Hollys brows rose. Thats where you went!
Sybil grimaced. Not that I think the guys wont be able to control themselves-there certainly isnt anything sexy about the t-shirt and panties!-but Id be a lot more comfortable with clothes.
Holly nodded. Why did they take it off, do you think? Did they ?
Sybils stomach rolled, more because she knew immediately that the others were speculating about the same thing than because she felt that she had. It was droids that examined me. I doubt anything happened.
But you were unconscious.
Whats that supposed to mean? Sybil demanded angrily.
She could tell from the guilty look that Holly tried to hide exactly what was running through her mind. Nothing. Im just saying you dont know and maybe thats a good thing.
Sybils lips tightened. Suggesting they couldnt contain themselves? I doubt very seriously that they find us the least bit attractive, she said dryly, if not with complete truth. Shed felt Ankas arousal. She didnt think she was mistaken about that. Anyway, she added, looking away, from what he said, there are women of their species here. I cant believe they would consider fucking an unconscious woman-especially a different species and one, moreover, that they must consider of inferior intelligence given their advancement.
Shock registered on Hollys face and Sybil felt a touch of satisfaction that shed elicited it. Theres no need for that kind of language. I find it offensive.
Too bad, Sybil said tightly. Im an adult and free to say whatever the hell I like. And Im offended by your insinuations. You think youre the only one entitled to be offensive?
Anger flickered across the other womans face. I didnt mean to be offensive. I was just concerned.
Liar, Sybil thought. Titillated, more likely. Well I appreciate that, she said caustically.
Hollys lips tightened. We wont get anywhere being hostile to each other. We need to stick together.
Except theyd already closed ranks, leaving her on the outside. Theyd decided she was tainted. Theyd seen her flight suit was missing and instantly drawn their own nasty conclusions, and it hadnt helped that shed willingly followed Anka off.
Fuck her! And fuck them! I wont argue that, but Im damned if I can see that its going to be much help. There are only five of us and no telling how many of them. Aside from the fact that not one of us has a damned weapon, exactly what do you think banding together is going to do? You think we can overpower them? Escape? Where the hell to? Dont tell me they conveniently brought the lander with them so wed have a way to escape.
She could tell from the look on Hollys face that they hadnt.
They have ships, Holly said pointedly.
Sybil uttered a laugh that lacked humor. And you think theres a chance we could get to one, steal it, and actually pilot it home?
It isnt beyond the realm of possibility, she said stiffly.
But it isnt likely either.
What do you suggest, then? Holly demanded.
Sybil frowned. Negotiation. If they wanted to kill us, they could have. Theres some reason theyre keeping us alive.
To study us?
Sybils belly clenched but she rejected the idea. Im not saying that isnt a possibility, but why bother? What do you think they havent already learned? They can speak our language. They understand it and that means a lot more than simply being able to translate from their language to ours. Theyd have to understand us-our customs, our civilization-all of it for the language to make sense to them. Think about it! If they didnt know what a home was, they wouldnt use that word and Anka did.
He told you his name?
Sybil looked at her in surprise. You didnt hear that?
Holly shook her head. I was staying as far from him as I could and neither of you were speaking very loud. We were wondering what the conversation was about.
Sybil frowned, thinking back, but she hadnt realized that none of the others had been close by when shed spoken to him. Shed been too focused on him, she realized. She shrugged after a moment. Hes Commander Anka lKartay. Thats what he said anyway. I dont know why hed lie.
Or tell us anything.
Sybil had wondered at that herself, but she didnt acknowledge what Holly was suggesting. She didnt see any point in arguing when neither one of them really knew if he was being truthful or not.
What else did he tell you?
Sybil frowned, trying to recall. The truth was shed been so on edge she couldnt remember anything very clearly. He just said it was cool because theyd moved the facility to the dark side to cool it from the heat. He said sometimes they would pull into the sunlight because they missed home and it was depressing to always be in the dark.
Holly didnt say anything for several moments. It seems like he said quite a lot.
She was fishing and it irritated Sybil. Yes, we took a stroll around the facilities and he explained everything-even told me how many soldiers were stationed here and where they were stationed, she said sarcastically. He was just being polite.
If you say so.
Anger flickered through Sybil. Why dont you just go ahead and let me in on the workings of your mind? I like to know what Im being accused of. It makes it a little fucking easier to defend myself.
You dont have to be so defensive. It was just a comment.
With undertones. Sybil wondered if Dr. Rains just thought she was too stupid to catch the subtle insults and insinuations. He was courteous enough to take me to look for my clothes, she responded tightly. I dont see that responding with hostility will get us anywhere.
Im not sure being friendly is a good idea.
There it was! The accusation shed been expecting. Why dont you handle things the way you think you should and let me worry about my behavior? You arent my mother or my superior.
Her lips tightened. Im just saying it could put you in more danger-all of us.
Sybil stared at her in disbelief. Youre telling me you think being friendly is more dangerous than being hostile?
I dont think being hostile is a good idea either. Being cautious is.
Sybil sighed, leaning her head back against the wall. She supposed a lot of her anger was aimed at herself. Being cautious was the best idea-not being friendly to the point of offering an opening for sexual congress! Maybe it had been an unconscious prompting of her survival instincts?
And maybe not. She just damned well didnt know. All she did know was that her reaction to him disturbed her more than his reaction to her if possible.
She dismissed it, tried to eject the memory from her mind even though she knew she wasnt going to be able to. So it was stupid! It wasnt as if she didnt know that herself. In any case, Holly Rains was just worried about her own ass! The comment about endangering all of them was telling and at least part of it, she thought, might be hostility because she thought Sybil might be trying to use sex to save herself and it might not work for her.
Not that she thought for a moment that it would for her!
So maybe, deep down in her subconscious mind, shed resorted to the age old weapon women had always tried to use to protect themselves, but it certainly hadnt been conscious!
What worried her was that it might not have been that subconscious prompting. She hadnt really been aware of any attraction to him. She hadnt acknowledged it anyway, but there was no getting around the fact that she was acutely aware of him. Shed put it down to fear, understandable fear, and yet even though shed been scared she couldnt recall even a moment of being repulsed. Shouldnt she have been?