"I dunno," Emily said. "Frankly, you're gonna be in pretty heavy demand. The Committee wants you for a council session.
You're our situation experts now! And then there's Singapore.
"The hell," David said.
"Singapore's Parliament is holding open hearings on their data-haven policy. Suvendra's there right now. She's been our contact with the Islamic Bank, and she's going to testify."
Emily paused. "It's kind of complicated."
"Suvendra can handle that," David said.
"Sure," Emily said, "but if she handles it really well, her
Committee election's a shoe-in. "
David's eyes widened. "Wait a minute-"
"You don't know how this has been playing Stateside,"
Emily told him. "A month ago it was a side show, but now it's a major crisis. You heard how Dianne Arbright was talking. A month ago a top-rank journo like Arbright wouldn't have given me the time of day, but now suddenly we're sisters, very heavy solidarity." Emily held up two fingers.
"Something's gonna give, and soon. You can smell it com- ing. It's gonna be like Paris '68, or early Gorbachev. But global." She was serious. "And we can be right on top of it. "
"We can be six feet fucking under it!" David shouted.
"What are you up to? You been talking to those crackpots from Kymera?"
Emily flinched. "Kymera ... That corpocracy stuff doesn't cut much ice with us, but it sure bears watching.... Vienna's acting screwy."
"Vienna knows what it's doing," David said.
"Maybe, but is it what we want?" Emily pulled plates and plasticware. "I think Vienna's waiting. They're gonna let it get bad this time-until somebody, somewhere, gives them political carte blanche. To clean house, globally. A new world order, and a new world army."
"I don't like it," David said.
"It's what we have now, but without the ratholes."
"I like ratholes."
"In that case, you'd better go talk some sense to Singa- pore." The microwave dinged. "It's only for a few days,
David. And Singapore's got a real government, not some goofy criminal front like Grenada's. Your testimony to their
Parliament could make a major difference in their policy.
Suvendra says-"
David's face turned leaden. "We're gonna get killed," he said. "Don't you understand that yet? All the little ratholes are gonna be battle zones. There are people out there who would kill us for nothing at all, and if they can kill us for profit, they're thrilled! And they know who we are, that's what scares me. We're valuable now...."
He rubbed his stubbled cheek. "We're getting the hell out of here, into a Lodge or a Retreat, and if you want to take care of Singapore, Emily, well, call Vienna and finance
Rizome's Fightin' Armor Division. 'Cause they mean busi- ness these pirates and we're never gonna sweet-talk 'em into anything! Not till we put a tank on every fucking street comer! Until we find the sons-of-bitches who pressed the buttons that killed those drowned little kids in Grenada. But not my kid! Never again!"
Laura punctured the foil over her steaming chicken almondine.
She felt no appetite. Those drowned bodies ... stiff and dead and moving on dark currents ... dark currents of rage. "He's right," she said. "Not my Loretta. But one of us has to go.
To Singapore."
David gaped. "Why?"
"Because we're needed there, that's why. Because it has what we want," she said. "Power to control our own lives.
And the real answers.' The truth!"
David stared at her. "The truth. You think you can get it?
You think you're that important?"
"I'm not important," Laura said. "I know I'm nothing much now-the sort of person who gets pushed around, insulted, and has her house shot up. But I might make myself important, if I worked at it. It could happen. If Suvendra needs me, I'm going."
"You don't even know Suvendra!"
'I know she's Rizome, and I know she's fighting for us.
We can't turn our backs on an associate. And whoever shot up our Lodge is going to pay for it."
The baby started to whimper. David slumped in his chair.
He spoke very quietly. "What about us, Laura-you and me and Loretta? You could die over there. "
"This isn't just for the company-it's for us! Running away can't make us safe."
"Then what am I supposed to do?" David said. "Stand on the dock and blow kisses? While you sail off to make the world safe for democracy?"
"So what? Women always did that in wartime!" Laura struggled to lower her voice. "You're needed here anyway, to counsel the Committee. I'll go to Singapore."
"I don't want you to go." He was trying to be curt and tough, lay it down in front of Emily like an ultimatum, but all the force was out of it. He was afraid for her, and it was half a plea.
"I'll come back and I'll be fine," she said. The words sounded like a reassurance, instead of a refusal. But he wasn't any less hurt.
Taut silence. Emily looked wretched. "Maybe this isn't the time to talk about it. You've both been under a lot of strain.
No one says you're acting non-R."
"They wouldn't have to say it," Laura said. "We know how to feel it without any words."
David spoke up. "You're going to do it no matter what I say to you, aren't you.
It was no use hesitating now. Better to get it over with.
"Yes. I have to," she told him. "It's gotten to me now. It's inside me, David. I've seen too much of it. If I don't work through this somehow, I'll never really sleep again."
"Well," he said. "Then it's no use arguing, is it? This is where I beat you into submission, or threaten divorce." He got off his barstool, jerkily,, and began pacing. Wired with tension, his feet stuffing the carpet. Somehow she forced herself to stay quiet and let him struggle with himself.
At last he spoke aloud. "I guess we're in the thick of it now, whether we like it or not. Hell, for all we know, half of
Rizome's on some terrorists' hit list, just because we took a stand. If we cower to criminals, we'll never live it down.
He stopped and looked at her.
She'd won. She felt her face, set stiff and stubbornly, break into a smile. Helpless and radiant, a smile for him. She was very proud of him. Proud just because of what he was; and proud, too, that Emily had seen it.
He sat on his barstool again and locked eyes with her.
"But you're not going," he told her. "I am."
She took his hand and looked at it, held it in her fingers.
Good, strong, warm hand. "That's not how it works with us," she told him gently. "You're the idea man, David. I'm the one who hustles people."
"Let me get shot," he said. "I couldn't stand it if anything happened to you. I mean that."
She hugged him hard. "Nothing will happen, sweetheart.
I'll just do the goddamned job. And I'll come back. Covered with glory."
He broke away from her, got to his feet. "You won't even give me that much, will you?" He headed for the door. "I'm going out."
Emily opened her mouth. Laura grabbed her arm. David left the apartment.
"Let him go," Laura said. "He's like that when we fight.
He needs it."
"I'm sorry," she said.
Laura felt close to tears. "It's been real bad for us. All that time online. He has to blow off some steam."
"You're just jet-lagged. And Net-burned. I'll get you some
Kleenex. "
"I'm better with him, usually." She forced a smile. "But right now I'm on-rag."
"Oh, gosh." Emily gave her a tissue. "No wonder."
"Sorry."
Emily touched her shoulder gently. "I always hassle you with my problems; Laura. But you never lean on me. Always so controlled. Everyone says so." She hesitated. "You and
David need some time together."
"We'll have all the time in the world when I get back."
"Maybe you ought to think it over."
"It's no use, Emily. We can't get away from it." She wiped her eyes. "It was something Stubbs told me, before they killed him. One world means there's no place to hide."