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I decided to act on the idea which had come to me. It might misfire, but there was no reason why I should not give it a trial.

When I returned to the house, I went to the garden which sloped down to the sea and the private beach—that beach where Dermot’s first wife had gone to bathe on that fateful morning. I stood for a moment, letting the faintly scented air gently caress me. It was beautiful here, but I kept thinking of Annette’s coming down the slope. She would walk slowly, being heavily pregnant. How could she have done that? She must have known what a risk she was taking. I was lost in thought until I reminded myself why I was here.

I saw one of the gardeners at work some little way off, and I went to him.

I knew his name was Jack, so I said: “Hello, Jack.”

He touched his cap and leaned on his spade.

“Nice day, Miss,” he said.

“The gardens are looking beautiful.”

He looked pleased.

“They’ll be a real treat in a week or so. Let’s hope us don’t get no more of them there winds.”

“They are the garden’s biggest enemy, I suppose.”

He scratched his head. “There be others, but you can’t get away from them there winds. And here…well!” He lifted his shoulders in a helpless gesture.

“You’ve got that plant,” I began. “Is it some sort of Christmas rose?”

“Oh…I do know what you mean. It be a Christmas rose…with a difference like. It’s not one that you come across every day of your life.”

“Could you show it to me? I’d like to see it.”

I followed him up the slope a little way.

“It be over ’ere, Miss. There. Beauty, ain’t she?”

“Jack, can you take cuttings of these things?”

“Well, Miss, course you can. Trouble is they don’t always take root. This ’un…well…’er likes it here. Perhaps her fancies a bit of breeze now and then, and there’s the salt in the air. You’ll get some as flourishes by the sea and there’s others can’t abide it.”

“I met someone who was asking about that rose. Is it possible to take a cutting that I could give her?”

“Well, Miss, I don’t see why not.”

“Would you do that for me?”

“Course I would, Miss. Don’t guarantee it’ll take.”

“She’s a good gardener and would try very hard.”

“Someone round here then?”

“Someone I got into conversation with. She mentioned the rose, you see…”

“Oh, aye. Right you are, Miss. When would you want it?”

“Tomorrow?”

“You come to me, Miss, and I’ll do it then.”

“Oh, thank you, Jack. She’ll be delighted.”

“I just hope it takes, that’s all.”

I smiled. I did not care greatly whether it “took” or not. I was obsessed at the moment about having a talk with the mother of Dermot’s first wife.

The following morning I took the cutting to Cliff Cottage. The transformation was amazing. She stared at it and a smile of pleasure crossed her face. I could not believe that she often looked like that. It changed her completely.

“You got it then?” she said.

“It was no problem. I just asked the gardener. I think he was pleased that someone had admired it.”

“I can’t tell you…” She took it from me almost reverently, and started to walk into the house. I followed her.

“He said it might not take.”

“I know that. It happens now and then.”

“If it doesn’t, you must let me know and I will get you another.”

We were in a hall, shining with polish, and then went into an equally immaculate kitchen. I knew I was being bold and perhaps brazen, but I had not made this effort for nothing, and she would have to be polite to me since I had brought her such a prize.

I do believe she was truly grateful.

She said: “It was good of you.”

She was doing something to the cutting. She stood it in a glass of water and turned to me.

“Perhaps you’d like a cup of coffee…or some tea?”

I said I should like a cup of coffee.

“I’ll put you in the sitting room while I make it.”

“Thank you.”

I was seated there. It was just what I had expected. I could smell the furniture polish. The wooden floor, with its rugs, looked slightly dangerous. I was careful not to slip.

Almost immediately I saw the photograph in a silver frame on a small table. The girl was plump and as unlike Mrs. Pardell as any girl could be. She was smiling and there was a hint of mischief in the smile. She had a retroussé nose and a wide smile. Her blouse was low-cut, revealing the beginnings of an ample bosom.

Annette, I thought. And what had Mrs. Pardell’s reaction been to her daughter’s working as a barmaid at the Sailor’s Rest? It was an incongruous occupation for the daughter of such a woman.

She came in with two cups of coffee on a tray, and the words “That is your daughter, I suppose?” came to my lips, but I restrained myself in time from uttering them. I must act with care, or I should never be invited here again.

“This is kind of you,” I said instead.

“Least I could do.”

She made it sound as though it were a necessary payment for my efforts; and I knew that I must be very cautious.

My eyes kept straying to the picture of the girl, and it occurred to me that, as she must be aware of my interest, it would seem odd if I said nothing.

“What an attractive girl!” I said.

“Think so?” Her lips tightened.

“Is she your daughter?”

She nodded. “Was. She’s gone now…she died.”

“Oh, I am sorry.”

She was cautious. I sensed that, cutting or no cutting, she would have no prying.

I changed the subject.

“You come from the North, I believe?”

“Yes. Came here with my husband. He got a bad chest at his work and, as was right and proper, they gave him a sum of money. Well, we came here. Climate was better for him, they said.”

“And you like it here?”

“Some ways do, some ways don’t.”

“Well,” I said philosophically, “that’s life, isn’t it?”

“It’s good growing grounds.”

So, I thought, we are back to the garden. I must be very careful not to reveal my ignorance and a certain lack of enthusiasm for the subject.

I said: “This coffee is good. It is so kind of you.”

She frowned. I could see she was thinking, Southern claptrap…saying what they don’t mean. The coffee’s all right and after all, as I had procured the cutting, she naturally had to make a show of hospitality. That was all it was…so why pretend?

She said: “In the North you know where you are. Here, well, there’s a lot of soft talk. Blah-blah, I call it. Me dear this and me dear that, and when you turn your back they’re tearing you to pieces.”

“People are more forthright in the North, I am sure. So you live alone?”

“Yes, now.”

I was on dangerous ground again. If I were not careful, I, should not be asked again.

Gratitude for the cutting, however, lingered on, and I did want to hear her account of her daughter’s death.

She said suddenly: “You on holiday here?”

“Yes…at Tregarland’s.”

“Yes. I know. You got the cutting from the gardens there.”

She was holding her head high and nodding a little. Her lips were tightly drawn together.

I said: “You probably know it is my sister who has married into the family.”

She nodded. It was not a good recommendation: the sister of the wife who had taken the place of her daughter.

I said hastily: “I shall not be there long. My mother and I are going home in a few days.”

She nodded again. I think that made her feel a little more kindly toward me.

I realized she was not going to share any confidences with me. I was wasting my time. But I was not going to give up yet.

I said, putting the cup down close to Annette’s picture: “Well, thank you. That was very nice. I do hope the cutting takes.”

“We’ll have to see about that.”

“I wonder…if you’d mind…?”

She looked at me intently and I went on boldly: “I wonder, on my next visit, if I might call so that you could show me how it thrived?”