For ten years, he never stopped trying. He nagged me for a full face-lift at forty. At forty-five, I knew I could probably use one, but still I wouldn’t submit.

“Nothing can make me twenty-five again,” I said. “I’ll take my chances with wrinkles.”

It was the worst rejection a plastic surgeon could have. I made him look bad. Everyone could see my lines and wrinkles. These normal signs of aging became an accusation. They said every woman but his wife believed Eric was a fine surgeon.

When I turned fifty, Eric quit asking. That’s when our hot nights together cooled. I suspected there were other women, but knew the affairs weren’t serious. Now things had changed. Eric was going to marry a twenty-five-year-old blonde. In another five years, she’d submit to his knife.

Suddenly, I was back in the hotel ballroom. The headmaster’s speech had reached its crescendo. “We have almost everything we need to make the Drexal School the finest educational institution in Broward County. Only one thing is missing. After today, we’ll have it all. I’m pleased to announce the creation of the Drexal Panthers—our own football team. Your donations have made it possible.”

The lunching mothers cheered wildly.

I looked down at my plate and realized I’d eaten an entire slice of chocolate cheesecake with raspberry sauce.

Worse, I hadn’t tasted one bite.

No wonder I was fat.

On the way home, I picked up some college catalogues. I made myself a stiff drink and settled into my favorite chair in the great room to study the glossy catalogues. I looked at careers for legal aides, dental assistants, and licensed practical nurses. One choice seemed more depressing than the other.

What had I wanted to be before I met Eric?

An English teacher. Back then, I saw myself teaching poetry to eager young minds, watching them open like flowers with the beauty of the written word. Now, I knew I couldn’t cope with the young ruffians at the public schools. Would the Drexal School hire an Angel down on her luck? Would the headmaster remember how often I’d lunched to make his dream team possible?

If I went back to college, how many years would I need to complete my degree? Would my life experience count for anything? What had I done in fifty-five years?

I fell asleep on the pile of catalogues. I woke up at midnight when I heard Eric unlock the door. I hid the catalogues with my arms, but he never noticed them. Or me. He went straight to bed without even saying good night.

I woke up at three. I couldn’t sleep through the night anymore. I kept vampire hours now. I drifted into the living room and watched the condo across the way. There was another party tonight. This time, the music seemed livelier, the guests more keyed up, more dramatically dressed, as if they were at some special ceremony.

Our condo walls seemed to close in on me. I slipped on my jeans and a cotton shirt. I was going for a walk along the water, even if it killed me. I’d rather risk death than suffocate inside.

The night air was delicious, cool but not cold. I was drawn to the lights of the Dark Harbor party, and picked my way along the docks until I was almost underneath its windows. I couldn’t see anything, but I could feel the contained excitement inside. The walls seemed to pulse with life.

“Wish you were here?”

I jumped at the voice—very rich, very male.

The man who came out of the shadows wore evening dress. His skin looked luminous in the moonlight. His hair was black with a slight curl. There was strength in his face, and a hint of cruelty. I couldn’t tell his age. He seemed beyond such ordinary measures.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to trespass,” I said.

“You aren’t trespassing, Katherine,” he said. “You spend a lot of time watching us, don’t you?”

“Am I that obvious?” I said.

“No,” he said. “But I feel your yearning. It makes you very beautiful—and very vulnerable.”

Inside the condo, there was a shriek of triumph, followed by polite tennis-match applause.

“Excuse me,” he said. “I must return to my guests. My name is Michael, by the way.”

“Will I see you again?” I said.

“If you want to,” he said.

He was gone. Only then did I wonder how he knew my name.

I floated back to my condo wrapped in soft, warm clouds of fantasy. How long had it been since any man had called me beautiful?

I was beautiful. Michael made me feel that way. I crawled into bed beside my husband and dreamed of another man.

In the morning, I woke up smiling and refreshed. For the first time in months, I didn’t check my mirror for more ravages. I didn’t need to. I was beautiful. Michael had said so. I was dreamy as a lovesick teenager, until the phone shattered the sweet silence at eleven a.m.

“Katherine, it’s Patricia.” Of course it was. She’d slept with my husband and confessed it in a public restroom. I’d know her honking voice anywhere. Except today it had a different note. She sounded subdued, even frightened. “Have you heard about Jack?”

“Jack who?” I said.

“Margaret’s Jack. They found his body in the parking lot of his law office early this morning.”

“What happened?” I said. “Was he mugged?”

“They don’t think so,” Patricia said. “The police say the murder didn’t take place there. They think he was abducted.”

“Kidnapped and murdered? But why?” Which wife killed him, I wondered. How many deserted women wished him dead?

“No one knows. But it gets worse. Jack’s body was drained of blood. Completely dry.”

“That’s awful,” I said. “I’ll go see Margaret immediately.”

I hung up the phone quickly, hoping to hide my elation. Jack the Ripper was dead—horribly dead. My husband no longer had a divorce lawyer. I felt a brief stab of shame for my selfish thoughts, but Jack’s death was poetic justice. Someone had sucked the blood out of the city’s biggest bloodsucker. Someone had given me more time.

I put on a navy pantsuit and a long face, and stopped by a smart specialty shop for a cheese tray and a bottle of wine. My long-dead mother would be proud. She’d taught me to bring food to a house of mourning.

There were other cars in Margaret’s driveway, including what looked like unmarked police cars and three silver Lexuses. Lawyers’ cars.

Margaret was a wreck. Her eyes were deeply bagged and swollen. Her jawline sagged nearly as badly as mine. All my husband’s fine work was undone. I felt petty for noticing. She’s a new widow, I told myself. Show some pity.

“Katherine!” Margaret ran weeping into my arms, smearing my jacket with makeup.

“I’m sorry,” I said, patting her nearly fleshless back. I could feel her thin bones. It wasn’t a lie. I was sorry for so many things, including the death of our friendship. Women need the sympathy of our own kind. Margaret had destroyed even that small comfort for me.

“Come into the garden where we can talk,” she said. “The police are searching Jack’s home office. Three lawyers from his firm and a court-appointed guardian are arguing over what papers they can take.”

We sat at an umbrella table near a bubbling fountain. Palms rustled overhead. Impatiens bloomed at our feet. It looked like every other garden in Florida. A Hispanic maid brought iced tea, lemon slices, and two kinds of artificial sweetener.

“May I have sugar, please?” I asked.

“Sugar?” the maid said, as if she’d never heard the word.

“You use sugar?” Margaret might be dazed with grief, but she was still surprised by my request. In our crowd, sleeping with a friend’s husband was a faux pas. Taking sugar in your tea was a serious sin.

“Doctor’s orders,” I said. “Sweeteners are out. Cancer in the family.”

Actually, I liked real sugar. And it was only eighteen calories a spoonful.

“How are you?” I asked.

“I don’t know,” Margaret said. Two more tears escaped her swollen eyelids. “I thought Jack was seeing someone, and that’s why he worked late so often these last few weeks. I was furious, but I couldn’t say anything. I was too afraid.”