I think I’m becoming scared of the dark.

I go to Mom’s room. I thought she’d interrogate me when I got back from Tucker’s, but she was already in bed, asleep again. I just look at her lying there, wanting to be close to her but not to disturb her. A shaft of light from the open door falls across her. She seems so frail, so small curled up on her side in the middle of the bed, one arm cast over her head. I move closer to the bed and touch her shoulder, and her skin is cool. She frowns.

Go away, she says. I step back from her, hurt. Is she mad over what happened today? That I chose Tucker?

Please, she says. I can’t tell if she’s speaking out loud or in my head. But she’s not talking to me, I realize. She’s dreaming. When I touch her again, I feel what she feels: anger, fear. I remember how she looked in the Black Wing’s memory, that image of her he’d carried for so long: the short brown hair, bright lipstick, and dangling cigarette, the way she’d looked at him with this knowing little smirk. She wasn’t afraid then, not of him, anyway. Not of anything. She’s a stranger to me, that younger version of my mother. I wonder if I’ll ever know her, if now that my purpose is over she’ll be free to tell me her secrets.

Mom sighs. I pull the quilt up to cover her, smooth a strand of hair back from her face. Then I slip quietly from the room. I go back to the kitchen, but I can still feel her dream if I tune in to it. This is something new, I think, this ability to feel what others feel, like when I felt Tucker as he kissed me, like what I felt when I touched the Black Wing. I reach for Mom with my consciousness, and I can find her, feel her. It’s amazing and terrifying at the same time. I cast myself upstairs to Jeffrey’s room and I can feel him. Asleep and dreaming, and there’s fear in his dreams too, and something like shame. Worry. It makes me worry for him. I don’t know where he was during the fire, what he was doing that weighs on him now.

I go to the sink for a glass of water, then drink it slowly. I smell smoke, the scent of the fire still lingering in the air. This makes me think of Christian. Three miles due east, he said, as the crow flies. Three miles isn’t so far. I imagine myself slipping across the earth, like I’m traveling along the roots of the trees and grass, stretching a line between me and Christian’s house like a piece of string between two tin cans, my own makeshift telephone.

I want to feel what he feels.

And then I do. I find him. Somehow I know it’s him and not anyone else. He’s not asleep. He’s thinking of me, too. He’s thinking about the moment when he wiped the smudge of ash from my cheek, the way my skin felt under his fingers, the way I looked at him. He’s confused, churning, frustrated. He doesn’t know what’s expected of him anymore.

I get that. We didn’t ask for any of this; we were born into it. And yet we’re supposed to serve blindly, to follow rules we don’t understand, to let some larger force map out our lives and tell us who we should love and what, if anything, we should dare to dream.

In the end, when Christian and I flew away together, there were no flames below us. There was no fire chasing us. We weren’t saving each other. We weren’t in love with each other. Instead, we were changed. We were thrown for a cosmic loop. I don’t know if I’ve fallen from grace, or if I’m on some sort of Heavenly Plan B. Maybe it doesn’t matter.

One thing I do know is that we can never go back.

Acknowledgments

It takes a village to raise a book. I want to thank:

The brilliant, hardworking team at HarperCollins, including Kate Jackson and Susan Katz, for their enthusiasm and support of Clara and her world; Sasha Illingworth, who turned my plain little pages into such a gorgeous, sparkly book; Catherine Wallace, for all her behind-the-scenes hard work; and so many others who made this book possible, most especially my editor, Farrin Jacobs. I was born under a lucky star indeed to end up with such a wise and thorough editor. I like every colored-pencil Farrin, even blue.

Katherine Fausset, the best agent a writer could wish for, for guiding me so smoothly along the path to realizing my wildest dreams.

My mother, Carol Ware, for staying up late to hear the newest chapter and for (bless her) always loving it, and my father, Rodney Hand, for wholeheartedly supporting my decision to study writing even though he was pretty sure it meant I’d go hungry.

Joan Kremer, my writing partner, a big part of why writing this book was so much fun.

My best friend extraordinaire, Lindsey Terrell, for being a beacon of love and sanity in a crazy time.

My early readers: Kristin Naca, Cali Lovett, Robin Marushia, Amy Yowell, and Melissa Stockham, the most loyal cheerleaders and funniest peanut gallery ever.

My readers from Bishop Kelly High School, Victoria Agee and Katy Dalrymple in particular. You so totally rock.

The friendly and informative rangers at Teton National Park, and the students and staff at Jackson Hole High School, with a special shout-out to Gary Elliott, the now-retired principal, who welcomed me so warmly and answered my endless questions with gracious enthusiasm. Without you, Clara’s world would have been so much more generic.

Shannon Fields (and Emily!) for taking such great care of my son so that I could work without worry.

My amazing and talented students at Pepperdine, who are always eager to hear the latest book news and who keep me honest as a writer, and glad to be one, day after day.

And last, but certainly not least, I want to thank John Struloeff, my husband, co-conspirator, editor, sounding board, and support system, who helped me in more ways than I can name. And my son, Will, who’s the reason I started writing about angels in the first place.

About the Author

CYNTHIA HAND divides her time between Southern California, where she lives with her husband and son, and southeast Idaho near the Teton Mountains. She teaches creative writing at Pepperdine University. This is her first novel. You can visit her online at www.cynthiahand.blogspot.com.

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Praise for Unearthly

“Utterly captivating. Cynthia Hand has brilliantly spun the magic of angel mythology into a modern world of romance and suspense, creating one of the most addictive books I’ve read in a while. Unearthly had me lying awake at night, wondering what would happen next.”

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