We paid no attention to Tende, who was weeping with the degradation which had been inflicted upon her.

The proud daughter of Aibu, high chief of the Ukungu district, was now well learning that she was only a slave.

"You there," I said, "crawl to my arms."

I lay in the canoe, on one elbow, under the moons of Gor, the canoe like a tiny bit of wood in the vastness of the shimmering lake.

"Yes, Master," she said.

The blond-haired barbarian, her body pale in the light of the moons, carefully, moved toward me. I heard the shells about her neck click softly together.

"Nestle," I told her.

"Yes, Master," she said. She nestled obediently in the crook of my left arm.

We had kept the girls in high-security ties only for the first two days upon Ngao. Then we had been far out on the lake, much farther away from the shores than any canoe would be likely to travel. After the first two days we had, for another two days, kept them merely in left-ankle and throat coffle. On the fifth day they were merely in throat coffle. On the sixth day we had relieved them of even that bond.

"Kiss me," I said.

She did so. And then she lay with her head on my left shoulder.

"You are frightened," I said. She had lost much ground since Schendi. "Do you not remember the beautiful girl you saw in the mirror, in Schendi?" I asked.

"She was a slave," whispered the girl.

"Of course," I said.

"I fear her," she said.

"She is the slave beauty within you," I said. "Indeed, she is the true you, glimpsed but for an instant, your true self, seen but for a moment, begging to be freed."

"I dare not free her," she said. "She is too beautiful, and sensuous."

"You do not dare to be what you are?" I asked.

"No," she said. "If that is what I am, I dare not be it."

"Why?" I asked.

"It is too beautiful, and sensuous, and helpless and yielding."

"And yet, in your heart," I said, "you ache to be it."

"No," she said, "no."

I said nothing.

"I am in conflict," she said, miserably.

"Resolve the conflict," I told her. "Free the slave within you, she who is suppressed, your true self."

"No, no," she said, pressing her cheek against my shoulder. I felt tears.

"You will never achieve happiness," I told her, "until you have acknowledged her."

"No," she whispered.

"She must be freed," I said, "that lovely girl, the slaves yearning for a collar within you, your truest and deepest self."

"I dare not free her," she said.

"Is honesty so terrible?" I asked.

"A woman must have dignity," she said.

"Are self-deceit, and lies and hypocrisy, so noble?" I inquired.

"I dare not free the slave," she said.

"Why not?" I asked.

"I fear that I may be she," she whispered.

"You are she," I said.

"No, no," she whispered.

"Yes," I said.

"I am not a Gorean girl," she said.

"The women of Earth, collared and broken to the whip," I said, "make superb slaves."

"Oh," she said, as I touched her.

"You are dry and tight," I told her.

"Forgive me, Master," she said, bitterly.

"You are not now on Earth," I told her. "Here no one will chide you for being lovely and sensuous. Here you need not feel guilty for being loving and feminine."

"I am not a Gorean slut," she said.

"Do you think that I am patient?" I asked.

"If Master wishes to use his girl, please do so," she said, "and then let me crawl back to my place."

I took her head between my hands.

"Please, you're hurting me," she said.

"Do you think that I am patient?" I asked.

"I am ready to obey, Master," she said, tensely, frightened.

"Do you think that I am patient?" I asked holding her.

"I do not know, Master," she whispered, strained.

"There is a time to be patient, and a time not to be patient," I said.

"Yes, Master," she said.

"Beware," I said, "of the time when I decide not to be patient."

"Yes, Master," she said.

I released her.

She lay on her side in the canoe, her body tense, beside me. "Do you want me now, Master?" she asked, frightened.

"No," I told her. "Return to your place."

"Yes, Master," she said. She crawled back to her place.

I lay on my back, looking up at the stars, and the moons.

I beard her fingernails dig at the wood of the canoe. She had been a rejected slave.

26

We Enter Upon The Ua; We Hear Drums

The blond-haired barbarian dipped her paddle into the water, and drew it backwards.

"Is the lake endless?" she asked.

"No," I said.

We had been twenty days upon the lake, living by fishing, drinking its water.

I could see brownish stains in the lake. I could smell flowers. Somehow, the mouth of the Ua must lie ahead.

"Do you carry slaves into danger?" asked the blond-haired barbarian.

"Yes," I told her.

She trembled, but did not lose the stroke of the paddle. She had tried to speak to me at various times during the past few days, but I had responded little to her, usually confining my responses to curt utterances. Once I had gagged her, with her own hair, and leather.

She continued to peddle, miserably, knowing herself to be in disfavor with her master.

"Surely, by now," said Ayari, speaking from the bow, "we must be hear the Ua."

"Observe the water," said Kisu. "Smell the flowers and the forest. I think that already we may be within its mouth."

I was startled. Could its mouth be so wide? Already we were perhaps within the Ua.

Kisu pointed overhead. "See the mindar," he said.

We looked up and saw a brightly plumaged, short-winged, sharp-billed bird. It was yellow and red.

"That is a forest bird," said Kisu.

The mindar is adapted for short, rapid flights, almost spurts, its wings beating in sudden flurries, hurrying it from branch to branch, for camouflage in flower trees, and for drilling the bark of such trees for larvae and grubs.

"Look!" said Ayari, pointing off to the left.

There we saw a tharlarion, sunning itself on a bar. As we neared it it slipped into the water and swam away.

"We are within the river," said Kisu. "I am sure of it."

"The lake is dividing," said Ayari.

"No," laughed Kisu, pleased. "That is an island in the river. There will doubtless be many of them."

"Which way shall we go?" I asked.

"Go to the right," said Kisu.

"Why?" I asked. I am English. It seemed to me more natural to pass on the left. That way, of course, one's sword arm faces the fellow on the other side of the road who might be passing you. Surely it is safer to keep a stranger on your right. Goreans generally, incidentally, like the English, I am pleased to say, keep to the left of a road. They, too, you see, are a sensible folk. They do this, explicitly, for reasons quite similar to those which long ago presumably prompted the English custom, namely, provision for defense, and the facilitation, if it seems desirable, of aggression. Most Goreans, like most men of Earth, are right-handed. This is natural, as almost all Goreans seem to be derived from human stock. In Gorean, as in certain Earth languages, the same word is used for both stranger and enemy.

"In entering a village on the Ngao coast," said Kisu, "one always enters on the right."

"Why is that?" I asked.

"One thus exposes one's side to the blade of the other," said Kisu.

"Is that wise?" I asked.

"How better," asked Kisu, "to show that one comes in peace?"

"Interesting," I said. But, for my part, I would have felt easier in passing to the left. What if the other fellow does not desire peace? As a warrior I knew the value of an eighth of an Ihn saved in turning the body.