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“I assume you talked with the jurors about Wright’s position on our case,” said Nina.

“Yes.”

“What was it?”

“It was eight to five in favor of Mike at lunchtime. You were about to lose.”

“Remarkable timing, then,” she said. “Apparently, the replacement juror favored Lindy and they all swung back around.”

“Remarkable, yes.”

“Well, don’t look at me. I didn’t do it.”

“I know. Maybe Lindy Markov did, but if she did, I can’t find any proof.”

“So that’s it?”

“Met by a rock wall, most people stop.”

“You’re leaving?”

“Back to Carmel. Then D.C.”

“You’re going back?” she asked, and something about his demeanor suddenly made her very apprehensive. “I thought that job would be over by now.”

“Nina, I have something to tell you and it’s not going to be easy. Now my pattern in the past under similar circumstances has always been to be noble and blame myself for everything. That way, I get what I want and we both go away feeling good, but rather than lie to you and make it easy, I’ve decided to tell you the truth. You deserve that much from me. And I know you can take it.”

“Fire away,” she said gamely. She did not wish to hear whatever he wanted to say to her at that moment but short of running away, she knew she could not escape.

“You are a selfish woman. You want what you want when you want it. Okay, fine. That’s modern, even cool. Sometimes it’s even attractive. Except when it comes to me.”

She absorbed the blow. “It’s possible you have a point…”

“And this case has changed you.”

“What do you mean?”

“You’ve done things that surprised me.”

“Such as?”

“You choose your work over your friends. Your moral gray area expands directly in proportion to the size of the pot.”

“I can’t believe you of all people are criticizing the way I do my job! You never followed a rule in your life!”

“That’s me,” said Paul. “We’re talking about you.”

“Let’s leave my work out of this discussion.”

“But we can’t. You’re such a lawyer, always organizing and pigeonholing like mad. Here’s Paul over here, in love with me, wishing he could marry me. I’m a busy woman. I’ll give him forty-nine percent. Well, I don’t give fifty-one percent to your forty-nine. We both give one hundred percent, otherwise it’s a waste of time.”

“Paul-”

“Now hang on, let me finish. I’m taking the security job in Washington, D.C.”

“What? No!” Now this she had never expected! She felt like he’d taken her by the ankles and flipped her overboard as Lindy had done with Mike on the boat. “Have you lost your mind? You don’t want that job!”

“I do want that job.”

“I don’t understand. Things have been going so well. I thought we were happy together.”

“We are, Nina, on the rare occasion we’re together,” Paul said. “But it’s not enough for me to flit in and out of your life like I do.”

“But that suits us!”

“It suits you. You need someone who wants you less than I do. You need someone available only when you’re hungry, who just simmers patiently the rest of the time. I am not a back burner type of guy.”

“I don’t want you to go,” she said.

“No, you don’t,” Paul said, “because I’m handy. But I’m going.”

“You can’t,” she said, casting about in her mind for the right thing to say and coming up blank. What right did she have to keep him here? He was a passionate man, and he deserved his match in a woman. “I have lots of work for you here!” she said, knowing how weak it sounded.

“Nina. Don’t pretend you miss the point.”

“I need you.”

“Yes, you do, much more than you realize. But remember, we’re friends for life. Anybody’s legs need breaking, you know who to call.”

“You’ll be three thousand miles away.”

“A hop, skip, and a jump,” he said.

He might as well be in Antarctica. The cold Atlantic was a long, long way from these western mountains. “You’re leaving for good?”

“For a year, Nina.”

“How can you leave California? What about your business in Carmel? You can’t go.”

“Yeah, I knew it would surprise you.”

“Look, I am selfish. And I know I’m high-maintenance. But-maybe I’m worth it!”

“You are, sweetheart. And I know there are plenty of guys who’ll be happy to pick up the slack when I let go.” He looked at his watch. “Phew. It’s already two o’clock. Now that’s off my chest, I’ve got to hit the road. But you know what would be good?”

She had no idea what would ever be good again.

“A last little taste of that tempura at Sato’s would really hit the spot on the way out of town…”

“Wait a minute. I have more to say,” Nina said.

“You can’t change my mind, so don’t waste your breath. Want to go get a bite with me?”

“No. I don’t have time,” Nina said.

Paul put his head back and laughed.

“How can you be so casual about this!” she cried. “We’re breaking up!”

“And I feel like shit about it, too. Now, c’mon. Give me another half an hour of your precious time so that we can do this thing properly. You can get on my case all you want. My treat.”

“I really can’t. Genevieve hasn’t left yet. I have to say good-bye to her.”

They walked back to her office in silence, holding hands. Nina could not speak, and Paul seemed as usual. An earthquake had shaken the world, but everything looked the same, and even sounded the same. He whistled through most of the walk back.

When they got there, Paul said, “ ’Bye, then.” He kissed her gently, walked over to his van, waved, and drove away.

As she walked down the hall to her office, she didn’t think about him leaving, but flashed back instead on the rough texture of the hair on his arms, and how poorly matched the two of them were physically, with him so large and her so small-how was it they had ever fit so well? She thought about his long thighs rubbing against her and the curve of his arm, enveloping her in his scent.

Damn him for those things he said! Damn him for giving up on her!

Sandy had deserted her desk. Nina found her with Wish, who had returned from his lunch. Holding a big green trash bag, he picked up loose bits of paper, rubber bands, and paper clips from the hallway.

“I’m going to miss them,” said Nina, crossing her arms and watching. After a minute contemplating the wreckage, she pitched in. They wandered into the empty rooms, picking things up in preparation for vacuuming. Where Genevieve’s desk had been, a silver chain twinkled on the floor beside a forgotten earring. In Winston’s office, wadded up candy wrappers revealed a secret love of licorice, and empty cola cans had been neatly stacked for recycling in one corner.

“Uh-oh,” Nina said. A piece of baseboard had dislodged where Winston’s desk had been. Moving day had been rough on this office. She knelt to try to push it back into place, and caught sight of something no bigger than a spider in one corner that looked like it had fallen behind the baseboard. Leaning over to examine the area, she picked up a small metal disk. “Some kind of battery.” Maybe for that little radio he always wore when he jogged? Or a watch? “He has all kinds of watches. Sandy, why don’t you pop this in the mail to him. It’s unusual. Maybe hard to replace.” She held it for them both to admire. “It’s terrific how minuscule they can make those things.”

Wish took it from her. Setting the bag down, he walked over to the window and took a closer look. “That’s not a battery. Look at these little holes here.”

Nina peered over his shoulder. “Well, what is it?”

“Hmmm,” said Wish. “A microphone?” He twisted the tiny thing between huge fingers.

“What?”

“Well, it looks a little like a bug… but…” He put the object very close to his eyes and studied it.

“You’ve been filling your head up with junk, reading those spy magazines,” Sandy said. “I told you that was a waste of time.”

“Well, maybe so,” Wish said. He set the disk down on the windowsill. “I’m probably wrong.”