Right now I have a new chapter to read.

It’s normal to feel tempted, Father Mike tsks. Just distract yourself with other things. Get out in the sunshine and go for a walk‌…‌

My fingers hover over the keyboard. Plastic Sim stares at me, tipped over on Abel’s box of Ho-Hos. I straighten his legs and stand him up in my new Castaway Planet mug, beside Plastic Cadmus.

Then I find hey_mamacita’s latest post and click her name.

Her personal fic journal pops up. I click User Info, just to see her photo again. Nose ring, thick dark dreadlocks, bold Celtic-cross neck tattoo; everything says I’m brave. She’s standing in front of the neon-green Virgin Mary statue in her overgrown front yard, opening her scruffy leather jacket and showing off what’s underneath: a tight tattered t-shirt, its big red sequined heart shooting off tiny light beams like a superhero insignia.

The bio underneath is just one line:

SENT BY GOD HERSELF to make Abandon happen.

I’m not dumb enough to think that’s likely. I mean, last year when Aunt Meg met a guy in the Target returns line and Mom said “God made that sweater too small for a reason,” I rolled my eyes so hard I think I sprained an optic nerve. If God exists, there’s no way he bothers with matchmaking.

It’s eerie, though. Right?

I keep asking for signs. And here she is. Someone who prays to a neon Virgin Mary and lives her whole life in all-caps and thinks God and my happiness go together just fine. I don’t think she was sent. Not in a literal Biblical-prophet way. But the fact that hey_mamacita a.) exists and b.) found me? It just seems like some power somewhere in the universe is maybe on my side.

I click the fic tab. Right up top I see the little green “NEW CHAPTER!” burst and my heart jogs faster. Most of the other Abandon girls write us into the Castaway Planet universe‌—‌I’m an android, Abel’s a studly ensign‌—‌or concoct these high-school melodramas where I get a beatdown from some closeted quarterback and end up in the ER and then Abel brings me a giant teddy bear and we do it in my hospital bed. hey_mamacita is the only one writing her vision of this trip we’re on, a crazy, sprawling fourteen-chapter epic called “How to Repair a Mechanical Heart.”

I grab a can of BBQ chips from the food bin, pop the top, and read.

Just as their lips were about to finally touch with a lovely trembling sweetness, a pair of headlights sliced across the parking lot and locked on the two boys like a tractor beam. They saw the black Cadillac creep toward them in the dark with sinister sharklike intensity, the blood-red rosary swinging from the rearview and the license plate blaring the grim heavy sledgehammer words Brandon could never forget: I-JUDGE.

The car shuddered to a stop.

“Get in the RV, Brandon,” Abel murmured.

Brandon shook his head. “I won’t,” he replied, raking up all his courage. “This is my fight, too. I know that now.”

Out of the shadows clacked the heavy black boots of Father X, his craggy face glowering with malevolence and his silver crucifix clutched in a fist that was ancient and bony but could still crack a sinner’s arm in half. His grease-slick hair swung like blades across his face. He crushed his cigarette out on the inside of his palm and his mouth cracked open in a twisted smile that showed his gray and rotting feral teeth and prickled the hairs on Brandon’s neck. He LIKED THE PAIN. That much was clear. Brandon thought, God, that must be why he wants us all to hurt.

“So this is where you go to practice your DEPRAVED FORNICATIONS,” Father X snarled, pointing the cross at them. His red eyes glowed in the blackness and the cross spat hot electric bolts of silver light. “In the NAME OF HEAVEN, I command you, Brandon Page, to cease this charade of sin and misery! Return at once to the blessed desolation of the chaste and celibate life God created you to lead!”

Brandon, in reply, brandished a dagger. It was a letter opener from the CastieCon souvenir stand, but Father X didn’t have to know that. He strode up to Father X like a cowboy at high noon and‌—‌

I crack up laughing. I always do when I read her fic, but I mean it as a compliment. The more awesomely campy it is, the better I feel. I grab a sharp-tipped pencil from the Cape May mug on the desk; practice brandishing and pointing it.

“It ends here,” Brandon rasped. “All my life I’ve been your robot. Wind me up and my heart has done your will. Believe this, sacrifice that. Accept that God created you to be alone. Tick tick tick, yes master, I believe. Well, guess what? I’m done. I met someone who fixed my heart. And you can’t do anything about it.”

He slipped his warm hand into Abel’s. The next thing he heard was‌—‌

Sirens.

Sirens outside, off to the west, straight in the direction of the Double T. I run to the window, scissor open the blinds with two fingers. I picture Abel on a stretcher. Blood on a white sheet. A crumpled fender, some girl sobbing God, I never even saw him while someone’s cell shrills over and over, sad and steady and unanswered.

It’s mine. My phone. It vibrates across the desk and I catch it just before it goes over. Father Mike? The weird thought clutches me. Just for a second. Then I pick up and hear: “OMG MY VAG IS ON FIRE!”

I giggle. “What?”

“Sweet merciful baby Moses, San Antonio is the city of magical love witchcraft!” A big knot loosens inside me. I drop back down in the desk chair. I picture Abel reading off his phone in a corner booth while Bec snort-laughs and stirs her iced tea. “I legit peed myself you guys and my heart went supernova and how do these boys even exist??”

“I take it they liked our pool video?”

“You haven’t checked?”

I glance at the screen. “Been busy.”

“doomerang already coughed up a flashfic called ‘I Think You Know.’”

“Can’t wait.”

“amity crashful counted how many times we’ve called each other ‘baby’ this week‌—‌did you know we hit 15 already?”

“Impressive.” I lick BBQ dust off my fingers. “We must be in love.”

“Then Miss Maxima and a couple of her minions came over from the Cadsim fanjournal to bitch about how disgusting and intrusive real-person shipping is, and they all got banned, it was hilarious‌…‌OH! And.”

“Ye-es?”

“There’s a San Antonio spy now.”

“Who?”

“retro robot. I love her! She wrote that one where we’re nineteenth-century vampire hunters? She’s driving all the way from Tulsa so we have to ramp it up at the Augie Manners Q&A.”

“Okay.”

“I’m warning you now: There might have to be back-rubbing.”

“Maybe even a public hug.”

He gasps. “I’m shocked, Tin Man. Shocked. What’s next?”

“Depraved fornications.”

“You know what?”

“What?”

“I like this new Brandon.”

I blow crumbs off the keyboard and scroll up to the start of hey_mamacita’s chapter, so I can read it all over again.

“Me too,” I say.

Chapter Fourteen

Augie Manners plays the lovable stoner every single time he’s onscreen‌—‌from Castaway Planet to those old burger commercials where his catchphrase was “Dude, can I have your pickle?” When he scuffs onstage for his Q&A there are zero surprises. Surf-shop t-shirt, sleepy smile, dumb fisherman hat hiding raggedy red-blond hair. His cargo pants look slept in and his weird rope sandals are almost certainly made of hemp. If he was in a comic strip, squiggly lines of visible weed fumes would follow him everywhere.

He throws his arms wide open. “Hel-loooooooo San Antonio!”

Cheers and wolf-whistles from the girls. Abel and I shoot we’ve-got-a-secret looks at each other.