There were two other people inside the église parroissial of Luz Saint Sauveur. Sitting on the rear pew with a woman who seemed to be his mother was a young and evidently retarded man. His eyes were rolling, a wet line of spittle ran down his chin, like the track of a slug. His mother’s face was prematurely aged, visibly wearied by the necessity of caring for the son. The cretin. David felt a surge of sympathy; he offered the woman a helpless but sincere smile.
Amy had been staring at the altar, and the chancels. Her expression, as she returned, was despairing.
‘I don’t get it. There’s nothing.’
‘I’m not so sure…maybe there is something.’
‘Sorry?’
He gazed her way.
‘Look for two. Two of something. Two doors, two cemeteries, two -’
‘Two fonts? I saw two fonts. Over here…’
They walked over, their footsteps echoing in the stony silence.
This church also had two fonts, and one of them was hidden away in a cobwebbed corner, half-concealed, musty. It was small and humble and somehow melancholy.
Just like in Lesaka.
Amy said: ‘But…Why two? Why ever should there be two?’
‘I don’t know,’ he answered. ‘Let’s just keep going.’
Another tense and silent hour found them in the remote Pyrenean village of Campan, sequestered and isolated at the end of a side-valley. David buzzed down the window and stared, as they rolled down the main street.
Every house had a large rag doll grinning in the window, or at the door. Gawky rag dolls, almost the size of grown men, were sitting in shop windows. Another big doll was lying on the road, fallen from some high sill – it stared up at the wild Pyrenean peaks that imprisoned Campan.
Amy gazed at the dolls.
‘Jesus.’
They parked in a side street and strode to the empty centre of the village. Their route passed a tiny, rundown, shuttered office du tourisme; in the window of the office was a small typed sign. Amy read it aloud, and then translated for David’s benefit: the festival of rag-doll-making was apparently a local tradition, for centuries the people of little Campan had made these big effigies, known as mounaques, and in mid September the people would put their handmade rag dolls on display in windows and doors, in shops and in cars.
It was a village of dolls. A village of silent, impassive doll faces, smiling absurdly at nothing. The smiles felt like jeers or insults.
Not that there was anyone to feel menaced or insulted: Campan was deserted, locked up, empty, taciturn, shuttered. One old woman was stepping out of a horse meat shop; she stared their way, then frowned, and walked quickly around the corner.
They reached the main place of Campan. A mournful war memorial, a bus stop, and a shop, also closed, marked the centre of everything; one short road led to a bridge, over the rushing River Adour. Even from here David could see that the opposite bank of the river was utterly derelict, a field of roofless cottages and mouldering barns.
Campan was wholly empty, and half abandoned.
The other road off the place led straight to the church. A metal gate gave onto an overgrown churchyard surrounded by a tall, grey stone wall.
The church door itself was open, so they stepped straight through. The nave was adorned with cheap purple plastic flowers. Four dolls sat on the front pew, staring at the altar: an entire manikin family.
David hunted for twoness, yet he couldn’t find it. Campan had one font, one door, one pulpit and four rag dolls grinning like cretins, like inbred retards.
Not two.
Amy maybe sensed his frustration, she put a hand on his shoulder.
‘Maybe it’s more complicated…’
‘No. I’m sure that’s it. Two. It has to be.’ He was snapping the words angrily, and unfairly. Amy flinched, and he apologized. He said he needed fresh air and stepped outside again, into the churchyard. The overcast autumn day was clammy and oppressive, but still an improvement on the dankness of the interior.
He breathed in, he breathed out, calming himself. Staring lucidly. Working it out. The distant mountaintops peered over the plastered brickwork of the church wall.
David gazed at the wall.
If there was a second door it might be in this strange, high castellated wall, which barricaded the entire churchyard.
His search was hampered by the wet brambles that brawled between the graves. Enormous spiders scuttled from his steps.
‘What are you doing?’
Amy had followed him out.
He lifted a hand, without turning.
‘Looking…for doors. In this wall. Don’t know what else to do.’
He kicked his way through the sodden undergrowth, flattening wild roses, and clambering over broken tombstones. The air was damp to the point of rain; the graves were slippery to the touch. He climbed and slithered and examined.
The wall was intact, the ancient bricks were apparently unpierced. Amy called out.
‘Here!’
She was behind him, pulling back some ivy, which had draped one section of the wall. Behind the ivy was a door, shut and dead, but a door. He hurried over and leaned near to see: the tiny door exuded age, the stone surround was crooked, the brown wood was rotten, yet the door was somehow still firm. Resolutely shut. Shut for centuries.
David looked closer. The lintel was carved.
Urgently he ripped away the last coils of ivy and revealed the inscripted symbol in the centre of the stone.
‘Here.’ He was anxiously excited. ‘This arrow. I keep seeing it. The font, the doors, the arrows.’
Amy was shaking her head.
‘That’s not an arrow.’
‘What?’
‘I know that’s not an arrow.’
‘How?’
‘Because there’s one on a house in Elizondo. I remember walking past it with José, one day years back. I asked him what the symbol meant. He was evasive. Oddly evasive.’
‘I don’t -’
‘All I remember is this: what he called it, Patte d’oie. I remember distinctly because he used the French.’
‘Patt – what does that mean. Patt…?’
‘Patte d’oie. Goose’s foot. An ancient symbol.’ Amy brushed some more mud from the incised lines, so brusquely carved into the stone. ‘This is a goose’s foot, not an arrow. It’s a webbed goose’s foot.’
15
They were on the last leg now: heading for the last place marked on the map. Approaching the heart of the maze.
Navvarenx. Near to Gurs.
Navvarenx was north by a distance, so they pulled over at a garage for more fuel. David walked to the tiny shop, trying to work out what the doors meant. Smaller doors, smaller cemeteries, smaller fonts. Why?
It didn’t make sense. Why was everything duplicated in this eccentric, almost insulting way? Was it a kind of apartheid, like benches for black people in 50s Alabama? Like old South Africa?
Or was it something else? Could they be smaller doors for…smaller people?
But that hardly made sense, smaller people could use any door.
A bell jingled as he entered the garage shop; he went straight to the till and bought Amy a new sim card, and an entirely new cellphone – just in case. The garage owner was eating red saucisson and baguette as he totted up the bill. David stared at the sum on the receipt, trying to remind himself he didn’t have to worry about money.
Back in the car they were both pensive and subdued. And David felt the sadness tighten as they made the last drive. He thought of his parents. And the memories loomed in his mind, even as the mountains faded behind them in the mirror.
He was on his grandfather’s sturdy shoulders, his infant mouth clouded with pink cotton candy. The blue Pacific was sparkling and his mum was young and walking beside them, and his dad was there too, and laughing. When was that? What were they doing there? How old was he then? Five? Seven? Nine? It was a blur, too faint to discern.