with Gefilte fish, then best

Mid January home NY to rest

Maybe we’ll see eachother then,

in any case let me know when.

Love, Allen

December 12, 1996

Diamond Bells

“Clear light & illusion body become one”

Hearing the all pervading scintillation of empty bells I realize

Napoleon had toes

Frankenstein’s big toe

Hayagriva cosmic horse one big cleft toe

Virgin Mary white-toed married Joseph brown-toed, impregnated by a white dove transparent triple-toed

How many toes has God? Yahweh nobody knows his toes

Allah’s toes? Mohammed, prophetic ten

Jesus Christ well-kissed human toes

Sealo the Seal Boy who two-fingered hand-flippers at shoulders could smoke & type with regular ten toes

sold tiny white toilets wrapped in toilet paper, souvenirs one dollar

Shelly ten pale pure toes

Michelangelo enjoyed five digits per foot, Da Vinci mapped ten on his two feet

Flies toes get stuck on spiderwebs

Spiders slide swift-toed on sticky nets

Scratch the sole, toes curl

Foetus is capable of toes

Stubbed my bare fourth toe on a step ladder one dark Friday night, though it still wiggles

walking on snowy mud’s painful, back aches

John Madison has chocolate toes

Hitler natural toes

Buddha ten bare toes enlightened

Lay my skull on night pillows, rest on Tara’s lap between gentle toes

Lama YabYum dreams with 20 toes

Emptiness innumerable trillion toes

Old men’s toenails thicken ivory aged

Dead toenails grow in cenotaphs

Napoleon wore toenails inside polished riding boots

Elephant toenail stubs nudge tussocks

Such is the all pervading scintillation of empty bells

December 30, 1996, 12:55 A.M.

Virtual Impunity Blues

With Virtual impunity Clinton got campaign funds from pink Chinese

With Virtual impunity CIA Contra stringers sold Cocaine disease L.A. & Minneapolis

With Virtual impunity FBI burned down apocalyptic Waco

With Virtual impunity gov’t began charging huge fees for public college studies

With Virtual impunity Congress FCC ok’d Fundamentalist Broadcast censorship

With Virtual impunity Family Values insulted ladies, gays, Afric Americans

With Virtual impunity the Pope banned planet birth control

With Virtual impunity N. Carolina banned sodomy in the wrong hole

With Virtual impunity the Chinese banned fresh speech electrics

With Virtual impunity Albanian Lottery bosses bought & sold elections

January 1997

Waribashi

Walk into your local Japanese restaurant Teriyaki Boy—

order sliced raw fish mackerel, smoked eel, roe on vinagered rice balls

slide thin wooden utensils out a white paper sleeve with blue Crane print

split the wood, rub ends together smooth down splinters, sit & wait & sigh—

200,000 cubic meters Southeast Asian timber exports

sawed & processed in Japan, resold, 20 billion waribashi

used once, thrown away—roots of rainforest destruction—help pay interest

Thailand’s & Malaysia’s yearly debt service to World Bank, IMF—

Your plate arrives with sharp green mustard & pink pickled ginger slices

new sprig of parsley, lift the chopsticks to your mouth enjoy sashimi

January 7, 1997, 6:30 A.M.

Good Luck

I’m lucky to have all five fingers on the right hand

Lucky peepee with little pain

Lucky bowels move

Lucky, sleep nights on a captain’s bed, nap mid-afternoons

Lucky to amble down First Avenue

Lucky make a couple hundred thousand a year

singing Eli Eli, writing passing mind, etching primordial doodles, teaching Buddhist college, snapping Leica bus-stop photos thru my window eyeballs

Hear ambulance sirens, smell garlic & rust, taste persimmons & flounder, walk the loft floor barefoot soles a little desensitized

Lucky I can think, and sky can snow

January 8, 1997

Some Little Boys Dont

Some little boys like it

Some little boys dont

Some little girls swipe it

Some little girls won’t

Some nephews suck it

Some lollypops grunt

Some nieces truck it

If grandpa’s a runt

Some puberties request it

Four times a month

Some girl teens breast it

Some eat it for brunch

Some little people gargle

Some adolescents warble

Some teenyboppers babble

Some kiddies play Scrabble

January 10, 1997, 4 A.M.

Jacking Off

Who showed up?

          Joe S. pale bodied wiry leanness,

          suck your cock—I kissed his belly,

          thin muscular breast—

Suck my cock you bitch, little bitch

          suck my cock,

Huck, I got him on his knees

          licked his ass his hairy behind

          doggie style, jacked him off he

          grabbed his own dick finished—come.

Tom G. big cocked passed thru my

          dream bed, didn’t stay

Ah John got you, bought the

          leather handcuffs & strap

          binding hand & feet helpless,

          Leather collar roped to the

          bedstead’s head—buy it

          once for all S&M shops

          Christopher Street

          Uptown leather

Spank good & hard, slap his ass

          let him writhe, better

          than cutting him up,

          designs with razor—

So came on that unfamiliar fear

          savage control over

          Adonis body, willing

          eager—bound to be true.

January 28, 1997