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A man in the balcony stood up, cupping his hands to his mouth, and shouted, "That's all right, Joan! You're still beautiful!"

The crowd roared. Her humor and grace, her sustained youthfulness and lack of any bitterness, and the incredible range of her voice were a conduit back into an era thirty years gone. For two hours it was 1969 and the flower children still danced barefoot on the lawn at Golden Gate Park.

But seated in the second row, in the seat next to the right aisle, was a man in a domed white hat with an Indian band around the crown and garters on his sleeves. In the glow of the stage lights his face looked as smooth as moist clay, clean of all imperfections, flat-bladed, the jaw hooked, the eyes fascinated, like those of a visitor in an alien environment.

He never applauded nor did his facial expression ever change from one of bemused curiosity. At intermission he remained in his chair, his rectangular posture like stone, so others had to labor to get around him.

"L.Q. Navarro used to say there are two Americas," I said to Temple.

"How's that?" she said, watching the musicians regroup on stage.

"One bunch wants good things for the world. The other bunch thinks the earth is there to be ground up for profit. The cutting edge for the second bunch are guys like Wyatt Dixon."

"Are you telling me he's here?" But just at that moment the man in the domed white hat went out the fire exit and let the metal door slam behind him.

"I just miss L.Q. sometimes," I said. The lights went down and Joan Baez came to the microphone and introduced her niece. Temple was whispering to me behind her hand, something about the song "Silver Dagger," when I realized Cleo Lonnigan and her gay carpenter were seated three rows in front of us. Cleo had happened to turn and look up the aisle, and suddenly I was staring into her face.

I started to wave, then thought better of it.

"What's wrong?" Temple asked.

"Nothing," I replied. But Temple followed my eyes to Cleo.

"Oh, it's Dr. Bedpan," Temple said.

"Come on, Temple," I said.

"Is she still staring at us?"

"No."

"Good. I was worried. I thought it was she who was rude and needed correcting."

Temple gazed benignly up at the stage. At the end of the concert the audience brought Joan back on stage three times. The auditorium was sweltering now, the air fetid with body odor. After Joan left the stage a final time, someone opened a side door and the auditorium was suddenly flooded with cool air. I put my hand on Temple's arm and steered us for the exit.

Too late.

Cleo Lonnigan stood solidly in our path. "Was Little Miss Muffet whispering about me?" she asked.

"Muffet?" Temple said.

"I'm sure you get my meaning," Cleo said.

"Shut your mouth, Cleo," I said.

"Hey, Cleo, let's ease on out of here," Eric, Cleo's carpenter friend, said.

"I'm sure that's just part of Dr. Lonnigan's regular pillow talk. She doesn't mean anything by it," Temple said to me.

"Look at me," Cleo said.

"Oh, I don't think so," Temple said.

"If you ever whisper behind my back or try to ridicule me in public again, you'll wish you were back waiting tables or whatever you did before somebody let you in a junior college."

I put my arm around Temple's shoulders and almost forced her out the door.

"Would you get your arm off me, please?" Temple said, flexing her shoulders, her neck flaring with color.

"I apologize for that in there."

"You actually went to bed with her? It must be horrible remembering it."

"Why don't you ease up, Temple?"

The sky was green, the evening star glittering like a solitary diamond over the mountains in the west.

"Billy Bob, don't you see it?" Temple said.

"What?" I said, confused.

"It's that woman in there, or it's me, or a female DEA agent, or an old girlfriend from high school. We're just Valium. You're married to the ghost of L.Q. Navarro."

That night dry lightning rippled through the thunderclouds that sealed the Blackfoot Valley. The wind was up and the trees shook along the riverbank and I could see pine needles scattering on the surface of the water. I walked through Doc's fields, restless and irritable and discontent, a nameless fear trembling like a crystal goblet in my breast. The Appaloosa and thoroughbred in Doc's pasture nickered in the darkness and I could smell river damp and pine gum and wildflowers and wet stone and woodsmoke in the air, as though the four seasons of the year had come together at once and formed a dead zone under clouds that pulsed with light but gave no rain. I wished for earsplitting thunder to roll through the mountains or high winds to tear at barn roofs. I wished for the hand of God to destroy the airless vacuum in which I seemed to be caught.

My heart raced and my skin crawled with apprehension. It was the same feeling I'd had when L.Q. Navarro and I had waited in ambush for Mexican tar mules deep in Coahuila, our palms sweating on our weapons, our wrists tingling with adrenaline. We washed the salt and insects out of our eyes with canteens and could hardly contain our excitement, one that bordered almost on sexual release, when we saw silhouettes appear on a hill.

Lucas was still not back from the concert. I drove to East Missoula and parked in front of the brick cottage where Sue Lynn Big Medicine lived with her uncle. As I walked up to the porch I thought I heard voices behind the building.

"Is that you, Lucas?" I said into the darkness.

"Oh, hi, Billy Bob," he replied, walking toward me. "Something wrong?"

"I'm not sure. What's Sue Lynn doing?"

"She says a prayer to all the Grandfathers. Those are the spirits who live in the four corners of the universe."

"A prayer about what?"

"People got their secrets," he replied.

"What's that supposed to mean?" I said.

"She carries a big load about something. It don't always help our love life."

"Come home with me," I said.

"She'll drive me. Everything's cool here."

"Did you see Wyatt Dixon at the concert?"

"Nope."

"He intends to do us harm, Lucas."

"He'd better not come around here. Sue Lynn's uncle was in the federal pen for cutting up a couple of guys on the Res."

"I can see this is a great place for a prayer garden. You're not moving in with this girl, are you?" I said.

"Quit calling her a girl. You worry too much, Billy Bob," he said, and hit me on the arm.

The innocence in his smile made my heart sink.

I drove back to Doc's place but found no release from the abiding fear that an undeserved fate was about to be visited upon someone close to me. The house was lighted and smoke flattened off the chimney and I could smell bread baking in the kitchen. Maisey played in front of the fireplace with her cat, the goodness in her young face undiminished by the violence the world had done her. Doc had an apron tied around his waist and was carrying two bread pans with hot pads to the plank table in the center of the kitchen. He had already laid out jars of blackberry and orange jam and a block of butter and a cold platter of fried chicken and a pitcher of milk on the table, and for just a moment I saw the tranquillity in his expression as he became both mother and doting father, and I was sure the bloodlust he had brought back from Vietnam had finally become a decaying memory.

But for some illogical reason I kept remembering a story, or rather an image, related to me by my grandfather about the death of the gunfighter John Wesley Hardin in the Acme Saloon in El Paso in 1895. Hardin was the most feared and dangerous man in Texas and may have killed as many as seventy-five men. In the Acme he was drinking shot-glass whiskey and rolling poker dice out of a leather cup. He inverted the cup and clapped the dice on the bar and said to a friend, "You got four sixes to beat."