“One day you’ll understand. And when you do I’m going to laugh my ass off.”

     “Not a chance in hell,” he replied.

     Bethy appeared under the pink roses, which meant that Blaire was waiting behind her. I picked up the hidden wireless microphone that I’d had the sound guy strategically place for me and put it on my lapel. Then I reached behind the flowers and picked up my guitar. It had been years since anyone had seen me touch this thing. I could only imagine what was going through their heads. Only my dad knew what was going on because he’d helped me with the chords.

     “What’re you doing?” Grant whispered. The disbelief in his voice as he figured out the answer all on his own was obvious. I didn’t need to tell him. As soon as Bethy was in her place I stepped in front of the minister and looked directly down the aisle. When Blaire appeared the music would begin. I’d gone over everything with the sound team thoroughly.

     When she stepped forward on her father’s arm her eyes locked with mine and then went wide in surprise. She had been supposed to walk down the aisle to “I Won’t Give Up” by Jason Mraz. But I hadn’t wanted another man singing to her. Not today. I wanted her walking to me while I sang the words written just for her when she walked down the aisle to gift me with my world.

“Well, uh, I haven’t been one much for singing... well you know, in front of people... but I figured after all we’ve been through... this would be a good time to say what I’ve always wanted to say. Blaire, I love you girl... to the moon and back.” I watched as she stood frozen looking at me. The entire place faded away and all I could see was Blaire.

When you first looked at me

I forgot to breathe   

that moment marked my hardened heart

I vowed never to leave

 

And the touch of your skin

healed something deep within

that left me wanting more of you

the less I got the more it grew

Oh I couldn’t help from falling, falling for you

So I’m standing here, oh girl you know

After a ll that we’ve been through we couldn’t let it go

and as long as I’m alive, in your eyes I’ll stare

holding you so close I’ll solemnly swear

that I have fallen too far

that I have fallen too far, too far for you.

For you

When I finally found you

I finally found me

that day I won’t soon forget

the reason for it all

I’ll give you a new name

nothing in life will be the same

the story is now complete

our life and love is all we need

 

‘Cause I couldn’t help from falling

falling for you

So I’m standing here oh girl you know

After a ll we’ve been through we couldn’t let it go

and as long as I’m alive, in your eyes I’ll stare

holding you so close I’ll solemnly swear

that I have fallen too far, that I have fallen too far

too far for you

 

My heart is beating

begging for you

this night will be

a dream come true

so fall, fall, fall into my arms

 

So I’ m standing here oh girl you know

After all that we’ve been through we couldn’t let it go

That I have fallen too far

That I have fallen too far

That I have fallen too far

too far for you, yeah

For you...

 

(Fallen Too Far- the wedding song by Rush Finlay is available for purchase on iTunes.)

     When I played the last line I quickly pulled the guitar strap over my head and handed it to Grant. Blaire didn’t wait for any direction from the minister before she threw herself in my arms with a sob.

     “That was beautiful,” she said against my chest.

     “Not as beautiful as you are,” I replied, holding her against me.

     She let out a small laugh. “I didn’t know you could do that,” she said, pulling back to look up at me.

     “I’m full of all kinds of exciting surprises,” I assured her and winked.

     “Alright you two. Let me give the girl away first,” Abe said, reaching for Blaire’s arm and pulling her back to his side with an amused grin.

     Abe kissed his daughter’s cheek then looked at me. “I’d tell you how special she is but you already know that. Because you do is the only reason I can hand her over to you. I asked you to be the man I couldn’t be, and you did as I asked. Not for me but for her. I couldn’t be prouder of the woman she’s become and the man she’s chosen to spend her life with.” He took Blaire’s hand and placed it in mine. Then he turned to take his seat.

     I slipped her hand into the crook of my arm as we turned around to face the minister. She jumped beside me and looked down at her stomach with a smile. I slipped my arm around her waist and placed my hand on her stomach as our baby moved. This was mine.

HARLOW (yes , you read that right too.)

 

     I could feel him looking at me again. I wished he would stop. Since he’d stalked off cursing a blue streak and left me standing in my hiding place at the rehearsal party, all he did was stare at me. I hated being stared at. I was ready to go home but I knew Dean was enjoying himself. I was going to see if I could get an earlier flight out. I didn’t want to stay until tomorrow.

      I crossed my legs again and studied my hands. No one really spoke to me and I couldn’t blame them. I was boring. I never knew what to say. I was afraid to say anything. I always had been. I’d learned it was better to keep quiet than to say something stupid.

     It was easier to blend into the background when guys who looked like Grant Carter didn’t stare at you constantly. I couldn’t figure out why he was staring at me. That was the craziest thing. I knew why he was upset. When you’re quiet people forget you’re around and they talk about stuff in front of you that really isn’t your business. I’d heard Nan talking on the phone to Grant several times. I also knew that as nice of a guy as Rush was his stepbrother wasn’t. Any guy who dated someone like Nan had to be equally screwed up.

     I just wished he wasn’t so freaking hot. That was something I should have been prepared for. Nan was gorgeous and even though she was a raging bitch she attracted all men. Any guy that she was in a relationship with had to be equally beautiful. And oh my, was he. Very. Even the long hair that he had tucked behind his ears was attractive. Those blue eyes of his had been piercing.

     It had taken two words from him and I’d become a blubbering mess. Which wasn’t hard to do. I did that often. The chair beside me scraped across the floor and I jerked my gaze up to see Grant sitting down entirely too close to me. Not good. So not good. What was his deal?

     “I’m sorry about last night,” he snapped at me. I tensed and managed to nod my head.

     Okay, so he was sorry. Fine. Now he could leave and stop looking at me.

     “Come on, Harlow, say something. Give me more than a nod,” he said, sounding exasperated.

      I wasn’t sure why I should exasperate him. I hadn’t done anything to him. I’d tried to stay away from him and ignore his constant staring. Even during the wedding he’d found me among the other guests and he hadn’t looked away from me the entire time.