned to the room, she said to Alette, "We're getting out of this place."

The following morning, Ashley was escorted into Dr. Keller's office.

"Good morning, Ashley."

"Good morning, Gilbert."

"We're going to try some Sodium Amytal this morning. Have you ever had it?"

"No."

"Well, you'll find it's very relaxing."

Ashley nodded. "All right. I'm ready."

Five minutes later. Dr. Keller was talking to Toni.

"Good morning, Toni."

"Hi, Dockie."

"Are you happy here, Toni?"

"It's funny you should ask that. To tell you the truth, I'm really beginning to like this place. I feel at home here."

"Then why do you want to escape?"

Toni's voice hardened. "What?"

"Bill tells me that you asked him to help you escape from here."

"That son of a bitch!" There was fury in her voice. She flew out of the chair, ran over to the desk, picked up a paperweight and flung it at Dr. Keller's head.

He ducked.

"I'll kill you, and I'll kill him!"

Dr. Keller grabbed her. "Toni—"

He watched the expression on Ashley's face change. Toni had gone. He found that his heart was pounding.

"Ashley!"

When Ashley awakened, she opened her eyes, looked around, puzzled, and said, "Is everything all right?"

"Toni attacked me. She was angry because I found out she was trying to escape."

"I—I'm sorry. I had a feeling that something bad was happening."

"It's all right. I want to bring you and Toni and Alette together."

"No!"

"Why not?"

"I'm afraid. I—I don't want to meet them. Don't you understand? They're not real. They're my imagination."

"Sooner or later, you're going to have to meet them, Ashley. You have to get to know one another. It's the only way you're going to be cured."

Ashley stood up. "I want to go back to my room."

When she was returned to her room, Ashley watched the attendant leave. She was filled with a deep sense of despair. She thought. I'm never going to get out of here. They're lying to me. They can't cure me. She could not face the reality that other personalities were living inside of her.... Because of them, people had been murdered, families destroyed. Why me, God? She began to weep. What did I ever do to you? She sat down on the bed and thought, I can't go on like this. There's only one way to end it. I have to do it now.