She couldn’t do it. She couldn’t look into those blue eyes and give in to the feelings he always stirred in her. They were friends now…just friends. And if he felt otherwise, then maybe she should stay away from him.
But her head knowing that didn’t seem to connect with the rest of her body begging and pleading with her to stay—just stay, just one moment, give in. Give in to that smirk, those eyes, the pheromone-spiking smell of sex, to the heat and desire and passion that consumed them inside and out. All she would have had to do was close her eyes. It would have been that simple.
Jack knew what she wanted. He had always known. And it would be no different now.
No different.
No…it certainly wouldn’t be different than any other time they had gambled their relationships away. No different than all the other times they had drawn a line in the sand only to cross it over and over and over again. No different than any of it.
“Then, I should go,” she had whispered into the stillness.
His hand had come down hard on the doorframe to steady himself, and she had thought for a split second that he would cross that line they had drawn more than two years earlier.
“Yeah…yeah, you should.”
“Your hand is still…” Lexi had gestured to the door where his hand had been covering hers.
He had withdrawn his hand with a sigh, and Lexi had turned the knob.
“Hey,” he had whispered.
Taking a deep breath, she had turned back to face him one more time. He had reached out and tucked another lock of hair behind her ear.
“I’ll miss you.”
And then, his lips had landed softly on her cheek, way softer than she had thought they would, considering how much alcohol was in his system. She had swallowed, yanked the door open, and bolted from the apartment.
Her hands shook as she fished out her car keys. She dropped them once and cursed loudly before picking them up and pushing a key into the door. Once it was open, she fell into the front seat and slammed her hands down repeatedly on the steering wheel.
“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck,” she cried, the tears threatening to let loose. “No. Please, no.”
She leaned forward, pressed her forehead into the steering wheel she had been abusing, and let the tears fall. She didn’t even know how to articulate what was ripping through her chest, but it hurt like a motherfucker.
She just wanted to claw her way through her chest and make all the pain go away. How could he say those things to her? How could he say those things when he knew it didn’t matter, when he knew that she was marrying someone else? How could he put her in that position?
The tears ran hot down her cheeks as the roller coaster of emotions unleashed all around her. And she couldn’t stop them from falling because she didn’t even know the true source of her pain. Was she angry that he had said those things to her at all…or that he had said them too late?
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“So, let me get this straight,” Chyna said, pacing her flat.
Lexi sat with her feet scrunched up underneath. She had just told Chyna the whole story from start to finish, and she was waiting to hear the backlash.
“Jack told you that he loved you and that you should leave, and you actually walked out of his apartment?”
Lexi nodded solemnly.
“Chica, I’m shocked. Have you actually grown up? Do you have a temperature?” Chyna asked, walking up to her and pressing the back of her hand to Lexi’s forehead.
Lexi brushed her off. “No, I’m not sick, you crazy person.”
Chyna laughed and backed away when Lexi swatted at her again.
“I don’t know what you want me to say. You did the right thing. Jack was drunk and acting like…Jack. I know he hasn’t been that way for a while with you, but that doesn’t mean that the man isn’t still inside of him. I guess the divorce is just getting to him.”
“That’s the understatement of the century.”
“What are you going to do now?” Chyna asked, walking back to Lexi and sitting down.
“What do you mean?”
“I mean…now that Jack is getting a divorce…he’ll be free again,” Chyna said softly.
“So?” Lexi said, looking at Chyna suspiciously.
“Stop looking at me like that. I know you love him.”
“I don’t…”
Chyna leveled her with a stare that stopped Lexi right in her tracks.
“Don’t even try that with me. I know how you are with Jack. You two might have been friends since he got married, but that doesn’t mean you love that man any less. Whether or not it’s stupid is not the question. It’s completely idiotic, but that doesn’t change the fact, not one bit.”
Lexi bit her bottom lip. “I’m not going to do anything. I’m getting married at the end of October,” she whispered, pushing the ring out in front of her as if Chyna didn’t know or hadn’t seen it.
“I know. I’m your maid of honor, remember?”
“I know you are. Speaking of being maid of honor, am I supposed to be doing anything in these last couple of weeks besides planning the bachelorette party that you’ve already planned?” Lexi asked, batting her eyelashes up at Chyna innocently.
“No. Speaking of bachelorette party, what do you want to do for yours?”
“I don’t know,” Lexi said with a shrug. “Isn’t that your job?”
“Have you even found a dress yet?” Chyna asked, ignoring her question.
“For the bachelorette party?”
Chyna rolled her eyes. “Don’t think you can fool me. You still don’t have a wedding dress, do you?”
“Um…”
“Alexa, you need to get one. We’re only six months out!”
“Six months is a long time!”
“I had my designer on that aspect of the wedding, like, two days after Adam proposed. I wanted her to have enough time to do the dress justice. That was before I even knew I was going to be part of fashion week that year and had to add a six-month extension on to the wedding. She breathed a sigh of relief when I told her she had six more months for it. Eighteen months, chica. Not six!”
“Well, I’m not having a big-time fashion designer put together my dress. I’ll buy that shit off a rack and have them tailor it. Can’t take that long,” Lexi said with a shrug.
“Sometimes, I wonder how we’re friends.”
Lexi chuckled at the differences between them. They certainly had drastically different backgrounds, but it had never mattered to Lexi. They worked just the way they were. Lexi was sure Chyna wouldn’t want a friend who mooched off her, and just as likely, she wouldn’t want someone with as much money as her. Most of the other people in the latter category were even more self-absorbed than her best friend, not that she would have Chyna any other way.
“Do we need to go out and look for a dress for you?” Chyna asked, standing quickly at the prospect of shopping.
“Um…no. It’s not a big deal. I’ll find something.”
Chyna dramatically rolled her eyes. “Can we at least go look for a bridesmaid dress for me or something?”
“Aren’t I supposed to be here to help you with your wedding?”
“Yes, but my wedding is planned. You just need to show up.”
“Then, what am I doing here?” Lexi asked, exasperated. She had gotten out of work for this.
“Because you needed to get away from Atlanta.”
Lexi opened her mouth to protest.
“Away from that divorce, by the looks of it. Maybe away from Ramsey for a bit, too.”
Lexi sighed heavily and rested her head back against the couch. “Isn’t this supposed to be the happiest time of my life?”
“I think a lot of people find wedding planning to be insanely stressful. And while the day of is supposed to be spectacular since it’s one big party…it’s usually pretty nerve-racking and stressful, too. I don’t think it’s strange that you’re freaked-out by this,” Chyna said thoughtfully. “I mean, especially because you freak out about everything.”