And then he got into Boston. On other leaves, he'd seen the pounding his home town had taken. Now he had other things on his mind, and hardly noticed. He slung his duffel over his shoulder and pushed out of the train car. Lots of people-sailors, soldiers, civilians-were getting off here.

"George!" Connie yelled, at the same time as the boys were squealing, "Daddy!"

He hugged his wife and squeezed his kids and kissed everybody. "Jesus, it's good to be home!" he said. "You know that Kennedy guy pulled wires for me?"

"I hoped he would," Connie said. "I wrote him about how you'd been in long enough and who your folks were and everything, and it worked!" She beamed.

He kissed her again. "Except on a fishing boat, I'm never leaving this town again," he said. Connie cheered. The boys clapped. They tried to carry the duffel bag. Between them, they managed. That let him put one arm around them and the other arm around Connie. It was an awkward way to leave the platform, but nobody cared a bit.

R ain drummed down out of a leaden sky. Chester Martin's breath smoked whenever he went outside. It was nasty and chilly and muddy. He only laughed. He'd lived here long enough to know this was nothing out of the ordinary. "January in Los Angeles," he said.

Rita laughed, too. "The Chamber of Commerce tries not to tell people about this time of year."

"Yeah, well, if I were them, I wouldn't admit it, either," Chester said. "They do better with photos of orange trees and pretty girls on the beach."

"I've never seen a photo of an orange tree on the beach," Carl said. While Chester was off being a top kick, his son had acquired a quirky sense of humor. Chester sometimes wondered where the kid had got it. Knowing Carl, he'd probably won it in a poker game.

"You might as well hang around the house today," Rita said. "There won't be any work."

"Boy, you got that right," Chester agreed. Rain in L.A. left construction crews sitting on their hands. "In the Army, they just went ahead and built stuff, and the heck with the lousy weather."

"Yeah, but you're not in the Army any more. Good thing, too, if anybody wants to know what I think." By the way Rita said it, he'd better want to know what she thought.

"Hey, you get no arguments from me. It wasn't a whole lot of fun." Chester still didn't want to think about what he'd done in that little South Carolina town. Oh, he wasn't the only one. He could blame Lieutenant Lavochkin for most of it. He could-and he did. But he was there, too. He pulled the trigger lots more than once. That was one thing he never intended to talk about with anybody.

Carl asked, "If it wasn't any fun, why did you do it?"

"Good question," Rita said. "Maybe you can get a decent answer out of him. I never could." She gave Chester a dirty look. She still resented his putting the uniform back on. Chances were she always would.

He shrugged. "If Jake Featherston beat us this time around, I was just wasting my time in the last war. I didn't want that to happen, so I tried to stop it."

"Oh, yeah. You were going to whip Jake Featherston all by yourself. And then you wake up," Rita said.

"Not all by myself. That colored kid did, though." Chester shook his head. "Boy, am I jealous of him. Me and all the other guys who put on the uniform. But everybody who fought set things up so he could do it." He looked at his son. "Is that a good enough answer for you?"

"No," Rita said before Carl could open his mouth. "All it did was get you shot again. You're just lucky you didn't get your head blown off."

"I'm fine." Chester had to speak carefully. Rita's first husband had bought a plot during the Great War. "Wound I picked up doesn't bother me at all, except in weather like this. Then it aches a little. That's it, though."

"Luck. Nothing but luck," Rita said stubbornly, and Chester couldn't even tell her she was wrong.

"How many people did you shoot, Dad?" Carl asked.

That made Chester think of the massacre again. It also made him think of firing-squad duty. Neither of those was what his son had in mind, which didn't mean they hadn't happened. "Some," Chester answered after a perceptible pause. "I don't always like to remember that stuff."

"I should hope not!" Rita made a face.

"Why don't you?" Carl asked. "You joined the Army to kill people, right?"

Rita made a different face this time, a see-what-you-got-into face. Chester sighed. "Yeah, that's why I joined," he said, as steadily as he could. "But it's not so simple. You look at a guy who got wounded, and you listen to him, and it doesn't matter which uniform he's wearing. He looks the same, and he sounds the same-like a guy who's been in a horrible traffic accident. You ever see one of those?"

Carl nodded. "Yeah. It was pretty bad. Blood all over the place."

"All right, then. You've got half an idea of what I'm talking about, anyway. Well, imagine you just ran over somebody. That's kind of the way you feel when you've been through a firefight."

"But when you're in a wreck, the other guy isn't trying to hit you," Carl objected.

"I know. Knowing he's trying to get you, too…I think that's why you can do it at all. It's a fair fight, like they say. That means you can do it-or most people can do it most of the time. It doesn't mean it's a game, or you think it's fun," Chester said. Unless you're Boris Lavochkin, he added, but only to himself. Maybe that was what made the lieutenant so alarming: killing didn't bother him the way it did most people.

Carl was full of questions this morning: "What about guys who can't do it any more? Is that what they call combat fatigue?"

"This time around, yeah. Last war, they called it shellshock. Same critter, different names." Chester hesitated. "Sometimes…a guy sees more horrible stuff than he can take, that's all. If you can, you get him out of the line, let him rest up awhile. He's usually all right after that. War's like anything else, I guess. It's easier for some people than it is for others. And some guys go through more nasty stuff than others, too. So it all depends."

"You sound like you feel sorry for soldiers like that. I thought you'd be mad at them," his son said.

"Not me." Chester shook his head. "I went through enough crap myself so I know how hard it is. A few guys would fake combat fatigue so they could try and get out of the line. I am mad at people who'd do something like that, because they make it harder for everybody else."

"Did you run into anybody like that?" Rita asked.

"Not in my outfit," Chester answered. "It happened, though. You'd hear about it too often for all of it to be made up. Over on the Confederate side, they say General Patton got in trouble for slapping around a guy with combat fatigue."

"What do you think of that?" Rita and Carl said the same thing at the same time.

"If the guy really was shellshocked, Patton should have left him alone. You can't help something like that," Chester said. All the same, he was sure Lieutenant Lavochkin would have done the same thing. Having no nerves himself, Lavochkin didn't see why anybody else should, either.

Before Chester's wife and son could come up with any more interesting questions, the telephone rang. He stood closest to it, so he got it. "Hello?"

"Hello, Mr. Martin. Harry T. Casson here."

"What can I do for you, Mr. Casson?" Chester heard the wariness and the respect in his own voice. Rita's eyes widened. Harry T. Casson was the biggest building contractor in the Los Angeles area. Before the war, he'd wrangled again and again with the construction union Chester helped start. They didn't settle things till well after the fighting started. Now…Who could guess what was on Casson's plate now? If he wanted to try to break the union-well, he could try, but Chester didn't think he'd get away with it.