Helen

When Helen awoke, the first thing she saw was a blue glint. It came from somewhere high on the wall opposite the pallet where she was resting. The “wall” was more in the nature of collapsed rubble, which seemed to have forced its way into some kind of opening. As if one wall—she could still see remnants of what must be an ancient structure—had been filled by the centuries-long disintegration of walls which came after. The glint seemed to come from a piece of that most ancient wall, a jagged and broken shard.

Blue. As if it were shining by its own light. Helen stared at it, puzzled.

When she finally realized the truth, she sat upright, almost bolting. That was sunlight! Shining through something!

Next to her, Berry stirred. The girl had apparently already been awake. Seeing the direction of Helen’s stare, Berry followed her eyes. Then, smiled.

“It’s so special, this place,” she whispered. “There’s light down here—all the way down here!—coming from someplace above. Must be little crevices or something, all the way up to the surface.”

The two girls stared at the blue glint. “It’s the Windows,” Berry whispered. “I know it is. The Shkawl Windows everybody always talks about but nobody knows where they are. I found it—me and Lars.”

Helen had never heard of the “Shkawl Windows.” She was about to ask Berry what they were, when another thought occurred to her. She looked around. Then, seeing that the cavernous area she was in was too poorly lit by the feeble light to see more than a few feet, listened.

“How long have I been asleep?” she asked, her voice tinged by worry. “And where’s Lars?”

“You’ve been sleeping forever, seems like. You must have been real tired.”

Berry nestled closer. “Lars said he was going back to make sure we didn’t leave any tracks. He took a lantern with him.” She frowned and raised her head. “But he’s been gone a long time, now that I think about it. I wonder—”

Helen rummaged under the blanket, searching for the other lantern. When she found it, she rose and headed for the stairs. “Stay here,” she commanded. “I’ll find him.”

But Lars found her, instead. And brought the terror back.

“People are coming,” he hissed. “With guns.”

Startled, Helen lifted her eyes. She had been looking at the floor, picking her way through the debris which filled what seemed to have once been a wide hallway. From a corner twenty feet ahead and to her left, Lars flicked his lantern on and off, showing her where he was hidden.

She extinguished her own lantern and moved toward him, as quickly as she could in the darkness.

“Who are they?” she whispered.

“Most of ’em are Scrags,” came the answer. “Must be a dozen of ’em. Maybe more. But there’s some other people leading them. I don’t know who they are, but they’re real scary-looking. One of them has some kind of gadget.”

Helen was at his side, her hand resting on the boy’s shoulder. She could feel the tremor shaking those slender bones.

“I think they’re tracking us with it, Helen,” he added. His voice was full of fear. “Our smell, maybe. Something.”

Helen felt a shiver of fear herself. She knew that there were such devices, because her father had mentioned them to her. But the devices were very expensive.

Which meant—

Helen didn’t want to think about what it meant. Whatever it was, it was bad news.

“How close are they?” she whispered.

“Not too far any more. I spotted ’em a while ago. After that I stayed ahead of them, hoping they were going somewhere else. It was easy ’cause they’ve got a lot of lanterns and they’re not afraid to use them.”

The fear in his voice was stronger. For a waif like Lars, anyone who would move through the dark caverns of the lower Loop without worrying who might spot them was an automatic danger. The arrogance of power.

“Stay here,” she whispered. A moment later, after adjusting the lantern to its lowest power setting, Helen began moving ahead into the darkness. The soft glow emitted by the lantern was enough to illuminate her immediate footsteps, no more. She was searching for the oncoming enemy—and that they were her enemies, she didn’t doubt at all—using her ears and her nose.

She found them two minutes later. And felt the worst despair of her life. There would be no escaping these.

The Scrags, maybe. But not the five people in front.

From her vantage point, peeking around another corner in the endless hallways which seemed to make up this place, Helen studied the oncoming searchers. She gave no more than a momentary scrutiny to the Scrags bringing up the rear, strutting and swaggering exactly the way she remembered them. It was the five people in front that she spent her time examining.

They were dressed in civilian clothing, but Helen knew at once that they were trained professionals. She had spent her whole life as a military brat. Everything about those four men and one woman shrieked: soldiers. It was obvious in the way they maintained their positions, the way they held their weapons, everything—

Peeps! The thought flooded her, unbidden. It made no sense that a Peep military detachment would be down here, but Helen never questioned the logic. Peeps were her enemies. Peeps had killed her mother. Who else—what other soldiers?—would be looking for her? She was much too politically unsophisticated to understand the illogicality of an alliance between Scrags and Peeps. Enemies were enemies, and there’s an end to it. Such is the root of highland political logic, as it has been throughout human existence. Helen had been born in a military hospital in the great orbiting shipyard called Hephaestus, and had only occasionally visited Gryphon. No matter. She was her father’s girl. From the highlands.

She focused her eyes on the two Peeps in the very forefront. The leaders, obviously. The one on the left had all the earmarks of a veteran. He was studying a device held in his hand, his hatchet face bent forward and tight with concentration.

Her eyes moved to the man standing next to him. The officer in charge, she realized. She wasn’t certain—it was hard to be, with prolong—but she thought he was as young in actual fact as his face would indicate.

She took no comfort in that youthfulness. She saw the veteran’s head nod, like a hatchet striking wood, and his lips move. The young officer’s face came up and he was staring directly at her, from a distance of not more than twenty yards.

He could not see Helen in the darkness, but she could see him clearly. There was nothing soft and childlike in that lean face; nothing boyish in the wiry body. She saw his jaw tighten, and the dark gleam which seemed to come into his eyes. That was the face of a young fanatic, she knew, who had just come to an irrevocable decision. Pitiless and merciless in the way that only youth can be. Helen realized, in that instant, his true purpose.

That was the face of a killer, not a captor.

And so, in the end, Helen belonged to her mother also. Helen Zilwicki came back to life, reborn in the daughter named after her. As she continued her examination, Helen gave no thought at all to her own certain death. That her enemies would catch Helen herself, and kill her, she did not doubt for an instant. But perhaps, if she did her job and led them astray before they trapped her, the monsters would be satisfied with her alone. And not seek further in the darkness, for her own new-found children.