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‘What’s all the noise about? The clock? What’s the matter with it?’ He unlocked the door and barged in, pushing Newman back.

‘Nothing. But why is it here? They’re against the law.’

‘Oh, is that what’s worrying you.’ The warder shrugged. ‘Well, you see, the rules are a little different in here. You lads have got a lot of time ahead of you, it’d be cruel not to let you know where you stood. You know how to work it, do you? Good.’ He slammed the door, bolted it fast, smiled at Newman through the cage. ‘It’s a long day here, son, as you’ll be finding out, that’ll help you get through it.’

Gleefully, Newman lay on the bed, his head on a rolled blanket at its foot, staring up at the clock. It appeared to be in perfect order, electrically driven, moving in rigid half-minute jerks. For an hour after the warder left he watched it without a break, then began to tidy up his cell, glancing over his shoulder every few minutes to reassure himself that it was still there, still running efficiently. The irony of the situation, the total inversion of justice, delighted him, even though it would cost him twenty years of his life.

He was still chuckling over the absurdity of it all two weeks later when for the first time he noticed the clock’s insanely irritating tick…

1960

The Voices of Time

One

Later Powers often thought of Whitby, and the strange grooves the biologist had cut, apparently at random, all over the floor of the empty swimming pool. An inch deep and twenty feet long, interlocking to form an elaborate ideogram like a Chinese character, they had taken him all summer to complete, and he had obviously thought about little else, working away tirelessly through the long desert afternoons. Powers had watched him from his office window at the far end of the Neurology wing, carefully marking out his pegs and string, carrying away the cement chips in a small canvas bucket. After Whitby’s suicide no one had lothered about the grooves, but Powers often borrowed the supervisor’s key and let himself into the disused pool, and would look down at the labyrinth of mouldering gulleys, half-filled with water leaking in from the chlorinator, an enigma now past any solution.

Initially, however, Powers was too preoccupied with completing his work at the Clinic and planning his own final withdrawal. After the first frantic weeks of panic he had managed to accept an uneasy compromise that allowed him to view his predicament with the detached fatalism he had previously reserved for his patients. Fortunately he was moving down the physical and mental gradients simultaneously — lethargy and inertia blunted his anxieties, a slackening metabolism made it necessary to concentrate to produce a connected thought-train. In fact, the lengthening intervals of dreamless sleep were almost restful. He found himself beginning to look forward to them, and made no effort to wake earlier than was essential.

At first he had kept an alarm clock by his bed, tried to compress as much activity as he could into the narrowing hours of consciousness, sorting out his library, driving over to Whitby’s laboratory every morning to examine the latest batch of Xray plates, every minute and hour rationed like the last drops of water in a canteen.

Anderson, fortunately, had unwittingly made him realize the pointlessness of this course.

After Powers had resigned from the Clinic he still continued to drive in once a week for his check-up, now little more than a formality. On what turned out to be the last occasion Anderson had perfunctorily taken his blood-count, noting Powers’ slacker facial muscles, fading pupil reflexes and unshaven cheeks.

He smiled sympathetically at Powers across the desk, wondering what to say to him. Once he had put on a show of encouragement with the more intelligent patients, even tried to provide some sort of explanation. But Powers was too difficult to reach — neurosurgeon extraordinary, a man always out on the periphery, only at ease working with unfamiliar materials. To himself he thought: I’m sorry, Robert. What can I say — ‘Even the sun is growing cooler—?’ He watched Powers drum his fingers restlessly on the enamel desk top, his eyes glancing at the spinal level charts hung around the office. Despite his unkempt appearance — he had been wearing the same unironed shirt and dirty white plimsolls a week ago — Powers looked composed and self-possessed, like a Conradian beachcomber more or less reconciled to his own weaknesses.

‘What are you doing with yourself, Robert?’ he asked. ‘Are you still going over to Whitby’s lab?’

‘As much as I can. It takes me half an hour to cross the lake, and I keep on sleeping through the alarm clock. I may leave my place and move in there permanently.’

Anderson frowned. ‘Is there much point? As far as I could make out Whitby’s work was pretty speculative—’ He broke off, realizing the implied criticism of Powers’ own disastrous work at the Clinic, but Powers seemed to ignore this, was examining the pattern of shadows on the ceiling. ‘Anyway, wouldn’t it be better to stay where you are, among your own things, read through Toynbee and Spengler again?’

Powers laughed shortly. ‘That’s the last thing I want to do. I want to forget Toynbee and Spengler, not try to remember them. In fact, Paul, I’d like to forget everything. I don’t know whether I’ve got enough time, though. How much can you forget in three months?’

‘Everything, I suppose, if you want to. But don’t try to race the clock.’

Powers nodded quietly, repeating this last remark to himself. Racing the clock was exactly what he had been doing. As he stood up and said goodbye to Anderson he suddenly decided to throw away his alarm clock, escape from his futile obsession with time. To remind himself he unfastened his wristwatch and scrambled the setting, then slipped it into his pocket. Making his way out to the car park he reflected on the freedom this simple act gave him. He would explore the lateral byways now, the side doors, as it were, in the corridors of time. Three months could be an eternity.

He picked his car out of the line and strolled over to it, shielding his eyes from the heavy sunlight beating down across the parabolic sweep of the lecture theatre roof. He was about to climb in when he saw that someone had traced with a finger across the dust caked over the windshield: 96,688,365,498,721. Looking over his shoulder, he recognized the white Packard parked next to him, peered inside and saw a lean-faced young man with blond sun-bleached hair and a high cerebrotonic forehead watching him behind dark glasses. Sitting beside him at the wheel was a raven-haired girl whom he had often seen around the psychology department. She had intelligent but somehow rather oblique eyes, and Powers remembered that the younger doctors called her ‘the girl from Mars’.

‘Hello, Kaldren,’ Powers said to the young man. ‘Still following me around?’

Kaldren nodded. ‘Most of the time, doctor.’ He sized Powers up shrewdly. ‘We haven’t seen very much of you recently, as a matter of fact. Anderson said you’d resigned, and we noticed your laboratory was closed.’

Powers shrugged. ‘I felt I needed a rest. As you’ll understand, there’s a good deal that needs re-thinking.’

Kaidren frowned half-mockingly. ‘Sorry to hear that, doctor. But don’t let these temporary setbacks depress you.’ He noticed the girl watching Powers with interest. ‘Coma’s a fan of yours. I gave her your papers from American Journal of Psychiatry, and she’s read through the whole file.’

The girl smiled pleasantly at Powers, for a moment dispelling the hostility between the two them. When Powers nodded to her she leaned across Kaldren and said: ‘Actually I’ve just finished Noguchi’s autobiography the great Japanese doctor who discovered the spirochaete. Somehow you remind me of him — there’s so much of yourself in all the patients you worked on.’