He shook his head slowly. "No one has come seeking the White Prophet since winter closed on us." He halted, reading the worry in my face. "Of course, I do not know of all who come here. They may be in Jhaampe. But I have heard nothing of two such as that." He reluctantly added, "Bandits prey on roadside travelers now. Perhaps they were delayed."

Perhaps they were dead. They had come back for me, and I had sent them on alone.

"Fitz?"

"I'm all right. Fool, a favor?"

"I like not that tone already. What is it?"

"Tell no one I am here. Tell no one I am alive, just yet."

He sighed. "Not even Kettricken? To tell her that Verity lives still?"

"Fool, what I have come to do, I intend to do alone. I would not raise false hopes in her. She has endured the news of his death once. If I can bring him back to her, then will be time enough for true rejoicing. I know I ask much. But let me be a stranger you are aiding. Later, I may need your aid in obtaining an old map from the Jhaampe libraries. But when I leave here, I would go alone. I think this quest is one best accomplished quietly." I glanced aside from him and added, "Let FitzChivalry remain dead. Mostly, it is better so."

"Surely you will at least see Chade?" He was incredulous.

"Not even Chade should know I live." I paused, wondering which would anger the old man more: that I had attempted to kill Regal when he had always forbidden it, or that I had so badly botched the task. "This quest must be mine alone." I watched him and saw a grudging acceptance in his face.

He sighed again. "I will not say I agree with you completely. But I shall tell no one who you are." He gave a small laugh. Talk fell off between us. The bottle of brandy was empty. We were reduced to silence, staring at one another drunkenly. The fever and the brandy burned in me. I had too many things to think of and too little I could do about any of them. If I lay very still, the pain in my back subsided to a red throb. It kept pace with the beating of my heart.

"Too bad you didn't manage to kill Regal," the Fool observed suddenly.

"I know. I tried. As a conspirator and an assassin, I'm a failure."

He shrugged for me. "You were never really good at it, you know. There was a naïveté to you that none of the ugliness could stain, as if you never truly believed in evil. It was what I liked best about you." The Fool swayed slightly where he sat, but righted himself. "It was what I missed most, when you were dead."

I smiled foolishly. "A while back, I thought it was my great beauty."

For a time the Fool just looked at me. Then he glanced aside and spoke quietly. "Unfair. Were I myself, I would never have spoken such words aloud. Still. Ah, Fitz." He looked at me and shook his head fondly. He spoke without mockery, making almost a stranger of himself. "Perhaps half of it was that you were so unaware of it. Not like Regal. Now there's a pretty man, but he knows it too well. You never see him with his hair tousled or the red of the wind on his cheeks."

For a moment I felt oddly uncomfortable. Then I said, "Nor with an arrow in his back, more's the pity," and we both went off into the foolish laughter that only drunks understand. It woke the pain in my back to a stabbing intensity however, and in a moment I was gasping for breath. The Fool rose, steadier on his feet than I would have expected, to take a drippy bag of something off my back and replace it with one almost uncomfortably warm from a pot on the hearth. That done, he came again to crouch beside me. He looked directly in my eyes, his yellow ones as hard to read as his colorless ones had been. He laid one long cool hand along my cheek and then gentled the hair back from my eyes.

"Tomorrow," he told me gravely. "We shall be ourselves again. The Fool and the Bastard. Or the White Prophet and the Catalyst, if you will. We will have to take up those lives, as little as we care for them, and fulfill all fate has decreed for us. But for here, for now, just between us two, and for no other reason save I am me and you are you, I tell you this. I am glad, glad that you are alive. To see you take breath puts the breath back in my lungs. If there must be another my fate is twined around, I am glad it is you."

He leaned forward then and for an instant pressed his brow to mine. Then he breathed a heavy sigh and drew back from me. "Go to sleep, boy," he said in a fair imitation of Chade's voice. "Tomorrow comes early. And we've work to do." He laughed unevenly. "We've the world to save, you and I."

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

Confrontations

The days that followed were not days for me, but disjointed periods of wakefulness interspersed with wavery fever dreams. Either my brief talk with the Fool had burned my last reserves, or I finally felt safe enough to surrender to my injury. Perhaps it was both. I lay on a bed near the Fool's hearth and felt wretchedly dull when I felt anything at all. Overheard conversations rattled against me. I slipped in and out of awareness of my own misery, but never far away, like a drum beating the tempo of my pain was Verity's Come to me, come to me. Other voices came and went through the haze of my fever but his was a constant.

"She believes you are the one she seeks. I believe it, too. I think you should see her. She has come a long and weary way, seeking the White Prophet." Jofron's voice was low and reasonable.

I heard the Fool set down his rasp with a clack. "Tell her she is mistaken, then. Tell her I am the White Toymaker. Tell her the White Prophet lives farther down the street, five doors down on the left."

"I will not make mock of her," Jofron said seriously. "She has traveled a vast distance to seek you and on the journey lost all but her life. Come, holy one. She waits outside. Will not you talk to her, just for a bit?"

"Holy one," the Fool snorted with disdain. "You have been reading too many old scrolls. As has she. No, Jofron." Then he sighed, and relented. "Tell her I will talk with her two days hence. But not today."

"Very well." Jofron plainly did not approve. "But there is another one with her. A minstrel. I don't think she will be put off as easily. I think she is seeking him."

"Ah, but no one knows he is here. Save you, me, and the healer. He wishes to be left alone for a time, while he heals."

I moved my mouth. I tried to say I would see Starling, that I had not meant to turn Starling away.

"I know that. And the healer is still at Cedar Knoll. But she is a smart one, this minstrel. She has asked the children for news of a stranger. And the children, as usual, know everything."

"And tell everything," the Fool replied glumly. I heard him fling down another tool in annoyance. "I see I have but one choice then."

"You will see them?"

A snort of laughter from the Fool. "Of course not. I mean that I will lie to them."

Afternoon sun slanting across my closed eyes. I woke to voices, arguing.