So my first impulse was to say no, for I hate prolonging any relationship that the meaning has gone out of. But then I remembered Constantia and I thought again. I hadn’t forgotten her but I had pushed her out of my mind while reading Christopher’s letter.

Christopher hadn’t mentioned Constantia in his letter but she was there all the same, in the wistful tone of it and the scarcely concealed bitterness. Yet he had no right to feel bitter; she told me that at one time she would have married him gladly if he had asked her. She was thirty-two and wanted to get married. But he didn’t ask her. She hadn’t told me, but I am sure that their relationship was never more than an amitié amoureuse. It was a sentimental attachment with the same unreality about it that there was in everything he did, and I felt no qualms about taking her from him. It is true that I met her through him—at Crossways, as a matter of fact, at a week-end party—and to that extent I owed her to him. But that is an unreal way of looking at things, and I did not think I was betraying his hospitality or anything of that sort, when I persuaded her that I could give her more than he could. He had no right to keep her indefinitely paddling in the shallows in which his own life was passing. But though we were lovers she hadn’t said that she would marry me and I guessed it was some scruple about Christopher that stopped her.

I suppose some of her tenderness for him must have entered into me for when I read the letter again I felt that I ought to humour him, as much for her sake as for his. After all, she was the last, the only person who cared for him in the way he wanted to be cared for—whatever that was. I should get through the week-end somehow. I wrote to Christopher and I wrote to the Hancocks, Christopher’s married couple, telling them the train that I should come by.

What surprised me, when I got there, was the familiarity of it all. I had forgotten what a frequent visitor I used to be.

‘Why, Mr. Gretton,’ Hancock said, ‘you’ve deserted us, you’re quite a stranger!’ But I didn’t feel one; I could have found my way about the house blindfolded.

‘It’s over a year since you came to us,’ he reproached me. ‘We often used to ask Mr. Fenton what had become of you.’

‘And what did he say?’ I asked.

‘Oh, he said you were too busy, but as I said, you couldn’t be too busy to get away at the week-end.’

‘Oh, but I expect you have plenty of visitors without me,’ I said.

‘No, sir, we don’t, not like we used to have. Of course it’s a nuisance, food being what it is, but Mr. Fenton likes having them, and it’s always a real treat to see you, sir. The new faces aren’t the same by any means, not the same class of people either.’ I took up the Visitors’ Book and saw several names that were strange to me. Christopher had been trying out some new friends. But there weren’t many names at all; to turn back a page was to turn back a year, and I soon found my own.

‘It does seem too bad that you should be here when Mr. Fenton isn’t,’ Hancock prattled on. ‘He always looks forward particularly to you coming, sir. Though now, of course, he’s a good deal taken up with his garden. Often he works in it quite late. He’s got to be terrible fond of flowers. Those rhododendrons he’s so set on, sir, of course they looks after themselves, as you might say. But gardeners are all alike, sir, you can’t get them to weed the flower-beds. Now this herbaceous border, sir, you can see it from the window——’ His glance invited me to go to the window, but for some reason I didn’t want to go. ‘Often of an evening I go to the window and see him stooping and call out to him that dinner’s ready. Would you like to see the garden, sir? He was ever so anxious you should see it.’

‘Well, not just now,’ I said. ‘Of course I shall go and see it to-morrow. Now I think I shall have a bath. Dinner’s at eight, I suppose?’

‘Yes, sir, that’s Mr. Fenton’s hour, though there’s many in these times has put it earlier. The wife she sometimes has a moan about it, but of course we have to respect Mr. Fenton’s wishes.’

A question that had absurdly been nagging me all day now demanded utterance. ‘I’ve brought my dinner-jacket, Hancock,’ I said, ‘because I know Mr. Fenton likes one to change for dinner. But as I’m going to be alone, do you suppose he would mind?’

‘Well, sir, it’s just as you like, of course, but you won’t be alone because there’s a lady coming.’

‘A lady?’

‘Yes, sir, didn’t you know? But perhaps Mr. Fenton forgot to tell you. He’s been very forgetful lately, we’ve both remarked on it. Yes, sir, Miss Constantia Corwen, you know her, don’t you, you’ve stayed with her here several times. A tall lady.’

‘Yes,’ I said, ‘I know her quite well. I wonder if Mr. Fenton told her I was going to be here.’

‘Oh yes, sir, I expect so. He wouldn’t forget the same thing twice.’

It was six o’clock. I went to my room, meaning to stay there till dinnertime, but when I heard the crunch of wheels curiosity overcame me and I tiptoed out on to the landing above the hall and listened.

‘Yes, Miss,’ I heard Hancock say, ‘the master was dreadfully cut up about missing the flowers and all on account of spring being so late.’

I could understand Constantia making sympathetic noises, but there were tears in her voice as she said, ‘Yes, it was terribly bad luck. I am so sorry. Is there time to go out and see the garden now?’

‘Well, Miss, it’s just as you like but dinner’s at eight and there’s a soufflé.’

‘I shall only be a moment and I think I won’t change for dinner as I shall be alone.’

There was quite a long pause and then Hancock said, in a puzzled, different voice, ‘You won’t be altogether alone, Miss, because you see Mr. Gretton’s here.’

‘Mr. Gretton?’

‘Yes, Miss. Didn’t Mr. Fenton tell you?’

‘No, he must have forgotten. I think I’ll go up to my room now.’

‘Yes, Miss, it’s the usual one. I’ll bring your things.’

We were sitting together in the drawing-room after dinner, still a little in the shadow of our first embarrassed greeting. When we met in public we often didn’t smile; but never until now had we not smiled when we met in private.

‘Should we take a turn in the garden?’ Constantia asked.

I demurred. ‘It’s too late, don’t you think? Probably all the flowers are shut up for the night.’

‘I don’t think rhododendrons shut up,’ Constantia said.

‘Well, there isn’t enough light to see them by.’

‘Let’s make sure,’ said Constantia, and unwillingly I followed her to the bay window. It was a house of vaguely Regency date and the drawing-room was on the first floor. The Long Walk ran at right angles to it, nearly a hundred yards away. It made the southern boundary of the garden. We could see the tops of the rhododendrons, they were like a line of foam crowning a long dark billow; and in front of and below them the azaleas, a straggling line, hardly a line at all, gave an effect of sparseness and delicacy and fragility. But the colour hardly showed at all.

‘You see,’ I said. ‘You can’t see.’

She smiled. ‘Perhaps you’re right, but we’ll go first thing in the morning.’

I laughed. ‘First thing with you isn’t very early.’

We went back into the room and sat one on each side of the fireplace, trying to look and feel at home; but the constraint had not left us and the house resisted us. It would not play the host. I felt an intruder, almost a trespasser, and caught myself listening for Christopher’s footstep on the stairs.

‘Christopher’s absence is more potent than his presence,’ I said as lightly as I could.

‘Ah, poor Christopher,’ Constantia said. ‘I wish I could feel we were doing what he wanted us to do.’

‘What did he want us to do,’ I asked, ‘besides look at the flowers?’