Ari jumped off the jeep and was now pacing and holding her phone up in the air again. I was going to fucking choke her if she didn’t shut the fuck up soon!

“COME ON! Fucking phone….why the fuck do I pay for all that extra shit if I can’t even get a goddamn decent signal?! Maybe we should start walking? Maybe we should just start yelling…yeah…then someone would hear us! Shit sound travels in the country pretty far right……”

OH. MY. GOD! I can’t take it any longer! I need her to shut her up!

“Maybe if we just….”

I jumped up and grabbed her and pushed her up against the jeep…I looked down into those beautiful green eyes of hers and my heart fucking melted.

“Maybe Arianna you need to just shut the fuck up.”

I don’t know why I did it but I kissed her. My god her lips felt like heaven….just like the last kiss she gave me at Brad’s party…the same kiss I had been fucking dreaming about every day since it happened.

I was afraid she would push me away but she opened her mouth more with a small moan and let my tongue start exploring. She deepened the kiss by grabbing my hair and pulling me in closer. Holy fuck….my head was spinning. Before I could stop myself I was pressing her up against the jeep harder. I wanted to crawl into her goddamn body and just stay there forever.

I started to put my hands under her shirt. Her skin was so goddamn soft I couldn’t take it. She moved her hands under my t-shirt and started moving up and down along my back sending jolts through my entire body. I had never in my life experienced such a powerful kiss.

Just when I didn’t think it could get any better she reached in between us and started to move her hand along my erection. I moaned into her mouth and she pressed against me harder. I took my hand and started to unbutton her shorts and was about to slip my hand in her pants.

What the fuck was I doing? I needed to stop….right now before this went any further. I started to pull my hand away but she grabbed it.

She was practically panting when she barely pulled away from my lips….”NO! Please don’t stop Jeff….please….I need this so fucking bad!”

My fucking brain stopped functioning and I put my hands down her shorts and into her panties. I ran one finger through her lips and slowly slid it inside her……FUCK ME.

“Holy fuck you’re so wet Ari.” She moaned as she pushed her hips into my hand and started moving. I slid another and then another finger into her and started moving faster as I kissed her again.

Ari pulled away from my kiss and threw her head back. I couldn’t take my eyes off of her. She grabbed my tee shirt and started moving her hips faster.

“OH MY GOD Jeff! OHHH God…..YES! Oh Jeff yes!”

I reached up under her shirt again with my other hand and pushed her bra up. I pulled her shirt up and started to suck on her nipples. She smelled so fucking good….like vanilla….I teased her one nipple with my tongue and then pinched it with my teeth and that is when she started screaming out my name.

I thought I was going to die right there as I heard my name being called out from her beautiful lips. I pulled away from her breast and watched her as she came apart in my arms. I felt her clinching tighter onto my fingers and it was the hottest fucking thing I had ever experienced. It seemed like her orgasm went on forever before she finally brought her head back straight and looked at me. I swear it was like she was taking a part of my soul right then and there. She slowly started to smile at me….. holy shit her smile….if she only knew how that smile could make me do anything she asked of me.

I couldn’t breathe….my heart was beating faster than ever and pounding in my ears. Ari’s breathing was getting back to normal as she just stared into my eyes. I could not stop looking at her. My eyes dropped to her lips as she licked them. Fuck my knees almost gave out on me. I pulled my hand out from her shorts.

What the fuck did I just do?

“Jeff…..I want you more than anything….I want to feel you inside me….please I need you…...”

WHAT? NO! NO! This was all wrong.

“No….no this was a mistake Ari…..this shouldn’t have ever happened.”

CHAPTER FORTY FIVE

A ri……

Oh…holy hells bells….I had never experienced anything like that before in my entire life! I wanted more! I needed more. I needed Jeff so bad it physically hurt. I said it before I even knew the words were out of my mouth. I just came out and told Jeff I wanted to have sex with him…oh god why did I say that?

His face went white and he stiffened up.

“No…no this was a mistake Ari….this shouldn’t have ever happened.”

Wait…WHAT? I had to shake my head to clear my thoughts. Did he just say what happened between us was a mistake? That it should never have happened?

“Wh….what?” I could barely get the word out of my mouth? How could he say that? That was the most awesome moment of my life…..how could he say that? I saw the way he was looking at me. He felt it too. I know he did!

“I’m so sorry baby…I should never have let that happen. I promise you I won’t ever do that to you again.”

Oh my god I’m so fucking confused right now I just want to scream. I threw my hands in my hair and shook my head to clear my thoughts.

“What the hell are you saying Jeff? How can you say that was a mistake? How….how can you do that to me…make me feel that way and then tell me it was a mistake. NO! That was not a mistake! I do not for one minute regret any of it.”

Jeff pushed away from me and ran his hands through his hair. He looked me up and down and zeroed in on my shorts that were still unbuttoned.

“Jeff, I want you. I’ve wanted you for so long now please don’t say that this was wrong…” I started to move towards him but he put his hands up to stop me.

“NO! I fucked up….I didn’t mean to do that Ari. You….you have a fucking boyfriend!” Jeff said as he looked at me shocked.

I shook my head back and forth….no….he was not going to use Jason as a way to get out of this.

“I don’t want Jason….I want you Jefferson! I love YOU!”

He just stood there and looked at me stunned.  At first he seemed relieved when I said I didn’t want Jason….then it turned to confusion and now…I don’t know how to read his face. The emotions running across his face were starting to freak me out. He looked….….angry?

He laughed….Why the hell would he laugh?

“You love me? No you don’t Ari, you just got caught up in a moment that I should have never have let happen. It was all a mistake Ari….If I could take it back I would. It didn’t mean anything.”

I felt the water building in my eyes. NO! I would not cry….he didn’t mean what he was saying……..how could he be saying this to me right now.

“I thought…..but I thought you wanted me Jeff? The way you were looking at me……”

He ran his hand through his hair again and turned away from me. I couldn’t move…..I just stood there watching him. He took a deep breath and turned around to face me again. There was no emotion on his face what so ever.

“I’m sorry Ari if I led you on. I….I just got caught up in the moment and I wasn’t thinking clearly. It didn’t mean anything and I think we need to just forget this ever happened.”

I can’t breathe….oh my god I can’t breathe….my whole world just turned the fuck upside down. The only man I have ever loved….ever wanted….just basically told me to fuck off. I felt a tear slide down my face. I couldn’t even move my hand to wipe it away.

Jeff’s face instantly looked like he was in pain….…he stepped forward and reached out to wipe the tear away.

I stepped back.

“Don’t. You. Ever. Touch. Me. Again! You dirty rotten bastard. I can’t believe you.” I lost it and lunged at him and started to pound my fists in his chest.