For Kevin, Jillian, and Robert, whom I love and admire for their strength and resilience
CONTENTS
TITLE PAGE
DEDICATION
CHAPTER 1
CHAPTER 2
CHAPTER 3
CHAPTER 4
CHAPTER 5
CHAPTER 6
CHAPTER 7
CHAPTER 8
CHAPTER 9
CHAPTER 10
CHAPTER 11
CHAPTER 12
CHAPTER 13
CHAPTER 14
CHAPTER 15
CHAPTER 16
CHAPTER 17
CHAPTER 18
CHAPTER 19
CHAPTER 20
CHAPTER 21
CHAPTER 22
CHAPTER 23
CHAPTER 24
CHAPTER 25
CHAPTER 26
CHAPTER 27
CHAPTER 28
CHAPTER 29
CHAPTER 30
CHAPTER 31
CHAPTER 32
CHAPTER 33
CHAPTER 34
CHAPTER 35
CHAPTER 36
CHAPTER 37
CHAPTER 38
CHAPTER 39
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
ALSO BY KATIE ALENDER
COPYRIGHT
Nothing glittered.
I’d never been to Hollywood before, but like any other person with eyeballs and a television, I’d seen it a thousand times. I expected wide, palm-tree-lined roads and mansions that overflowed with fabulous movie stars.
What I got was a normal city. Except the sky was pale brown, and the freeways went on forever in every direction. The houses crept up the sides of distant mountains like a fungus. Nobody looked particularly fabulous, especially not the roving bands of tourists taking pictures of every street sign, sidewalk, and tree.
I felt a little cheated, to be honest.
“There’s Hollywood Boulevard,” my new stepfather, Jonathan, said. “That’s where you’ll find the Walk of Fame and the Chinese Theatre. We should go there tomorrow.”
Party foul. “Tomorrow’s Monday,” I said. “I start school.”
“Oh, right.” He was quiet for a second. “Well, they’re nothing special. Just a bunch of old footprints and handprints. Movie stars had tiny feet.”
“Even the men, right?” my mother piped up. “I think I read that somewhere.”
I didn’t reply. Not speaking when I had nothing to say had become a bit of a habit for me.
“Look, Willa! The Hollywood Sign — right through those buildings!” Mom’s nose was practically pressed up against the glass, and her voice had the chirpy cheerfulness of a preschool teacher.
I squinted to see the line of writing on a far-off hillside. “Oh … yeah,” I said. “Cool.”
“Are you all right?” She studied me, concealing her anxiety beneath a thin veneer of calm. “Do you have a headache?”
“Why would she have a headache?” Jonathan asked.
My mother clamped her mouth shut.
“I’m good, Mom,” I said.
As exciting as it was to ride from the airport to our new house in a stretch limo, the limitations of this mode of transportation were tragically apparent. I sat on the front bench, facing backward, with Mom and Jonathan on the forward-facing bench looking directly at me. It was like being in a fishbowl. Give me the backseat of our old Camry anytime — at least there was relative privacy.
But there was no more old Camry. No more old anything. My new stepfather was rich, which meant Mom and I were rich, too … unless I messed everything up.
No. I’d already destroyed our lives once. It wasn’t going to happen again.
If we had to leave, what would we go back to? Joffrey, Connecticut — a town where we no longer belonged. No house, no job, no car. No friends.
This new life in California was the end of the line for us. It was going to work out.
Because, well … it had to.
We followed a series of labyrinthine streets to 2121 Sunbird Lane. There was a little hiccup in my heart as our new home came into view.
Jonathan always referred to it as simply “the house,” but apparently he had a pretty warped idea of what a house was, because this was obviously a full-on mansion.
It was separated from the road by a tall privacy hedge and a metal-spiked fence. The front yard was huge and perfect, with freshly mowed grass and a fountain in the center.
I stood in the driveway looking around while Jonathan and the chauffeur got our bags out of the car. The house (there, see? I was doing it, too) was an elegant old Spanish-style with crisp white stucco walls and a red-clay-tile roof. Its beauty was simple, unadorned … and expensive-looking.
“Willa?” Mom called. “You coming?”
With a start, I realized that they were waiting for me on the front porch.
Jonathan unlocked the dead bolt. “The door’s original,” he said, sounding proud — as if a plank of wood lasting almost a hundred years was somehow a credit to human ingenuity and not, you know, trees.
Inside, the house was cool and open. Pale sunlight streamed in, reflecting off the cream-colored walls and gleaming hardwood floors. Overhead, a heavy iron chandelier was chained to the wall from three sides, like a wild animal. A set of stairs curved gracefully toward the second story.
My mother spun in a circle, taking in all the details. “It’s gorgeous, Jonathan. When was it built?”
“Nineteen thirty-three,” he said. “For an actress named Diana Del Mar.”
“Really?” Mom said. “We love her movies! Willa, remember those old musicals we used to watch at Grandma’s house?”
A vague memory bubbled to the back of my mind — kaleidoscopic arrays of dancing girls with fluffy skirts and huge headdresses, armies of bright-eyed young women cheerfully marching around in tap shoes.
“Sure,” I said.
“She was big in the thirties, and then she had a string of flops. She got a reputation as box office poison and retired.” Jonathan sounded a little apologetic, like he wished he could give us a better movie star.
“Amazing.” Mom ran her hand over the banister. “Just think of all these walls have seen and heard.”
“People have probably died here,” I said.
Mom winced a little, then tried to laugh. “Oh, Willa.”
But Jonathan nodded. “I’m pretty sure Diana Del Mar did die here. I don’t know the exact story of when or how, though.”
“We could look it up online,” Mom said. Her frantic agreeableness made my brain itch.
“Or we could ask her ghost,” Jonathan said, winking at me like we had an inside joke.
I turned away, a chill passing up my spine.
Does he know?
He can’t possibly.
My mother wandered a little farther into the foyer, and I wondered if she felt as out of place as I did — or even more so. After all, I still got to be a relatively normal teenager. For her, this house represented a whole new identity, as the glamorous wife of a famous Hollywood film director.
It was hard to reconcile that with the picture I’d always had in my head of her as a decidedly non-glamorous suburban mom. Still, she was slim and pretty — my height, five foot six, with the same dark chocolate-brown hair as me. Our eyes were the same muted blue that edged into gray. I had her high cheekbones, but softer features in general — people had always said I looked more like my dad.
I could almost picture Mom at a movie premiere, walking the red carpet. Jonathan told us he wasn’t famous enough for the paparazzi to care about, but his agent had already called him about magazines wanting the inside scoop. Rich, successful director sweeps small-town widow off her feet. Whirlwind romance leads to Valentine’s Day wedding at City Hall. Apparently there was a Cinderella element to the story that people found irresistible.