Light filters through and dimly illuminates his face.  She turns her head and for a long time simply watches him asleep on his side, facing her.  The lines that hold his face so tightly during the day are relaxed and soft.  Like this, he is heartbreakingly beautiful.  She has an irrational desire to run her index finger along his stubby eyelashes.  She doesn’t.  Instead, she slips out of bed and slipping on a large T-shirt, heads towards the light.

She closes the door behind her, uses the toilet and waits for its quiet whirling to end before she opens the door.  Her trip to her side of the bed is interrupted by the sight of his wallet lying on his bedside.  She stops and looks at it.  Once, when she was very young, she opened her father’s wallet to look inside and was saddened by what she found inside.  Two five pound notes, the coin purse bulging with small change, a petrol receipt, and no photographs of either her mother or her.

She had taken it to her nose and sniffed it.  Many years after he left them, she would come across other men’s wallets and wonder what they kept inside theirs.  She finds herself moving towards Blake’s wallet.  As her fingers connect with the expensive hide, a steely hand clamps down on hers.  She gasps with shock and lands on the bed beside him, her startled eyes flying to his face.  His are alert and watching.

‘What are you doing?’

‘Nothing,’ she says lamely.  Her face is flaming.

‘Ask if you need money.’  His voice is cold and distant.

Suddenly, it occurs to her what it must look like to him.

She shakes her head in horror.  ‘I wasn’t trying to steal your money.  I just wanted to see what was in it.’

For a moment he looks at her curiously, the way a dog will tilt its head when it is trying to figure out what you are trying to communicate to it.  Then he takes the wallet and tosses it into her lap.  ‘So look.’

His eyes move to her mouth as her teeth worry at her lower lip.  ‘What? With you watching?’

His eyebrows rise.  ‘Would that spoil the…er…experience?’

She swallows, sits up and opens the wallet.  It is slimmer than her father’s, the leather wonderfully soft.  And it smells new.  There are no photographs behind the plastic of his wallet either, only the deep red card that it came with.  She runs her thumb along the stitching and down the credit card sleeves.  There are only five credit cards in it, none of them from high street banks.  One seems to be from Coutts, another is an American Express Black, and the other three she does not recognize.  There is a wad of fifty-pound notes that have the look and feel of freshly-minted money.  No small change at all in the purse section.  She closes it and returns it to the bedside.

‘Well?’

‘You wouldn’t understand.’

‘Do you know that you’re one strange girl?’

She looks down at her bare feet, wriggles her toes.  ‘Have you never wanted to look in a woman’s handbag?’

‘Never.’

‘Why not?’

He rubs his chin.  ‘Can’t say the contents of a woman’s handbag have ever held any interest for me.  I was always more interested in the contents of their clothes.’

With a sigh, she gets up to return to her side.

‘Like now,’ he says softly

She looks down on him, a half smile on her face, then pulls her T-shirt over her head and discards it on the floor.

His eyes begin to glitter, and instantly her body responds and yearns for him.  The tug of anticipation is strong, but she doesn’t go to him.  She stands very still as the juices accumulate between her thighs.

‘Come here,’ he says finally, his voice at once husky and slumberous, and it is a relief to have that man’s strong hands grasp her by her upper arms and press her into the mattress.

Twenty

Lana wakes up early.  She presses the remote button for the curtains and they sweep open, revealing a beautiful day.  The sun is already shining brightly.  She dresses quickly in a pair of old jeans and a T-shirt and heads for the coffee machine.  After several tries she walks to the phone and calls the desk downstairs.

Mr. Nair answers.  He immediately tells her he will be around to show her how to use it.  Mr. Nair even shows her how to froth the milk for her cappuccino.  He tells her he used to work in a coffee bar in his younger days.

‘Do you want one?’ Lana offers.

Mr. Nair’s eyes shine.  ‘Are you sure, Miss Bloom?  We only have instant downstairs and I’d love a real coffee.’

‘Of course I’m sure,’ Lana says and takes down another saucer and cup.

‘Ah,’ Mr. Nair says delicately.  ‘I am a Brahmin and I am not allowed to drink from other people’s cups.  I have my own mug.  I will bring it up.’

And he does.  He brings his own I Am The Boss mug.  Lana opens a tin of biscuits and offers it to him.  He takes two, she raises a that’s-it eyebrow, and he grins and helps himself to two more.

‘Any time you want a real coffee, call me, and if I am in, feel free to come up,’ Lana says.

‘Thank you.  Thank you, Miss Bloom, you are very kind indeed.’

Lana drinks her coffee, then goes to her mother’s house.  They have a busy day ahead.  They pick up her wig from Selfridges and spend some time shopping for things her mother will need.  Her mother chooses a burgundy trouser-suit that looks very good on her, two pretty pastel dresses, and some new underwear.  Afterwards, Lana watches while two women give her mother a pedicure and manicure.  They paint her mother’s nails coral.  Her mother smiles at her shyly.  There is also a trip to the doctor’s surgery.  At five the flat is clean and her mother is ready.  Her new wig looks wonderful.

Lana cries. So does her mother.

Billie shoos them both out of the flat.  Lana watches her mother and Billie get into a mini cab and head for Heathrow.  Then she goes back to her mother’s empty apartment, falls on her mother’s bed and cries her heart out.  It is nearly six when she washes her face and leaves for the apartment.

She is surprised to see that Blake is already in.  He comes out of the dining room when he hears her.

‘Is she gone?’

Lana nods.

‘That’s good.  I thought you might not feel like going out tonight so perhaps we can have a Chinese takeaway?’

‘No.’

‘Don’t you want any food?’

She shakes her head.

‘Would you like to lie down and rest for a bit?’

‘Yes.  That’s a good idea.’

‘OK, sleep for a bit.  It’ll do you good.’

She nods and he retreats into the dining room.  As she passes him in the corridor, she sees that he is working.  His briefcase is open.  There are papers spread out on the long dining table and he appears to be concentrating hard on them.

She lies down on the bed and falls asleep.  Her sleep is restless and full of dreams.  A noise wakes her in the middle of the night.  She realizes instantly that she is alone in bed.  She listens again.  It is coming from the kitchen.  The little bedside clock says it is two a.m.  Her mother and Billie will still be in the air.  She gets out of bed, and pads towards the sounds.

She stands at the doorway dazzled by the light, pushing hair away from her eyes.  Blake is toasting two slices of bread and does not see her.  Her mind takes a picture of him, shirtless and wearing only his low-slung jeans.  To be kept for later, when he is no longer around.  When he spots her, he leans a hip against the work counter, and looks back at her, his arms crossed, his eyes unreadable.

‘Did I wake you?’

‘No.  What are you making?’

‘I was working and I got hungry.  Want some toast?’

She shakes her head, but comes into the room and sits on a stool.  She puts her elbows on the island surface amongst the butter dish, knives, plates and open jars of foie gras and caviar.  There is also a half-drunk glass of orange juice.  She slides her body along the cold granite surface and pulls it over to her.  She sips it and watches him.