All my love!!!!!!

Ted От Лены

Hello

I will try to explaine again your my point. I don't know do you need it or it is only waste time? You told me in phone conversation it is my problem. You know it will be only my problem when you will not love me and when we will not depend from each other. Now I am your wife, love you and you love me. If I am wrong, let me know.

First thing…you offeneded me with your attutide to me, you did same bad things twice during a one week (I mean didn't call me or write me that you will be so late at home). From it I can see you had good time with your cool friends in the restaraunts, night bars and even didn't think about me. You didn't think I can be very worry about you when you are not home untill 5.00a.m. Now it is good lesson for me, I know if you are not at home late night, nothing happened with you, all is o'k with you…you only have great time with your theatre friends untill morning. From this situation I understood you forgot all what promiced me last week when we had serious conversation with you about same situation. So I can see you can't held your words which you promise. I don't know how about states but here in Russia we consider that people go to the night clubs or to drink, or to find woman (man) and of course to have fun. What is your interest there? Explain me is it usual theatre life? And everybody from theatre like to spend every night after every show in the restraunt? I didn't meet people from theatre so close before, tell me it is tradition to spend nights together after every play? I don't think you will change when I come to you, you are adult person and you are as you are.

Second thing I felt very uncomfortable that my mom was here and could see all. She saw I was very fruestrued with this situation and I was ashamed of it, that my sweet Ted who loves me very much, can't live without me spends nights in the night clubs. If you feel you like such life more, may be you are not ready to live with me together. Because family is very responcible thing and has some wise limits. You knew about it when we told with you before marriage. I thought we had similar images about life together.

Another thing… I was upset becouse you even didn't understand you hurted me so much. I am feeling depressed all last days.

I am not going to be "your mom" and tell what you need do, what no. You can do what you want, what you consider is right for you. I will do what is right for me. Now I don't need your records about your days and nights. I don't know will be you able to understand me after all what I wrote. I still as stupid love you and only for this reason I explained you all. If I didn't love you it didn't matter for me what with you, where you are and with whom.

Nichka,

Глава 8

4 июля 2000 г. 04:20

Они сидели в аэропорту. Ждали объявления на посадку. Лена снова села рядом с Олегом. Взяла его под руку. Крепко прижималась, словно это он улетал, а она не хотела его отпускать. И сидевшая напротив теща с трудом скрывала свое удивление. Дети тихо сидели чуть в сторонке. Было тягостно. Все молчали.

И потом когда объявили посадку Лена долго не хотела уходить, мол, посидим еще… А когда все-таки подошли к дверям, она попрощалась со всеми, расплакавшись, с Олегом — последним… И дети тоже сами не свои… и Валентина Федоровна и Леша… А потом они вошли внутрь и Олег долго еще ловил их глазами в проеме двери. А потом они стояли втроем и ждали когда пассажиры сядут в самолет, наблюдая в окно. Валентина Федоровна плакала, Леша тоже вытирался платком — по мужски, украдкой и молча…

Они видели как автобус, сделав крюк, медленно подкатился к самолету. Пассажиры вышли на летное поле и столпились у трапа. И Олег все пытался разглядеть в предутренних сумерках в этой толпе маленькие фигурки своих детей и Лены.

А потом все дела утряслись и пассажиры стали подниматься в самолет по очереди, навсегда скрываясь в его недрах.

Светало.

1982. Зима. Ночь после танцев. Продолжение прогулки.

Шел третий час ночи. Снег приятно хрустел под ногами, на улице было по прежнему пусто. На Красном проспекте выключили свет. Но все равно было светло и уютно в лунных лучах. Они по прежнему шли и о чем-то увлеченно разговаривали, даже и не пытаясь останавливать совсем редкие в это время машины.

От Тэда

My most treasured Yelena,

I am sorry that I forgot twice to call you. Of course it was very stupid of me. I regret very much that you worried about me and that you felt bad that your mom could see that.

You are mistaken when you imagine that I live wild night life, and you do not speak honestly when you say that you believe I will always do the same. You have known me for two and a half years. I do not appreciate it when you choose to forget everything about me except the last thing which offended you. It is no way to show love.

Again… I wish that you will understand that I am very sorry for not calling you when I stayed out late two nights ago. I hope that eventually you will be able to remember who I am and what I am like as a person.

Nothing in all the world will cause me to abandon you! Of course we want your health to be good. To live a long and happy life. But never fear that I will refuse you if some part of your health is not good. Here, when we take the vows of marriage we say, "I promise to love and cherish you in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer, in good times and bad, until death parts us." I don't know what we swore to in the Russian wedding ceremony because I did not understand any of what was said. However, when I placed the ring on your finger and whispered, "with this ring, I thee wed"… my intention was (and still is) to love you through all things. "In sickness and in health." You are mine and I am yours… we are joined in love and nothing will keep us apart so long as the spark of life and love still lives in us.

I believe we will have a long and happy life together. But no matter what happens, I will be here for you and we will face all together. Da? Of course da!

Write me about your business with selling the apartment and buying tickets. I will be very happy when you have tickets!!!!!!!

Let me know what you find out about this passport stuff and I will tell you about flight information.

I will try to call the realtor today and see if she has any more info on houses. I am waiting to here from the appraiser… but if I don't here from him in the next couple days I will schedule an appraisal with someone else.

Love ya!!!!!!!

Ted От Лены

Hello Theodore Earl St.Mane!..LOL

It is funny…will you always call me now Yelena when you be angry with me? My day went good. After pleasant conversation with you I went to wash dishes and very soon Irina came to visit me. She brought presents for me and Alena and congrulated us with past women's holiday. I presented gift her also. We drink tea with cake and told, told, told a lot. It was good time because I didn't see her from time when I came from Moscow…we only told by phone. She went to home 7.30p.m and I with Alena acompany her to the bus. Then I with Alena went to the post office to pay phone bills and bought in the store food for supper. Just now we finished supper which I cooked very fast. All is o'k here. I hope you will have good day also.

Yelena.

Эпилог

1982. Зима.

Было 5 часов утра, когда они наконец-то подошли к дому номер 31 по улице Объединения. Поднялись на 5-й этаж. Он потихоньку чтобы не будить родителей открыл дверь своим ключом. В квартире было тихо. Он прикрыл дверь в коридоре и включил свет. Она тоже осторожно вошла. Потихоньку, стараясь не шуметь, разделись.