think about my Death

—certainly it’s nearer

          than when I was ten

               years old

and wondered how big the

          universe was—

If I dont get some rest I’ll die faster

If I sleep I’ll lose my

          chance for salvation—

asleep or awake, Allen

     Ginsberg’s in bed

          in the middle of the night.

V

     4 A.M.

Then they came for me,

     I hid in the toilet stall

They broke down the toilet door

     It fell in on an innocent boy

Ach the wooden door fell

     in on an innocent kid!

I stood on the bowl & listened,

     I hid my shadow,

they shackled the other and

     dragged him away

in my place— How long can

     I get away with this?

Pretty soon they’ll discover

     I’m not there

They’ll come for me again, where

     can I hide my body?

Am I myself or some one else

     or nobody at all?

Then what’s this heavy flesh this

     weak heart leaky kidney?

Who’s been doing time

     for 65 years

in this corpse? Who else went

     into ecstasy besides me?

Now it’s all over soon,

          what good was all that come?

Will it come true? Will

          it really come true?

VI

I had my chance and lost it,

many chances & didn’t

     take them seriously enuf.

Oh yes I was impressed, almost

     went mad with fear

I’d lose the immortal chance,

     One lost it.

Allen Ginsberg warns you

     dont follow my path

     to extinction.

March 31, 1992

Get It?

Get beat up on TV squirming on the ground for driving irregular

Get bombed in Philadelphia by helicopters with your little babies

Get kicked in the street by Newark police and charged w/riot

Get assassinated by a jerk while FBI sleeps with itself

Get shot by a stringer for the CIA & blame it on Fair Play for Cuba Committee

Get bumped off by an errandboy for Cuban drug kingpins, friend of the Feds & Dallas cops

Get caught paying off Contras with coke money while Acting U.S. Drug War Czar

Get busted for overcharging Iranians on secret warplane sales

Get convicted of lying to Congress about off-the-shelf dirty wars in Central America

Get 12 billion dollars for a drug bureaucracy and double the number of addicts

Get a million people in prison in the land of the free

Get the electric chair & gas chamber for unpopular crimes

Organize Citizens for Decency Through Law rob your own phony bank several billion dollars get sent to jail

May 1992

New York

Angelic Black Holes

By Andrey Voznesensky

Soul to crotch the streets commit hara-kiri,

Burnt-out stores chessboard moonlit households,

The City of Angels stares into black holes—

See down through Earth to scorched Nagorno-Karabakh.

How long is the tunnel of pain?

Does God need Welfare?

Even so, remembering the sheen on Peredelkino’s black gooseberries,

Rodney King’s name sounds Russian, rodnik for ground-spring.

As for me who crapped up my own homeland

How lay the blame on anybody else?

Rain & ashes seal my lips.

The two superpowers left the Little Man supersufferings.

Us—blown to hell. You—immolate yourselves in flame?

Any light at the end of the tunnel of pain?

Translated by Allen Ginsberg and Nina Bouis

May 17, 1992

Los Angeles

Research

Research has shown that black people have inferiority complexes regarding white folks

Research has shown that Jews are exclusively concerned with financial lasciviousness

Research has shown Socialism to be a universal failure wherever practiced by secret police

Research has shown that Earth was created 4004 B.C., a Divine Bang

Research has shown that sparrows, bees, lizards, chickens, pigs & cows exhibit signs of homosexual behavior when in prison

Research has shown Southern Baptist Inerrancy Confession the most virulent form of Christian Truth

Research has shown that 90% of people going to Dentists have bad teeth

brush your teeth violently 3 times a day after meals wear away the roots

Research has shown that Hollywood makes the best films ever, the sexually degenerate

that the U.N. is Good ? Bad ? Indifferent ? for American interests Check One

Research has shown that Christian Reconstructionist homosexuality is Sin, Lesbianism crime against nature, AIDS a plague sent to punish gay Angelmakers

bisexuality disapproved by 51% Americans

Research has shown that teen headshakers watching TV get more IQ tests than natives of Amazon & Ucayali rivers who have no antennae

Research has shown whales & porpoises to subscribe to a Higher Intelligence

Research has shown that Elitist Individualism Spiritual Corruption & Degenerate Art caused Dictatorships in Soviet Union China and Germany

that possession of pornography by American Family Institute has resulted in 35% increase in sex crimes among institute librarians

viewing murderous behavior on TV sitcoms resulted in 100% increased violent language behavior by intercontinental Heads of State

To conclude research has shown that the material universe does not exist