"Fuck you all ... " he muttered to himself, wondering which way he should go along the beach, left or right?
And then, straight ahead of him, he had his answer. Standing there at the water-line, watching him, was Katya.
At first he didn't believe it was really her. What was she doing so far from her sanctuary? But if it wasn't her, then who?
He didn't wait for his senses to catch up with what his instinct already knew. Without looking back at the ridiculous circus behind him he stumbled down the beach towards her.
Despite all that Katya had done, all that she was associated with in Todd's mind, her smile was welcome to him now: her madness infinitely preferable to that of Eppstadt and the mob behind him. He was done with them. Forever. This last humiliation was simply the final proof that he did not belong at this party any longer. For better or worse, he belonged in the Canyon, with the woman standing at the water's edge, beckoning to him.
"What are you doing here?" he asked.
She smiled. Oh that smile; still an astonishment!
"What do you think? I came to find you."
"I thought you'd never leave the Canyon."
"Sometimes I surprise myself."
He put his arm around her. An ambitious wave came up around their legs and filled his shoes with cold saltwater. He laughed, snorting through the blood. It spattered her.
"God, I'm sorry. That's gross."
He went down on his haunches and brought a handful of water up to wash his face, inhaling to cleanse his nostrils. The saltwater stung.
Katya came down to crouch in the surf beside him, her gaze going over his shoulder.
"They're coming down from the house to get you," she warned.
"Fuck." He didn't need to glance back to confirm what she was saying. Eppstadt would enjoy what came next, of course: having Todd arrested for assault, hauled up before a judge. It would be headlines tomorrow; and attached to it every detail of what Maxine had proclaimed to her guests. Burrows would be shooed out of hiding, wherever he was, to tell his half of the story; or -- if he chose to stand by his Hippocratic oath and remain silent -- then somebody would invent the details, or a nurse would spill them. However it was verified (as though anything needed verification) the secret was out.
But his story was only part of this. Katya? What about her secret? If they got her into the spotlight as well as Todd, then the mystery of would become part of tomorrow's headlines. The sanctuary would be violated by police and press; and when they'd gone, by the public.
"I can't bear this," he said. He was ready to weep, for them both.
She took hold of his hand. "Then don't," she said.
She stood up, facing the sea, pulling on his hand so that he stood with her. There were a few lights out there in the ocean, very remote. Otherwise it was completely dark.
"Walk with me," she said.
She couldn't mean: into the water?
Yes she did.
She was already walking, and he was following, not because he liked the idea of striding off into the icy, roaring Pacific, but because the alternative -- the mockery of the audience on the shore; all the interrogations that awaited him -- was too much to contemplate. He wanted to be away from all that, and if the only direction he could take led him into the ocean, then so be it. He had her hand in his. That was all he needed. For the first time in his life, that was all he needed.
"There are currents ... " he said.
"I know."
"And sharks."
"I'm sure."
He almost looked back but stopped himself.
"Don't bother," she said. "You know what they're doing."
"Yes ... "
"Staring at us. Pointing at us."
"Coming after us?"
"Yes. But not where we're going."
The water was up to Todd's waist now; and higher still on Katya, who was a good six inches shorter than he. Though the waves weren't large tonight as they'd been at the height of the storm, they still had sufficient power to throw them backwards when they broke against their bodies. The force of one wave separated them, and Katya was carried back to shore a few yards. Todd turned and went back to get her, glancing up at the beach as he did so. Though they were probably less then twenty-five yards out, the land already seemed very distant: a line of sand scattered with people who'd come down to the water's edge to get a better view of whatever was going on. And beyond them, the houses, all bright with lights; Maxine's in particular. Down the path between the houses he could see the flashing yellow and blue of a police-car. It would only be a matter of time, he thought, before they sent a helicopter after them, with a searchlight.
He reached Katya and caught hold of her hand. The glimpse of land had filled him with new determination.
"Come on," he said. "I'll carry you."
She didn't protest this; rather let him gather her up in his arms so that they could continue their escape. He had become, he thought, a monster in an old horror movie: grabbing the girl and carrying her off into the night. Except that it was she who'd led him thus far. So that made them both monsters, didn't it?
She slipped her arms around his neck, and lay her head against his chest. The water was so deep now that when the waves came and rifted them up, his toes no longer touched the bottom. Curiously, he wasn't afraid. They were going to drown, most probably, but what the hell? The water was so cold his body was already becoming numb, and his eyelids felt heavy.
"Keep ... hold ... of me ... " he said to her.
She pressed her mouth to his neck. She was warmer than he was, which for some inexplicable reason he found amusing. She, who was so old, was the one with the fever. The thought of that, of her body's heat, made him voice his one regret.
"We ... never did it properly ... in a bed, I mean."
"We will," she said, kissing him on the mouth.
Another wave came, larger than most that had preceded it, and picked them both up.
They did not break their kiss, though the water closed over their heads.
On the shore, there was plenty of commotion, but Tammy kept away from the heart of it, moving off down the beach. She had watched Todd and Katya getting smaller and smaller, her panic growing. Now they were gone. Perhaps she just couldn't make them out any longer, and they'd reappear in a moment, but she didn't have very high hopes of that. There had been such determination in the way they'd headed out into the darkness; plainly they weren't going out to enjoy a little swim, then turn round and head back to shore. They were escaping together, in the only direction left for them.
She had a sick feeling in the pit of her stomach: part horror at what she'd just witnessed, part envy. He had made his choice, finally. And now, he was gone.
She heard the throb of rotor-blades, and she looked up to see a police helicopter coming from the south, following the line of the surf as it approached the place where the lovers had disappeared. Its powerful spotlight illuminated the water with uncanny brightness.
Tammy looked back at the people assembled along the shoreline. Almost all the guests had vacated the house and were milling around on the sand. She couldn't see Maxine, but she could name a few famous folks, mainly from the color of their clothes. Glenn Close was in white; Brad Pitt in a powder blue suit; Madonna was in red. They were briefly illuminated by the flood of the search-light, then the helicopter veered off seaward, and Tammy followed its progress as it swooped down close to the water. Surely Todd and Katya couldn't have gone that far out. Even if the current had caught them, they couldn't have been swept more than a few hundred yards in the short time since they'd entered the water.