blamed me for the hopeless future when the carefully rationed provisions
inevitably ran out. He said I should have taken the roses and Isra and made
Yuan’s dark curse our own. He called for a war party to be formed to return
to Yuan and capture the roses and the queen at any cost, to kill every
Smooth Skin we could kill and avenge our tribe. Our usually peace-minded
chief agreed, but the final decision for war is always taken to our people.
It failed by one vote. Meer’s mother said no. She said Meer wouldn’t
have wanted to live if it meant binding our tribe to dark magic. She said
Meer wouldn’t have wanted her son to be raised under the shadow of evil
or for me to lose the woman I love.
I told my people what I felt for Isra. Most of them assumed my head
had been damaged by my time spent under the dome.
I close my eyes now, and let my head fall back against the warm rock
behind me. Isra. Thinking her name is enough to rip me apart. I was sure I
was done with these feelings. I thought I’d known the worst pain any man
could imagine, but I was wrong. There is still more pain. New pain. The
worst pain. I am a broken man. Without Isra, I will never be whole again.
There is nothing left to hope for, no reason to keep living.
I imagined that the worst thing awaiting me in Yuan would be
explaining to Isra why it took me so long to return, asking her forgiveness,
hoping she could understand how lost I was. But this …
By the ancestors …
I should have known it was possible. I should have prepared myself.
You knew. You refused to prepare. Coward.
“I’m not a coward,” I whisper. I never betrayed her. I never lied, I
never took the easy way, even when Gare, the last living member of my
family, disowned me before the tribe, when he said a lover of Smooth Skins
would receive no death wails from his throat, and vowed to let my body rot
on the ground if I were foolish enough to die before he does.
He won’t give me the release of a funeral fire. He hates me that
much.
I don’t hate him, but I would have fought him if he’d tried to hurt
Isra. I would have killed him if I’d had to. My own brother. I’m no better
than he is, but I’m—
“Not a coward,” I choke out.
“No, you’re not.” A soft voice. A girl’s voice.
My eyes fly open—some desperate part of me hoping I’ll see Isra,
though I know her voice is deeper and richer than the one I heard. Instead I
find Needle standing at the base of the rocks I climbed last night and
haven’t bothered to leave all day. She looks up at me, her golden skin rosy
in the fading light, her black eyes glittering with wonder. She
looks … complete.
“I can speak.” She blinks, sending twin streams of water racing down
her cheeks. “For the first time in my life. I was born without the parts I
needed to make words, but a few minutes ago I felt …” Her fingers touch
her throat, her awe clear in their trembling. “It’s magic. Isra was right.
Everything in the queen’s diary is true. The curse is breaking.”
Isra.
“Is she …” I falter and start again. “Is she—”
“She’s in the tower.”
My chest explodes with a relief brighter and purer than anything I
thought I’d feel again. “She’s alive,” I say, just to hear the words out loud.
Then again, “She’s alive!”
“We must return to the city. Quickly.” Needle drops the pack slung
over her shoulder onto the ground and backs away toward the dome. “She
thinks you’re dead and she’s determined to die, too,” she says, sending my
heart plummeting into my stomach. “She wanted to stay with the city until
it falls, to put an end to the covenant, but now that you’re here—”
As if in response to her words, a terrible sound—like thunder, but a
hundred times sharper and closer—erupts from the direction of Yuan.
Needle wheels to look. I lift my eyes in time to see a chunk of the dome as
big as the stones I’m standing on break away from the rest and fall …
farther … farther … until it finally collides with one of the buildings at the
center of the city, sending the structure tumbling to the ground. A little
farther to the left, and the thick shattered glass would have destroyed Isra’s
tower.
I jump from the rock, and hit the ground running.
“Wait!” Needle calls as I race by her.
I glance over my shoulder to find her already running after me.
“There are soldiers still in the city,” she says. “They have orders to kill
Isra if she leaves her rooms.”
“Why?” I ask, slowing just enough for Needle to keep up.
“Junjie forced her to marry his son,” she says, making my stomach
knot. But there’s no time to think about what Isra’s marriage means for us.
I have to save her life. That’s all that matters. I can’t be too late again; I
won’t survive it.
“Once she’s dead, Bo can marry again,” Needle continues, moving
quickly for someone so small. Though … she seems larger than I remember
her. Larger and stronger, with muscled calves peeking out from beneath
her simple gray dress. “Isra was walling herself inside her room to try to
protect herself, but if you hurry, you can reach her before she finishes. Go,”
she pants. “You can run faster. I’ll wait for you both by the stones.”
I’ve just started to push harder, when Needle cries out—
“Get her out, Gem. Kill the others if you have no choice.”
I stop for one precious moment, and turn back with a nod.
Needle sighs with a mixture of relief and fear I completely
understand. “Isra has to live. She has to see this,” she says, arms sweeping
out as if she’ll embrace the entire desert. It’s only then that I notice the
color. Color in the desert.
Patches of green and gold and black and blue prick at my eyes.
Golden grass pushes up from the crumbling earth; green teases the
branches of trees that have been dead for decades. Bruised blue and black
storm clouds sweep over the mountains, smelling of sweating metal and
new grass and the sweetness that comes just before a rain.
I can’t remember the last time it rained. I can’t remember the last
time I saw a storm cloud. It’s been years.
Something’s happening, something miraculous, and Isra has to see it.
She has to know the world can change, no matter how hard the road has
been to get to this place or how viciously the old world will fight to keep us
from walking out of that dying city.
There is hope. For her, for me, for all of our people.
With one last glance at the clouds rolling across the sky, blanketing
the sizzling desert with cool promise, I run for the dome. I run faster than I
have ever run. I run to her, for her, my Isra.
TWENTY-SEVEN
ISRA
I have to get out. I can’t let this be the end. I have to know if Gem
was the one lighting the fires at the gathering stones. I have to know if he’s
alive, and if he is, I have to tell him the way I feel. I refuse to die without at
least trying to—
“Father, please,” Bo says. “Let me talk to her alone.”
“You’ve talked enough!” Junjie shouts. “The world will end, and you’ll
still be talking! Open the door, Isra. Show that you are more than a blight
on your family’s good name.”
I laugh in response, a mad laugh that sends me dashing on tiptoe
deeper into the room. I spin in a circle, looking for a way out, though I know
there is none. The window is bricked closed, save for a sliver of an opening