‘They’re going to …?’ Lenk began to ask.
‘ You know the answer to that.’
‘They’re going into the cave.’
‘ Answers lie in there.’
‘Should I …?’
The voice said nothing. He was left standing, watching as the men vanished, one by one, into the cavern. He was left standing as the river fell silent. He was left standing, watching, wondering. Wiser, he thought, notto follow ghostly hallucinations into lightless caverns born of dead forests.
But he did. Going back, after all, was not an option.
It never was.
Thirty-Eight
Gariath did not fear silence. Gariath feared nothing.
Still, he found himself deeply uncomfortable with it. Ordinarily, discomfort wasn’t such a problem; the source of it, after a few stiff beatings, would eventually become a source of much more manageable anger, which would warrant further beatings until only tranquillity remained.
But those sources of anger and discomfort were frequently made of flesh, meat. Silence was not. And he could not strangle the intangible.
He had tried.
And he had failed, so he remained in uncomfortable, awkward, intangible, fleshless silence as he stalked through the forest.
Occasionally he paused, fanning out his ear-frills to listen for an errant whisper, a trace of muttered curse, even a roach’s fart. He heard nothing. He knew he would continue to hear nothing.
Grandfather had left him.
He wasn’t sure what had happened to cause it, but he was certain of it now. Not merely because he hadn’t seen, heard or smelled the ancestor since he had dragged himself out of the surf last night. It was a deeper absence, the perpetual, phantom agony of a limb long lost.
Or a relative …
He continued on through the forest. The silence continued to close in around him, seething on his flesh as though it were new, raw. Not so unreasonable, he thought; he had lived his life without silence thus far. As near as he remembered, the Rhegawere a people of perpetual noise, living in a world that thundered against them: the barking of pups met with the roar of rivers, the mutter of elders accompanied by the rumble of thunder.
Since then, he had experienced any number of howls, groans, shrieks, screams, grunts, cackles, chuckles and countless, countlessbodily noises. That, too, seemed long ago, though.
For the first time, he heard silence.
He didn’t like it.
And yet, he pressed ahead, instead of returning to the cheerful, stupid noises and their fleshy, meaty sources. Theirs was silence of another loud and useless kind, though today it had become a melancholy, self-loathing silence.
He had smelled them in a musky cocktail of guilt, hatred, despair and abject self-pity. All of them carried it, some daubed with scant traces of it, others wearing it like a mane about their heads.
Well, he corrected himself. Almost all of them.
It was unusual enough to find Lenk without a smell that it had given Gariath pause when they briefly crossed paths that morning. Usually, the young man bore the most varied odours, usually varying scents of exasperation. Today, when they brushed past each other without a word and exchanged a fleeting glance, he knew the young man was different. Today, the dragonman had inhaled deeply and scented nothing. Today, he had felt a chill when he met Lenk’s eyes.
Just a fleeting sensation, there and gone in less than an instant; the human was the same human who had cried out like a coward last night, the same human who had fallen into useless babble, the same human whom Gariath had graced with one and only one glance before he leapt overboard to pursue the Shen.
But it had been clear in Lenk’s eyes, in a silence that struck the whistle of the breeze dead, that Gariath was not the same dragonman from that night.
And that dragonman had told him nothing, about the pointy-eared one’s plot to kill him, about the demons on the island, about the longfaces, about anything. Because the man he had seen was not the man from that night, and the man he had seen would brook nothing but silence.
He snorted to himself; too much silence, too little meaning in it all. It was starting to aggravate him. Absently, he began glancing around for things that would make the most noise when struck. Trees, rocks, leaves: all defiantly, annoyingly mute.
He pressed forward, stomping his feet on the earth as he did, crunching leaves under his soles. He needed to break the silence, he thought as he pushed through the underbrush and stepped into a great clearing amidst the forest. He needed something to speak to.
And, in the instant he felt the sun upon his skin, he knew he had found it.
He craned his neck up to take it all in: its massive, unblemished grey face; its weathered, rounded crown; its tremendous earthen roots extending into the lapping waters of a great pond.
An Elder, the familial rock from which all Rhegabegan and ended, loomed over him. He surveyed it, unmarked and unadorned as it was, and felt a smile creep across his lips. The Elders were the basis, the focus, the stability behind any Rhegafamily. And, judging by this one, it had borne many burdens of many of his people.
His people.
They had been here in numbers great enough to raise this rock and call it their earth, once.
Once …He felt his smile fade at the words echoing in his head. And a long time ago.
The scent here was faint; that couldn’t be right, he thought. The Elder was titanic. The scent of the Rhega, of their memories, their families, their children, their wounds, their feasts, their births, their elders … he should have been overwhelmed, brought low to his knees by the sheer weight of the ancestral aroma.
But the smell was one of stagnant rivers, moss-covered rocks. Not alive, not dead, like the rot between a dying winter and a bloody newborn spring, barely faint enough for a single memory, a single statement to make itself known.
But it did make itself known.
Over and over.
Ahgaras succumbed to his wounds and died here, the scent said.
Raha bled into the earth and died here.
Shuraga fell and, his arms ripped from his body, died here.
Ishath held his dead pup in his arms and ate no more …
Garasha screamed until his breath left him …
Urah walked into the night and never returned …
Pups fell, elders fell, all fell …
He drew in their scent, though he did so with ever-diminishing breath, his heart conspiring with his lungs, begging him to stop smelling the memories, to stop wrenching them both. But he continued to breathe them in, searching the scent for anything, any birth, any mating, any defecation, anythingbut this endless reeking list of death.
But he found nothing.
He felt them, each one of them, in his nostrils.
And in each expulsion of breath, he felt them, each one of them, die.
‘Five hundred.’
At the sound of the voice, he turned without a start. His body was drained, a shell of red flesh and brittle bones in which there dwelt no will to start, to snarl, to curse. All he could do was turn and face the grandfather with eyes that sank back into his skull.
‘Exactly,’ the grandfather said.
‘What?’
‘There were five hundred Rhegathat fell here,’ the ancestor said as he walked wearily to the water’s edge. ‘I spent over a year taking in their scents to find their names, Wisest. I doubt you have that long.’
‘I don’t have anywhere to be.’
‘You do … You just don’t know where yet.’
They stood, side by side, and stared. The waters of the pond lapped soundlessly against the shore. The wind in the trees had nothing to contribute. The Elder was the grave into which all sound was buried and lost, so inundated with death that even the great sigh of the earth was nothing.