“Emily?”

I hesitated, feeling like she was asking me something different than what she’d intended.

“Yeah. Saw her at the funeral. She told me that he was screwing around,” I said.

“Wellton interviewed her, and I know it came up then, too.” Liz spun the mug on the table with her pinky finger. “But his alibi’s tight. Hospital verified him being there for the last week. No way he was here.”

“Just doesn’t feel right, that’s all,” I said.

She looked at the clock on the wall and stood, grabbing the plates. “I’ve got to get moving. I’ll look around some more, Noah, but I’m still not sure how he’s connected to Kate’s death. He may be an asshole, but that doesn’t make him a killer.”

“Yeah, you’re right,” I said as I pushed away from the table and slowly coaxed myself upright.

She dropped the dishes in the sink and walked over to me.

“Of course I am,” she said. “I’m a homicide detective.”

I smiled. “Yeah, you are.”

She poked me in the chest. “I’m not gonna let this get awkward. I have no idea what this is right now.”

“Me and you?”

“Yeah, me and you,” she said. “And to be honest, I don’t want to think about it. So, no good-bye kisses, no googly eyes, none of that crap.”

“Googly eyes?” I asked.

“Yes, most likely from you,” she said, trying to keep a smile from hitting her mouth. “So here it is. I’m glad you came by last night and I’m glad you’re here this morning. But let’s just see what happens. No promises. Alright?”

“No,” I said.

She looked surprised. “No?”

“I’m kissing you good-bye,” I said as I leaned over.

When I pulled away, she kept her eyes closed for an extra moment before opening them. “Alright, good decision. Yeah. But definitely no googly eyes.”

46

As I put the key in the ignition of the Blazer, it occurred to me that I hadn’t mentioned to Liz anything about the key Emily had given me. I still wasn’t sure if it would tell me anything and Liz had been skeptical of my other ideas, so I didn’t see the point of bringing it up. But I made a mental note to ask Carter about the key the next time I visited the hospital.

I drove back to my place and rather than shower right away, grabbed my board and headed out to the small swells that were rising along the shoreline. The water felt good on my body and eased the soreness.

As I cut through the water, I managed not to think about Kate or Randall or Costilla. The great thing about surfing is that you can lose yourself in it. Whether you’re smashing into the lip or gazing into the front end of a tight barrel, everything else in the world falls away. Concentrate on your footwork, feel that back anchor foot driving the board back and forth, and let the rails slice through the face of the water and take you somewhere you’ve never been before.

In between sets, sitting on my board, watching the morning walkers along the shore, I did think about Liz, though. The night had felt like some sort of breakthrough. I didn’t know exactly what it was we were breaking through, but I definitely felt good about it. I hadn’t thought about Emily, and that fact made me realize that what she and I had been doing together was probably more out of confusion than anything else. What I didn’t feel good about was having to have that conversation with Emily.

I watched a small set roll by and below me and continued floating in the water.

Regardless of whom Emily and I had been with, the conversation would be uneasy. It always is. Even if we both recognized that we had gotten together for the wrong reasons, our relationship would probably be tense and awkward in whatever shape it remained.

A nice three footer curled up behind me. I moved to my stomach, paddled in front of it, and let it pick me up. I pushed up to a crouch and dropped into the small face, a tiny ripple of excitement working through my stomach as the board slid to the bottom of the wave. It closed out quickly, and I bobbed my way to the shore, the white water sending me in.

After showering and tossing on a T-shirt and a pair of shorts, I took the cordless phone out onto the patio with a phone book and a notepad, along with the scrap of paper Liz had given me. I paged through the phone book, without really thinking I’d find something. Looking for Charlotte T. would have to start somewhere, no matter how tedious and silly it seemed.

After thirty minutes of looking, I’d located only a Charlotte Thompson in El Cajon and a Charlotte Terry in Mira Mesa. Both were on the other side of sixty, and neither knew Kate or Randall Crier.

I called directory assistance in Marin County and the not-so-friendly operator told me that she had over twenty Charlottes with the last initial T and that she could not give them to me over the phone. She informed me that I could find current phone books at my local library and hung up.

I sat there for a few minutes watching the people strolling on the boardwalk. The sun was high, but haze from the morning marine layer was muting its glare. The people who had slept in late were just now arriving at the beach, toting chairs, coolers, and kids, and finding a spot in the sand to spend the next couple of hours.

I called directory assistance in Marin again, got a different operator, and asked for the number to Randall’s hospital.

“St. Andrew’s,” a pleasant voice said. “How can I direct your call?”

“Not sure,” I said, scrambling. “I’m looking for a Charlotte, but I don’t know her last name.”

“Do you know the department, sir?”

“I don’t, I’m sorry. My answering machine ate most of the message and I have no idea what the call is regarding.”

“That’s alright,” she said. “Happens to the best of us. Let me check…okay. I have two Charlottes in the directory. Dr. Charlotte Kollack in oncology and Charlotte Truman, our deputy administrator.”

Bingo. “Let’s try the latter. I think I might’ve heard Truman on the machine.”

“I’ll connect you to that office,” she said. “One moment.”

Ten seconds later, a voice came on the line. “Charlotte Truman’s office.”

“Is Ms. Truman in?” I asked.

“No, I’m afraid not,” the female voice said. “She’s out for the week.”

“The whole week?”

“Yes, sir. She’s down in Los Angeles for the conference at the Bonaventure and won’t be back until next Monday.”

“I see.”

“Can I take a message, sir?” she asked. “She’s checking in periodically.”

I thought about it and decided against it. I told her no thanks and hung up.

I figured a drive up to LA would get me a quicker answer.