But Sani's parents were good people. They'd make a small donation, and Kal's family-his parents, him, and his younger brother Tien-would continue to be able to eat. Odd, how they survived because of others' misfortune. Maybe that was part of what made the townsfolk resent them.

Lirin finished by using a small heated rod to cauterize where he felt the stitches wouldn't be enough. Finally, he spread pungent lister's oil across the hand to prevent infection-the oil frightened away rotspren even better than soap and water. Kal wrapped on clean bandages, careful not to disturb the splints.

Lirin disposed of the finger, and Kal began to relax. She'd be all right.

"You still need to work on those nerves of yours, son," Lirin said softly, washing blood from his hands.

Kal looked down.

"It is good to care," Lirin said. "But caring-like anything else-can be a problem if it interferes with your ability to perform surgery."

Caring too much can be a problem? Kal thought back at his father. And what about being so selfless that you never charge for your work? He didn't dare say the words.

Cleaning the room came next. It seemed like half of Kal's life was spent cleaning, but Lirin wouldn't let him go until they were done with it. At least he opened the shutters, letting sunlight stream in. Sani continued to doze; the winterwort would keep her unconscious for hours yet.

"So where were you?" Lirin asked, bottles of oil and alcohol clinking as he returned them to their places.

"With Jam."

"Jam is two years your senior," Lirin said. "I doubt he has much fondness for spending his time with those much younger than he."

"His father started training him in the quarterstaff," Kal said in a rush. "Tien and I went to see what he's learned." Kal cringed, waiting for the lecture.

His father just continued, wiping down each of his surgeon's knives with alcohol, then oil, as the old traditions dictated. He didn't turn toward Kal.

"Jam's father was a soldier in Brightlord Amaram's army," Kal said tentatively. Brightlord Amaram! The noble lighteyed general who watched over northern Alethkar. Kal wanted so much to see a real lighteyes, not stuffy old Wistiow. A soldier, like everyone talked about, like the stories were about.

"I know about Jam's father," Lirin said. "I've had to operate on that lame leg of his three times now. A gift of his glorious time as a soldier."

"We need soldiers, father. You'd have our borders violated by the Thaylens?"

"Thaylenah is an island kingdom," Lirin said calmly. "They don't share a border with us."

"Well, then, they could attack from sea!"

"They're mostly tradesmen and merchants. Every one I've met has tried to swindle me, but that's hardly the same thing as invading."

All the boys liked to tell stories about far-off places. It was hard to remember that Kal's father-the only man of second nahn in the town-had traveled all the way to Kharbranth during his youth.

"Well, we fight with someone," Kal continued, moving to scrub the floor.

"Yes," his father said after a pause. "King Gavilar always finds people for us to fight. That much is true."

"So we need soldiers, like I said."

"We need surgeons more." Lirin sighed audibly, turning away from his cabinet. "Son, you nearly cry each time someone is brought to us; you grind your teeth anxiously during even simple procedures. What makes you think you could actually hurt someone?"

"I'll get stronger."

"That's foolishness. Who's put these ideas in your head? Why would you want to learn to hit other boys with a stick?"

"For honor, Father," Kal said. "Who tells stories about surgeons, for the Heralds's sake!"

"The children of the men and women whose lives we save," Lirin said evenly, meeting Kal's gaze. "That's who tell stories of surgeons."

Kal blushed and shrank back, then finally returned to his scrubbing.

"There are two kinds of people in this world, son," his father said sternly. "Those who save lives. And those who take lives."

"And what of those who protect and defend? The ones who save lives by taking lives?"

His father snorted. "That's like trying to stop a storm by blowing harder. Ridiculous. You can't protect by killing."

Kal kept scrubbing.

Finally, his father sighed, walking over and kneeling down beside him, helping with the scrubbing. "What are the properties of winterwort?"

"Bitter taste," Kal said immediately, "which makes it safer to keep, since people won't eat it by accident. Crush it to powder, mix it with oil, use one spoonful per ten brickweight of the person you're drugging. Induces a deep sleep for about five hours."

"And how can you tell if someone has the fiddlepox?"

"Nervous energy," Kal said, "thirst, trouble sleeping, and swelling on the undersides of the arms."

"You've got such a good mind, son," Lirin said softly. "It took me years to learn what you've done in months. I've been saving. I'd like to send you to Kharbranth when you turn sixteen, to train with real surgeons."

Kal felt a spike of excitement. Kharbranth? That was in an entirely different kingdom! Kal's father had traveled there as a courier, but he hadn't trained there as a surgeon. He'd learned from old Vathe in Shorse broon, the nearest town of any size.

"You have a gift from the Heralds themselves," Lirin said, resting a hand on Kal's shoulder. "You could be ten times the surgeon I am. Don't dream the small dreams of other men. Our grandfathers bought and worked us to the second nahn so that we could have full citizenship and the right of travel. Don't waste that on killing."

Kal hesitated, but soon found himself nodding. "Three of sixteen ruled, but now the Broken One reigns." -Collected: Chachanan, 1173, 84 seconds pre-death. Subject: a cutpurse with the wasting sickness, of partial Iriali descent. The highstorm eventually subsided. It was the dusk of the day the boy had died, the day Syl had left him. Kaladin slid on his sandals-the same ones he'd taken from the leathery-faced man on that first day-and stood up. He walked through the crowded barrack.

There were no beds, just one thin blanket per bridgeman. One had to choose whether to use it for cushioning or warmth. You could freeze or you could ache. Those were a bridgeman's options, though several of the bridgemen had found a third use for the blankets. They wrapped them around their heads, as if to block out sight, sound, and smell. To hide from the world.

The world would find them anyway. It was good at these kinds of games.

Rain fell in sheets outside, the wind still stiff. Flashes lit the western horizon, where the center of the storm flew onward. This was an hour or so before the riddens, and was as early as one would want to go out in a highstorm.

Well, one never wanted to go out in a highstorm. But this was about as early as it was safe to go out. The lightning had passed; the winds were manageable.

He passed through the dim lumberyard, hunched against the wind. Branches lay scattered about like bones in a whitespine's lair. Leaves were plastered by rainwater to the rough sides of barracks. Kaladin splashed through puddles that chilled and numbed his feet. That felt good; they were still sore from the bridge run earlier.

Waves of icy rain blew across him, wetting his hair, dripping down his face and into his scruffy beard. He hated having a beard, particularly the way the whiskers itched at the corners of his mouth. Beards were like axehound pups. Boys dreamed of the day they'd get one, never realizing how annoying they could be.

"Out for a stroll, Your Lordship?" a voice said.

Kaladin looked up to find Gaz huddled in a nearby hollow between two of the barracks. Why was he out in the rain?

Ah. Gaz had fastened a small metal basket on the leeward wall of one of the barracks, and a soft glowing light came from within. He left his spheres out in the storm, then had come out early to retrieve them.