A muting cancer seemed almost to be a blessing if it would have kept me from asking Sonny Wexler, "What happened?"
"I thought you must've heard," he said. "I thought that's why you came. The chief's been shot."
Jesus Bustamante, another officer, said angrily, "Almost an hour ago now, some pusbag sonofabitch plugged the chief three times in the chest on his own front porch."
My stomach turned over, over, over, almost in time with the revolving beacons on the nearby cruiser, and the phantom obstruction in my esophagus became real when a bitter gorge rose into the back of my throat.
I must have paled, must have wobbled on suddenly loose knees, for Jesus put an arm against my back to support me, and Sonny Wexler said quickly, "Easy, kid, easy, the chief's alive. He's bad off, but he's alive, he's a fighter."
"The doctors are working on him right now," said Billy Munday, whose port-wine birthmark, over a third of his face, seemed to glow strangely in the night, lending him the aura of a painted shaman with warnings and portents and evils imminent to report. "He's going to be all right. He's got to be. I mean, what would happen without him?"
"He's a fighter," Sonny repeated.
"Which hospital?" I asked.
"County General."
I ran to the car that I'd left in the street.
FORTY
THESE DAYS, MOST NEW HOSPITALS IN SOUTHERN CALIfornia resemble medium-rent retail outlets selling discount carpet or business supplies in bulk. The bland architecture doesn't inspire confidence that healing can occur within those walls.
County General, the oldest hospital in the region, features an impressive porte-cochere with limestone columns and a dentil-molding cornice all the way around the building. At first sight of it, you know that nurses and doctors work inside, instead of sales clerks.
The main lobby has a travertine floor, not industrial carpet, and the travertine face of the information desk boasts an inlaid bronze caduceus.
Before I reached the desk, I was intercepted by Alice Norrie, a ten-year veteran of the PMPD, who was running interference to keep reporters and unauthorized visitors from advancing past the lobby.
"He's in surgery, Odd. He's going to be there awhile."
"Where's Mrs. Porter?"
"Karla's in the ICU waiting room. They'll be taking him there pretty much straight from the OR."
The intensive-care unit was on the fourth floor. In a tone meant to imply that she would have to arrest me to stop me, I said, "Ma'am, I'm going up there."
"You don't have to bust my badge to get there, Odd. You're on the short list Karla gave me."
I took the elevator to the second floor, where County General has its operating rooms.
Finding the right OR proved easy. Rafus Carter, in uniform and big enough to give pause to a rampaging bull, stood guard outside the door.
As I approached through the fluorescent glare, he rested his right hand on the butt of his holstered gun.
He saw me react to his suspicion, and he said, "No offense, Odd, but only Karla could come along this corridor and not get my back up."
"You think he was shot by somebody he knew?"
"Almost had to be, which means it's probably someone I know, too."
"How bad is he?"
"Bad."
"He's a fighter," I said, echoing Sonny Wexler's mantra.
Rafus Carter said, "He better be."
I returned to the elevator. Between the third and fourth floors, I pressed the stop button.
Uncontrollable trembling shook the strength out of me. With my legs too weak to stand on, I slid down the wall of the cab and sat on the floor.
Life, Stormy says, is not about how fast you run or even with what degree of grace. It's about perseverance, about staying on your feet and slogging forward no matter what.
After all, in her cosmology, this life is boot camp. If you don't persevere through all its obstacles and all the wounds that it inflicts, you cannot move on to your next life of high adventure, which she calls
"service," or eventually to your third life, which she assumes will be filled with pleasures and glories far greater even than a bowl of coconut cherry chocolate chunk.
Regardless of how hard the winds of chance might blow or how heavy the weight of experience might become, Stormy always stays on her feet, metaphorically speaking; unlike her, I find that sometimes I must pause if ultimately I am to persevere.
I wanted to be calm, collected, strong, and full of positive energy when I went to Karla. She needed support, not tears of either sympathy or grief.
After two or three minutes, I was calm and half collected, which I decided would have to be good enough. I rose to my feet, took the elevator off stop, and continued to the fourth floor.
The dreary waiting room, just down the hall from the intensive-care unit, had pale-gray walls, a gray-and-black speckled vinyl-tile floor, gray and mud-brown chairs. The ambience said, death. Someone needed to slap the hospital's decorator upside the head.
The chief's sister, Eileen Newfield, sat in a corner, red-eyed from crying, compulsively twisting an embroidered handkerchief in her hands.
Beside her sat Jake Hulquist, murmuring reassurances. He was the chief's best friend. They had joined the force the same year.
Jake was out of uniform, wearing khakis and an untucked T-shirt. The laces in his athletic shoes were untied. His hair bristled in weird twists and spikes, as if he hadn't taken the time to comb it after he'd gotten the call.
Karla looked like she always does: fresh, beautiful, and self-possessed.
Her eyes were clear; she hadn't been crying. She was a cop's wife first, a woman second; she wouldn't give in to tears as long as Wyatt was fighting for his life because she was fighting with him in spirit.
The moment I stepped through the open doorway, Karla came to me, hugged me. and said, "This blows, doesn't it, Oddie? Isn't that what young people your age would say about a situation like this?"
"It blows," I agreed. "Totally."
Sensitive to Eileen's fragile emotional condition, Karla led me into the hallway, where we could talk. "He got a call on his private night line, just before two o'clock in the morning."
"From who?"
"I don't know. The ringing only half woke me. He told me to go back to sleep, everything was fine."
"How many people have the night line?"
"Not many He didn't go to the closet to dress. He left the bedroom in his pajamas, so I figured he wasn't going out, it was some problem he could handle from home, and I went back to sleep… until the gunshots woke me."
"When was that?"
"Not ten minutes after the call. Apparently he opened the front door for someone he was expecting-"
"Someone he knew."
"-and he was shot four times."
"Four? I heard three to the chest."
"Three to the chest," she confirmed, "and one to the head."
At the news of a head shot, I almost needed to slide down the wall and sit on the floor again.
Seeing how hard this information hit me, Karla quickly said, "No brain damage. The head shot was the least destructive of the four." She found a tremulous but genuine smile. "He'll make a joke out of that, don't you think?"
"He probably already has."
"I can hear him saying if you want to blow out Wyatt Porter's brains, you've got to shoot him in the ass."
"That's him, all right," I agreed.
"They think it was meant to be the coup de grace, after he was already down, but maybe the shooter lost his nerve or got distracted. The bullet only grazed Wyatt's scalp."
I was in denial: "Nobody would want to kill him."
Karla said, "By the time I dialed nine-one-one and managed to get downstairs with my pistol, the shooter was gone."
I pictured her coming fearlessly down the stairs with the gun in both hands, to the front door, ready to trade bullets with the man who had shot her husband. A lioness. Like Stormy.