His erection was screaming for him to STFU, but his conscience was even stronger than that roaring drive.
“I am.”
Those peridot eyes of hers were steady, strong, certain.
Time to stop talking.
iAm went for her, lunging forward, grabbing onto the nape of her neck, bending her backward, holding her in his arms and putting his mouth to her flesh. He had never taken from a female this way, and he didn’t immediately strike. He was overcome by the scent of her, by the soft skin under his lips as he extended his tongue and licked up her vein.
He intended to nuzzle at her further, but as her hands took hold of his shoulders and she arched into him, he couldn’t wait any longer. He hissed and penetrated her skin.
At the bite, she cried out, but instead of pushing him away, she pulled him even closer.
Her blood was a blast in his mouth, tasting of dark wine and promising an intoxication that started to take hold the instant he swallowed. Sucking at her, he swept his hand down her body, finding the curve of her waist and the flare of her hip. More, he took more as his pelvis pushed forward, seeking that vital juncture of hers that was still under folds of fabric.
Dizzy and hyper-focused at the same time, he laid her out flat and straddled her body, as a wild animal might protect its prey. But he wanted to give to her as well. Moving one of his arms up, he put his wrist over her mouth, rubbing at her lips.
Taking the cue, she struck as well, taking his vein as he took hers, completing a circle that exploded the heat between them.
Before he knew what he was doing, he went to work on her robes, pulling up, higher and higher, the hem, the folds, the weight. Her thighs were smooth and supple, and they opened for him, giving him access to what he wanted most.
No panties. Shadows didn’t wear them.
When he swept his hand over her sex, she moaned and pulled harder on what he was providing her—and he wanted her to drain him dry. But not the other way around. Forcing himself to release her vein, he licked the puncture wounds closed and then found himself drawing his lips downward, crossing over the graceful wing of her collarbone. Heading for her breasts, he gripped the top of her robing with his fangs and ripped it apart, the fabric giving way until—
“Oh, sweet Jesus,” he gasped.
Her breasts were high and tight and tipped with little nipples that he didn’t spend a lot of time looking at. No, he went for them with his mouth, worshiping them while she continued to take from his wrist.
And still, he wanted more of her.
Just as he was getting greedy to head lower—even though he had no idea what he was doing—she released his vein and freed him up. Without giving her a chance to seal where she had struck, he reared up over her and took both sides of what he had begun to tear in his hands.
Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiip.
With that, the under robing was in two halves, and she was naked before him.
Writhing dark skin was bathed in firelight, and her body was marked with smudges of his red blood—and didn’t that make him want to put other things of his on her.
So that all would know she was his.
Dimly, in the back of his addled brain, he was astounded that the stories he had heard and assumed were fiction—those tales of males being around a given female and bonding instantly—were in fact totally and absolutely true.
He had seen her face but moments ago, and now he had gone down the wormhole, lost and found by turns, overwhelmed and starved for more at the same time.
“Mine,” he growled.
Bared to her lover’s eyes, maichen had expected to feel self-conscious or embarrassed. Only her female bathers had ever seen what iAm was looking at.
Instead?
She kicked the robing free from her hands and brought her palms up to cup her breasts. “Yours,” she heard herself say. Then she moved down and touched her exposed sex. “Yours.”
His upper lip curled back and he let out a growl that was both reverent and a little evil.
Then he took off his coat, his shirt. His shoes and pants.
Firelight moved over his skin, casting shadows under the cuts of muscle that ribbed his arms, his chest, his abdomen.
His arousal was enormous.
It was all so out-of-control, this extraordinary series of events—and the culmination was yet to come. What next, she wondered? She had been nominally instructed in sex in preparation for her mating, the healer giving her an anatomical overview of how things were going to go—and there had been what she had seen of s’Ex and those humans. But neither of those awkward exchanges had done anything to explain how electric it was going to be. How much she was going to want the joining. How desperate she would feel.
Planting his hands on either side of her, iAm suspended himself above her body and slowly brought his lips to hers. The contact was featherlight and fleeting, leaving her wanting more—but then he gradually laid himself on top of her, his weight impossibly erotic, his hard contours cutting into her.
His hard sex brushing at her core.
She began to arch under him, sawing her legs, searching for something although she did not know what.
“I gotchu,” he said. “I’ll take care of it.”
But he didn’t. He just kissed her and made it all worse, leisurely licking at her mouth, rocking against her breasts, her inner thighs—all without joining them.
“Why do you wait,” she moaned.
“I need to make sure you’re ready—or it’s going to hurt.”
Her eyes flipped open. “There will be no pain. Will there?”
“How much do you . . . ah, know about . . . ?”
Her mouth started moving, and she supposed she was speaking—and he was nodding, saying something in return. But she had no idea what was being said on either side.
Except then his hand was moving down, going between them, brushing at her sex, delving in. The pleasure he brought out of her was like the firelight, hot and all over her body, taking her to some different consciousness.
Then there was pressure at her core, but nothing painful. Just a pushing, a gentle pushing that made her give way internally.
When his hand reappeared by her side, she realized it was his arousal going into her, not his fingers.
Shifting her hips to accommodate him further, she was aware of a pinching shock, a barrier breaking away—and then the joining was so deep, she felt as though he had entered her all over her body. Good, so good—she reveled in how close he was, their skin-to-skin contact warming her inside and out, a lifetime of hands-off treatment wiped away.
And then he began to move. Slow at first, with growing momentum, she was transported along with him to a rising, shimmering pleasure.
Sweeping her hands down his surging back, she loved the power of him, and the knowledge that this particular male was the one who had been the first within her body.
And then a dam broke and everything became so much more vivid, a cresting rush pushing her up against that body of his.
Her mouth opened and she cried out, but not in pain.
He shouted as well, and there was a pulsing inside her core.
But that was not the end. He didn’t stop. He just kept going, pumping against her, in her, over her.
The healer had not told her it would be this good.
Not at all.
FIFTY-FIVE
He came into her life wearing a Syracuse ball cap and blue jeans that had holes in them.
Paradise was at her desk, making entries in the system, fielding inquires on e-mail, settling visitors in the chairs, when yet another cold breeze shot through the parlor. By now, she was used to the shafts of frigid air—there was one every time the front door opened and shut as a new arrival came in.
So she didn’t actually look up until she sensed a large presence at her desk.