He said: “Now that I know we have a son together, I think we should be more intimate.”
“No, thank you.”
“You’re such a killjoy.”
“Don’t you talk to me about joy. You’ve been a blight on my life. With all my heart I wish I had never set eyes on you. I don’t want to be intimate with you, I want to get away from you. If you went to Jerusalem it wouldn’t be far enough.”
His face darkened with anger, and she regretted the extravagance of her words. She recalled Alan’s rebuke. She wished she could say no simply and calmly, without stinging witticisms. But Ralph aroused her ire like no one else.
“Can’t you see?” she said, trying to be reasonable. “You have hated my husband for, what, a quarter of a century? He broke your nose and you slashed his cheek open. You disinherited him, then you were forced to give him back his family’s lands. You raped the woman he once loved. He ran away and you dragged him back with a rope around his neck. After all tnat, even having a son together cannot make you and me friends.”
“I disagree,” he said. “I think we can be not just friends, but lovers.”
“No!” It was what she had feared, in the back of her mind, ever since Alan had reined in on the road in front of her.
Ralph smiled. “Why don’t you take off your dress?”
She tensed.
Alan leaned over her from behind and slipped the long dagger out of her belt with a smooth motion. He had obviously premeditated the move, and it happened too quickly for her to react.
But Ralph said: “No, Alan – that won’t be necessary. She’ll do it willingly.”
“I will not!” she said.
“Give her back the dagger, Alan.”
Reluctantly, Alan reversed the knife, holding it by the blade, and offered it to her.
She snatched it and leaped to her feet. “You may kill me but I’ll take one of you with me, by God,” she said.
She backed away, holding the knife at arm’s length, ready to fight.
Alan stepped towards the door, moving to cut her off.
“Leave her be,” Ralph said. “She’s not going anywhere.”
She had no idea why Ralph was so confident, but he was dead wrong. She was getting out of this hut and then she was going to run away as fast as she could, and she would not stop until she dropped.
Alan stayed where he was.
Gwenda got to the door, reached behind her and lifted the simple wooden latch.
Ralph said: “Wulfric doesn’t know, does he?”
Gwenda froze. “Doesn’t know what?”
“He doesn’t know that I’m Sam’s father.”
Gwenda’s voice fell to a whisper. “No, he doesn’t.”
“I wonder how he would feel if he found out.”
“It would kill him,” she said.
“That’s what I thought.”
“Please don’t tell him,” she begged.
“I won’t… so long as you do as I say.”
What could she do? She knew Ralph was drawn to her sexually. She had used that knowledge, in desperation, to get in to see him at the sheriff’s castle. Their encounter at the Bell all those years ago, a vile memory to her, had lived in his recollection as a golden moment, probably much enhanced by the passage of time. And she had put into his head the idea of reliving that moment.
This was her own fault.
Could she somehow disabuse him? “We aren’t the same people we were all those years ago,” she said. “I will never be an innocent young girl again. You should go back to your serving wenches.”
“I don’t want serving girls, I want you.”
“No,” she said. “Please.” She fought back tears.
He was implacable. “Take off your dress.”
She sheathed her knife and unbuckled her belt.
89
The moment Merthin woke up, he thought of Lolla.
She had been missing now for three months. He had sent messages to the city authorities in Gloucester, Monmouth, Shaftesbury, Exeter, Winchester and Salisbury. Letters from him, as alderman of one of the great cities of the land, were treated seriously, and he had received careful replies to them all. Only the mayor of London had been unhelpful, saying in effect that half the girls in the city had run away from their fathers, and it was no business of the mayor’s to send them home.
Merthin had made personal inquiries in Shiring, Bristol and Melcombe. He had spoken to the landlord of every tavern, giving them a description of Lolla. They had all seen plenty of dark-haired young women, often in the company of handsome rogues called Jake, or Jack, or Jock; but none could say for sure that they had seen Merthin’s daughter, or heard the name Lolla.
Some of Jake’s friends had also vanished, along with a girlfriend or two, the other missing women all some years older than Lolla.
Lolla might be dead – Merthin knew that – but he refused to give up hope. It was unlikely she had caught the plague. The new outbreak was ravaging towns and villages, and taking away most of the children under ten. But survivors of the first wave, such as Lolla and himself, must have been people who for some reason had the strength to resist the illness, or – in a very few cases, such as his own – to recover from it; and they were not falling sick this time. However, the plague was only one of the hazards to a sixteen-year-old girl running away from home, and Merthin’s fertile imagination tortured him, in the small hours of the night, with thoughts of what might have happened to her.
One town not ravaged by the plague was Kingsbridge. The illness had affected about one house in a hundred in the old town, as far as Merthin could tell from the conversations he held, shouted across the city gate, with Madge Webber, who was acting as alderman inside the city walls while Merthin managed affairs outside. The Kingsbridge suburbs, and other towns, were seeing something like one in five afflicted. But had Caris’s methods overcome the plague, or merely delayed it? Would the illness persist, and eventually overcome the barriers she had put up? Would the devastation be as bad as last time in the end? They would not know until the outbreak had run its course – which might be months or years.
He sighed and got up out of his lonely bed. He had not seen Caris since the city was closed. She was living at the hospital, a few yards from Merthin’s house, but she could not leave the building. People could go in but not come out. Caris had decided she would have no credibility unless she worked side by side with her nuns, so she was stuck.
Merthin had spent half his life separated from her, it seemed. But it did not get any easier. In fact he ached for her more now, in middle age, than he had as a youngster.
His housekeeper, Em, was up before him, and he found her in the kitchen, skinning rabbits. He ate a piece of bread and drank some weak beer, then went outside.
The main road across the island was already crowded with peasants and their carts bringing supplies. Merthin and a team of helpers spoke to each of them. Those bringing standard products with agreed prices were the simplest: Merthin sent them across the inner bridge to deposit their goods at the locked door of the gatehouse, then paid them when they came back empty. With those bringing seasonal produce such as fruits and vegetables he negotiated a price before allowing them to deliver. For some special consignments, a deal had been made days earlier, when he placed the order: hides for the leather trade; stones for the masons, who had recommenced building the spire under Bishop Henri’s orders; silver for the jewellers; iron, steel, hemp and timber for the city’s manufacturers, who had to continue working even though they were temporarily cut off from most of their customers. Finally there were the one-off cargoes, for which Merthin would need to take instructions from someone in the city. Today brought a vendor of Italian brocade who wanted to sell it to one of the city’s tailors; a year-old ox for the slaughterhouse; and Davey from Wigleigh.