to think this through, because we might leave matters worse than before we started."
"Well, trying to talk him around is off the menu," said Mara. "So I'm sticking with going after the irritant in this. Lumiya. But let's not forget that Omas didn't exactly behave sensibly, and Niathal isn't in Lumiya's thrall. She's got her own agenda, and I don't get any sense of the dark side influencing that."
Luke knew she was right. The dynamics were complex. The best thing Jedi could do was to tackle the things that non-Force-users couldn't.
Once again, he missed the clarity of thoroughly evil adversaries, or at least those he thought were evil.
It was hard to turn against your allies. It was as hard as turning against your own family. Now they were one and the same.
GAG HEADQUARTERS, CORUSCANT
The worst thing about waking up that morning was the few seconds of blank comfort before remembering what had happened, and then the world collapsed again. Ben couldn't stop seeing Jori Lekauf everywhere he looked. He couldn't face staying at home: he needed the company of his friends, the people who missed Lekauf, too. As he walked through the GAG
security gates, and the system accepted his identicard to open the blastproof doors, every face in the corridor was Lekauf's. When Ben went into the locker room, he could hear his voice. It was a running nightmare conjured up by a combination of his Force-senses and the simple human reaction to fresh bereavement. He wanted it to stop, but he felt he was being disloyal to a dead friend for wanting not to see him everywhere.
Zavirk was still in the monitoring room. He looked up at Ben and tapped the mute button on his earpiece. "You okay?"
"Fine."
"I won't say it."
"Fine."
"And not your fault, okay? Could have been any one of us." Zavirk tapped the button again and dragged the adjacent chair closer for Ben to sit down. "You heard that the boss is . . . well, really the boss now?"
"Yeah."
"Should be good news for us."
Ben knew that his father would say it wasn't good news at all. He sat in the monitoring room for a while, just grateful to be among the troopers, and then wandered off to find a quiet spot. If he couldn't handle this kind of stuff without being devastated, he'd be no use in the GAG. Every other trooper here got on with it. Shevu had probably had an awful conversation with Lekauf's parents, but when Ben walked by his office, he was hard at work, marking up a duty roster on the wall and getting on with things.
Okay, I'm fourteen. I could say, all right, I'm just a kid and I don't have to be tough when my buddies get killed. But I can't pick and choose when I act like an adult. I've got to get on with it, or go to school like every other kid my age.
And he was scaring his mother. She had enough problems of her own hunting Lumiya.
According to the roster display, Jacen was on duty. The time codes showed he'd been at HQ since about one in the morning. Ben couldn't feel his presence, but that didn't surprise him now. There was a time when Jacen had hidden in the Force when he had to; now he only showed himself when he seemed to feel it was necessary.
Without thinking about it, Ben found himself shutting down, too. As he walked down the corridor, the tiles still gleaming with spots of water because the cleaning droids were just meters ahead of him, he let himself
merge with the matter and energy around him. The more he did it, the less he felt like he was in a trance, cut off from reality, and the more he felt like he was observing the world as it truly was, particles within particles. It gave him a fleeting feeling of serene clarity. It was relief of a kind.
At the top of the corridor, a pair of doors led to the holding cells. That area was always kept shut, but today there was a notice fixed on the wall next to it that read top-level clearances only. They were holding Chief Omas down there. It seemed surreal. Ben carried on toward Jacen's office and he could see as he rounded the corner that the doors were open.
As usual, he couldn't feel Jacen's presence, but he could hear him talking to someone.
Who is it? Odd. I can't feel anybody else.
Jacen might have been on his comlink, but his tone of voice wasn't that slightly stilted, self-conscious one that he tended to lapse into when he couldn't see who he was speaking to. In fact, he sounded as if he was trying to keep his temper.
"You overplayed your hand," said Jacen.
"You worry too much," said a woman's voice.
That was the point at which Ben realized something was very wrong.
Only a Jedi could be there and not be sensed—or a Yuuzhan Vong, and they weren't exactly frequent visitors to the GAG HQ. And the voice was somehow familiar, even though he couldn't place it.
It was dishonest to sneak up on his commanding officer—on his cousin, his mentor—but it seemed like the only sensible thing to do.
Keeping himself hidden in the Force, Ben edged silently along the corridor and stood as close to the open doors as he could.
This wing of the headquarters building was deserted, and Jacen probably
relied on sensing people coming and going. He thought he and his guest were alone.
"You cut it too fine," Jacen was saying. "There's being a decoy, and there's being too clever, and you crossed that line. Are you recovered now?"
"Yes," said the woman's voice. It had that slightly husky edge to it, like she used too many death sticks. "But it worked. It gave you the space to act without having her crawling all over your operation. She really thinks I want revenge for some daughter . . ."
"I sometimes think your cover stories are too complex."
"And mind-rubbing Ben about Nelani isn't?"
Ben recoiled. It was all he could do not to storm in. Jacen. You did that?
"He wouldn't understand why I had to do it," said Jacen.
"And that's why he can't ever be your apprentice. Get rid of him, find another one, and stop wasting your time."
"Now, there's my real problem . . ."
"I can't help you there. Whoever it turns out to be, that's the Force's decision. You'll know very soon."
"Well, I dealt with Omas, anyway. A clear path."
"Are you going to keep him here?"
"I thought house arrest might be more sensible in the long term.
Republica House is easy to secure, and it makes us look like the good guys. People still like Omas."
"And here you are, joint Chief of State . . ."
"That way Niathal thinks she can keep me quiet."
"Or under control."
"She's way too smart."
"Play nicely with her. You need her to keep the military behind you."
"You're such a strategist, Lumiya . . ."
Lumiya. Lumiya?
Ben thought he'd misheard, or that his state of mind was making him hear what he wanted to hear, like Lekauf's voice. But he knew what he'd heard, and his first reaction wasn't one of fear or dread, but agonized embarrassment.
He'd trusted Jacen, and Jacen had lied to him.
He'd mind-rubbed him.
And they were talking about him as if he was in the way.
The fact that Jacen was knowingly talking to a Sith as if they were old friends seemed to take second place to that. For all his denial, Jacen knew Lumiya. And she could walk into GAG HQ and just talk to him.
Jacen wasn't being conned by her; he was chatting casually with her about what he'd do next.
Ben found himself scrabbling for excuses that would explain why Jacen could be meeting with Lumiya and still be someone he could trust, someone with a perfectly good reason for it all.