“Fuck, baby. Hold on,” Nix’s strained voice warns, and his speed spirals out of control. Each deep thrust pushes me head first into a heart shattering, soul changing and mind blowing bliss.

I let the room around us fade. I let all my insecurities go. I let the past wash over me, the ugliness I’ve lived fade, and in return, the goodness we once had shines bright. Fuck, I’ve missed my man.

“Jesus, Kadence.” Nix’s orgasm ends in an almighty roar. “Welcome back, baby,” he pants as he pulls my head back and takes my mouth in his Nix-way of dominating me.

“You can say that again,” I pant against his lips. My breathing comes back to normal, but I know my body won’t recover so quickly.

We stay connected and in the moment until I feel like I can no longer stand. “Nix, let me up,” I complain, my legs shaking under my own weight.

“Hmmm,” he replies still planted deep.

“Nix.” I twist up to see what he’s doing, but don’t get far when he falls to the floor. “Nix.” I half laugh, half choke at his fall.

“Fuck,” he groans and I fall down next to him.

“Are you okay?” I move to lay over his chest.

“I don’t know. My dick feels numb.” I lift my head and look down at his still hard, angry looking cock.

“Fuck, Nix, it’s so big.”

“What the fuck does that mean?”

I look down at it again. “I mean,” I giggle when he smacks my ass, “it just doesn’t normally look so big.”

“Oh, it’s big, woman. Tell me how much you love it.” He rolls over me, covering me with his weight.

“Okay, it’s big, but that,” I look down as it stands to attention against my stomach, “is a monster.”

“I love it when you talk about my cock with so much love.” His teeth sink into the side of my neck.

“I think I love your angry cock,” I counter as his mouth moves down my neck, along my collarbone.

“I think my angry cock wants you.”

“Again?”

He doesn’t answer; instead, he brings his fingers between my legs, and slides back inside me. I try not to laugh at the predicament we find ourselves in. We go from not having sex in months to twice in the matter of ten minutes.

“Sweetheart, you have no idea.” He looks at me with such love I don’t know how I ever doubted him. Doubted us.

“Show me what you’ve got, Mr. Knight.”

“With pleasure, Mrs. Knight.”

***

“What do you mean it won’t go down?”  Brooks asks down the cell phone hours later as we sit in the hospital cubicle waiting for a doctor. I look down at Nix’s lap and see his cock still standing to attention.

“I mean, it won’t go down,” I try to explain over the sound of Nix groaning in pain.

“Fuck.”

“Yeah, fuck,” I snap back. “I can’t believe you gave it to him, Brooks.” On the way to the hospital, Nix told me about Brooks hooking him up.

“Can we not have this conversation,” Nix moans next to me.

“I don’t know how long we’re going to be, so can you check on Jesse for us?”

“Yeah, I’ll call him,” Brooks agrees, and I feel a little bad that his night with Kelly is messed up, but at least he’s not in Nix’s position.

“Thanks, I’ll keep you posted.” I hang up and sit back down to wait for the doctor.

“I can’t believe you took it. What were you thinking, Nix?”

“I don’t know why you’re pissed. It’s my cock,” Nix moans. The longer his hard-on stays, the more in pain he seems to be.

“You’re right. It’s your dick that’s gonna have to get a fucking needle in it,” I snap. I’m not sure what I’m really angry at; the fact Nix thought he needed a pill to get hard to have sex with me, or that our date is over. I think more that our amazing date is over.

After taking me over the pool table and again on the floor, we spent the evening talking, eating and playing pool. It was as if time had never moved between us. We talked about the past, the kids, how far we had come. We made promises that we would make more time for ourselves. We shared our fears and talked of what our future holds. We laughed. I cried. We made love and vowed to always come back to each other. We connected on a level we never had before and I finally felt like we had found each other again. Then after all of that, when the sun was threatening to rise, when our children would soon be waking, Nix took me again. Only instead of ending our perfect night making love, something went terribly wrong.  Now, sitting in ER with a raging hard-on that won’t go away, my husband waits for news I don’t think he’s prepared for.

“You don’t have to remind me.” He holds out his hand, waiting for me to take it.

“Oh, I don’t think you have to worry about that, Nix. I’m sure the boys will have that sorted.” I snort, knowing if word gets around to Jesse, Nix will never live this shit down.

“Kadence, I was only trying to make it good for you, baby,” he explains and I don’t have anything to say to that. It’s always been good. He definitely doesn’t need it, but I know that my insecurities, helped fuel his, so I can’t blame him.

“Mr. Knight?” An older male doctor walks in before I can respond.

“Yep, that’s me.” Nix nods, trying not to let the pain show over his face.

“Why, Mr. Knight, are you happy to see me?” The doctor looks down at my husband’s cock. I try not to let it affect me; try to look away, but one look at Nix’s face and the laughter comes. I’m a bad person, laughing at the inappropriate joke the old doctor cracks, but I can’t help it.

“Shut your mouth, woman,” Nix warns, not one bit impressed. I cover my mouth to mask the snort and watch him turn back to face the older man.

“So, what seems to be the problem?” the doctor asks, looking down at his chart.

“I think my wife broke my cock, Doc.” The room fills with laughter while Nix groans in pain.

“For that comment, I will tell Jesse,” I tease, not really meaning it.

“Do it and I will spank you,” he growls through his pain and just like that, Nix and Kadence are back. We might have had a long way to go, sitting in an ER room with a broken dick, but that didn’t matter. None of it mattered, because Nix had me, and I had Nix. We had come full circle. We struggled and we fell, but we did it with an unconditional love. We came back to each other when it was all said and done.

Our love wasn’t a fight, but something worth fighting for.

We would always be something worth fighting for.

EPIL OGUE

Kadence

Six Months Later

“Do you remember that time Nix broke his dick?” Jesse asks, causing everyone to start laughing.

“Shut the fuck up, Jesse.” Nix growls beside me while I try to hold in my laugh.

“What? It was ages ago.” He ignores his prez’s death stare and continues to tell his new woman the story of how Nix ended up in the hospital after taking Viagra.

“You should have seen it, babe. So fucking bad. Had to get that shit drained.”

Bell, Jesse’s new woman, laughs next to him causing Nix to stand up.

“It was Kadence’s fault.” He points down to me, and a grin spreads across his face. “She broke it, not me.”

“I did not!” I half shout and half laugh at the ridiculous conversation we are having.

We’ve just finished dinner, one of our monthly family dinners where all the guys from the clubhouse come over and devour my lasagna. Everyone came over tonight: Sy, Holly and baby X, Kelly and Brooks, Jesse and his woman Bell—even Beau turned up with a smile.

“Admit it. Your pussy broke my dick.” He folds his arms across his chest and the guys all snort.

“Well, if you didn’t have problems getting it up…” I leave the statement hanging as the air goes dangerously quiet.

“Did she just say that?” Brooks asks the table, but I can’t answer cause Nix slowly turns to face me. My eyes lock onto his narrowed ones and I know I shouldn’t have gone there.