“Do you know what kind of meat we’re getting tonight?”

Mary was quiet for a minute.

“Thomas is sending the new pack members out to hunt something big.”

“Big?”

Mary nodded slowly, a slight frown growing.

“There are quite a few new members.  Thomas wonders if we can make enough to feed twenty.”

We’d been feeding twelve, sometimes a few more, when he only had nine members.  I looked at the pots on the stove and the supply cabinets.

“Yes,” I said firmly.  I put two pots on the stove.  I emptied a large bag of beans into one.  If they weren’t ready for tonight, they could soak overnight for tomorrow.  Carrying another pot to the pump to fill for wash water, I thought of the meal we’d just eaten and wished we had more fresh vegetables.  “Do you know where the carrots came from or who might have gotten them?”

Mary shrugged.

“They weren’t from one of the pack, so I’m not sure.”

The door opened, and I turned from the pump to see Thomas and Grey stride in.  Thomas seemed frustrated.  His eyes didn’t give him away; it was his hands.  He tapped his middle finger on his leg as he walked.  He made his way to the table and sat.  I noted a dark slash on his pants and knew he’d bled a bit more after putting the clean pair on.

“Is everything all right?” I asked.

“Everything’s fine.  I sent all of the new members out to find bigger game since they feel it is now their right to eat at a table.”  He ran his hand through his hair.  His fingers lingered at his temple.

“Headache?  I’m not sure if medicine will work the same on you, but there is some pain reliever left.”  I made to move toward the cabinet, but he stopped me.

“It won’t help.”

“What will help?” I asked.

“Cooperation.”

I studied his face.  He looked tired, which I would expect after the morning and afternoon he had.  But there seemed something more weighing on him.  His weary gaze held mine as if begging me to help.

“I don’t understand,” I said.

“Eight more have joined my pack...eight angry men with the single purpose of pulling my pack apart.”

“Why let them join, then?” I asked, leaning back against the trough.

“Several reasons.  As a member of my pack, there is little any of them can hide from me; and when I command them, they must obey.  That means more protection for us from those who still want to cause trouble.  But, it also means resistance because the new members are doing things they don’t want to do.”

“Like what?”

“Leaving these buildings to hunt for food to feed the pack.  They would rather stay and make nuisances of themselves, in hopes of making you leave.  Their resistance to my command...”  He rubbed his head again.  “Imagine I’m holding one end of a rope, and the other end is held by a member of my pack.  We are both pulling to keep the rope taut.  When the member cooperates in holding their end steady, it requires very little effort on my part to keep the right tension in the rope.  However, if the member pulls, I need to use more force to pull back to keep the member from pulling away completely.”

It sounded a lot like how I controlled a human’s will.

“Now imagine sixteen ropes.  I hold the end of all those ropes in one hand, and each member holds their own end.  If one of those members pulls hard enough to jerk their rope from my grasp, I lose hold on all the ropes.  The pack will fall apart.  A leader can only hold so many ropes here.”  He tapped his head.  “And the more ropes he holds that resist him, the harder it becomes to maintain control.”

“So you need their cooperation.”

“Yes.”

And he didn’t have their cooperation because of my presence.

“Do you want me to leave?”

He gave a weary smile and shook his head.

“No.  I want to know how I can Claim you.  As my Mate, they are less likely to resist you.  As my Mate, you could help me hold the pack together.”  He sighed, his expression rueful.  “I want to keep trying, Charlene.  I promise I won’t hurt you again.”

I couldn’t believe he was asking.

“Does your neck hurt?” I asked.

“A bit.”

“Good,” I said.  He exhaled a laugh, and I put my hands on my hips, annoyed with him.  “It’s not fun being bitten, is it?”

“If you were doing the biting, I’d think it very fun.”

My stomach pitched wildly, and heat rose to my face.

“I’m tempted to bite you just to prove it wouldn’t be.”

He stood suddenly and crowded me until I backed up against the pump.  The sound of a door closing distracted me, and I pulled my gaze away long enough to note we were now alone in the room.

“Do it,” he said, reclaiming my attention.

He tilted his head to the side, daring me with his eyes to follow through with my threat.

“Perhaps when your neck doesn’t look like raw meatloaf,” I said.

“My neck hurts.  My ribs hurt.  My head hurts.” He sighed, again, and leaned down until his forehead rested on mine.  “May I sleep in your room tonight?”

I knew he was playing on my pity.  Yet, I didn’t want to say no.  Why should I?  He promised not to bite me.  He wanted to stay in my room to protect me.  And he was asking permission instead of assuming.  He was respecting every condition and limit I’d put on our relationship.

I pulled back and focused on his eyes.  Relationship?  Mary was right.  For saying no to Thomas, I did have a soft spot for him.  But was it any different than Anton?  I thought so.  The sight of Thomas made my heart race and my stomach stir.

“What are you thinking?” Thomas asked.

“That you’re too old and too wise for me.”

“Too old?”  He snorted.  “I’m no more than four years older.”

I grinned at him.

“I like how you didn’t try to defend your wisdom.”

“You’re much wiser than me.  Even if you’re four years younger.  May I sleep in your room tonight?”

“Yes, Thomas.  You may.”

He leaned forward, and for a moment, I thought he would kiss me.  Instead, he rested his forehead on mine again, closed his eyes, and exhaled.

“If I’m the hand that holds this pack together, you’ll be the heart.”

*    *    *    *

The group brought back a deer.  Thomas made them skin and quarter it before Gregory brought it inside.  Mary had enough experience that she could help me butcher it.  We saved four larger roasts for the oven and tossed the rest of the meat, diced into cubes, into two pots.  For such a large animal, there was less meat than I’d anticipated.  But, soon the smell of roasting meat filled the common room.

Thomas walked in, appearing more agitated and pale.

“Two more.”

“I think you should start saying no.”

“If I do, it will only make those already in the pack more resistant.”

I stopped stirring the meat and went to join him at the table.  Mary still sat there cutting up the last bit of meat.  When I’d caught her nibbling on pieces raw, I’d left her to finish alone.

She grinned at me and popped another piece in her mouth.  I shook my head and focused on Thomas, who sat across from me.

“I thought the leader of the pack could give any command and have to be obeyed.  Can’t you just command them to stop struggling against you and cooperate?”

“I can’t command them to give up their freedom of will.  I can remove certain choices, but ultimately, they have to be willing to obey and concede to my command.  If they aren’t, they can ask to leave the pack and become Forlorn.”

“Wait.  I thought you said if they didn’t obey, they could shake the pack apart.”

“A voluntary and agreed upon leaving doesn’t hurt the whole pack.  It’s the willful resistance of many that can break a pack.”

“Wini says it’s nature’s way of ensuring it’s possible to mutiny against a bad leader,” Mary said.

“Could Winifred ask them to obey?”

Thomas shook his head.

“Elders can make rules and laws to bind the will of all of our kind, but only when they are in our best interest.”